Two entire months already!!...

[Pops]

Wow!  I can hardly believe that it has been two months since I put down those deadly daggers of death...In some ways, time has just rocketed by, then in other ways...time has been one of my worst enemies.  I know from previous quits, that what we have to do as addicts to this deadly drug of nicotine...is that we simply have to let our bodies (and minds) grow comfortable not having the presence of nicotine in our bodies 24/7.  For the most part, that is a relatively simple task, once I have been sufficiently reminded as to why I no longer do that anymore.  But there are those days....and all of you know what I'm talking about too....There are those days when the urge of smoking "just one" is up there in the front view of my stinking thinking...and it just hangs there....unwanted as it may be....it still just keeps hanging there for what sometimes seems to be an eternity.  Then finally, the urge is gone, and my life has resumed a somewhat normal way of living.  Thank God for that too.....

During those less than wonderful moments, when I am struggling....I try to remember all of the pain that I put myself through on so...so...so many different occasions.  It is then that I remember that smoking is a choice, not requirement.  If I am to have any sort of happy life in the future, then I am going to have to regain my strength by exercising better judgement with regards to my health and well being.  Simply giving into the idea that I am an addict and always have been, and therefore always will be....???? Well, those days are no longer.  I have been educated, and I have lived through, and thrived in witnessing the power of positive thinking, and group support here in the EX community.  Not to mention, the countless "attaboys" that I have been receiving from my doctors and coworkers as well.  All of these new and very much appreciated feelings and revelations are fuels for my engine that is driving me to live a much longer and healthier, and happier life.  That's not to say that I am guaranteed a longer life, however you can rest assured that I am living a much freer life, and one that I am no longer embarrassed from.

Thank you EX community for believing in me, even when I didn't.  Your constant reaching out to me and calling me back into the fold and telling me how much I was thought of and cared for....well, that certainly made it much easier for me to drop the rock of pride and ego, and simply return to a much needed fold of comfort and understanding.  I can only hope that one day my stories, or the few blogs that I have written while traveling this path....well, perhaps they can serve as a source of help for another nicotine addict that is wrestling with the concept of just how do I get started, or even more importantly...."do I even need to quit.....?"

Have a great Sunday afternoon....

Pops with 60 Days of Freedom!  Woo Hoo!!!!!

Enjoy your day, and let's go "Nationals!"