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Well, for all of you that used to accuse me of being a “heartless SOB”...things have changed...

Pops
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Hello to all of my EX friends. God knows you have all been way too generous with me and my lack of resolve in previous quits. Well, I’ve heared it said, “ no wine should be served before it’s time...In the morning of 28 August @ 7:30am, I was put to sleep and a team of six doctors removed my heart from my chest, and replaced a very weak and defective “mitral valve” with a new valve that is called a bovine valve (made from a cows valve and is expected to last for at least 30 years from now. Typically they used to use pigs valves, but they have developed a high rate of rejection and don’t last much longer than fifteen years. 

So, my attempt at heartless humor is better realized. I’m thinking that at least I have a brand new heart to successfully navigate this forever quit. Thanks in advance for all of you support. I’m sorry that I’ve been such a tool this year. 

Believe when I tell you that waking up to see that your chest has three huge tubes sticking inside your cavity for about 12” long...Yikes! That was scary. One needn’t worry about my resolve to continue with this quit. I’ve literally been to the other side, & I have no intention of foolishly ever putting a stick of nicotine in my body ever again. NOPE!!!!!  I’m being released from the hospital tomorrow morning and will get caught up with more details later. 

In the meantime, enjoy your smoke free evening, as I certainly will!!! By the way, I’m so missing my boys “Mac & Cheese!”

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Hi, and thanks for stopping by to read my page....My name is Ken Bishop...aka, Pops. I am a stubborn older addict of nicotine....I have quit on numerous occasions in the past, and have experienced great rewards as a direct result of not ingesting deadly toxins into my bloodstream. One of the curses of having a strong constitution that seems to be able to withstand much more than others can...is this...my body would still be able to move around, and get things accomplished even after I was poisoned by the harmful effects of nicotine addiction. Eventually, the harm became so significant, that not even I, with all of my denial...could avoid the truth that to continue to smoke, would most assuredly be the death of me, and in short order as well. On Sept 1st, of 2018...I found myself in a rehab facility for alcohol abuse, and came very near death. I quit messing around, and had a deep and moving spiritual encounter, and have remained sober without one single urge to pick up a drink since. That was after consuming copious amounts of booze for many years in the past. After a short while.. I asked for spiritual help from my creator to make it possible for me to get the same amount of conviction towards finally being able to successfully put down nicotine once and for all...As of....(September 14th, 2019)...I have 17 days of living smokefree! Woo Hoo!!! Friends and family are all very proud and happy for me. They have asked me what I thought was the turning point, after having experienced so many failed attempts before. I simply reply, "I took the God Shot". xoxoxo Pops update: in Dec of 19 when the stock market started going nuts...I used that as an excuse to start smoking again. I see-sawed back and forth for severa months, and when the COVID crisis hit, I simply lost all desire to be smokefree...I was going to smoke & that was final. Well, as always...the pains of excessive injestion of nicotine into my blood stream...(one puff is all it takes) started affecting my everyday life again...I knew I had to quit placating my inner child and grow up and accept a life without nicotine. The normal person would read this and say well duh...finally he's getting it. But the normally addicted nicotine addict would understand...weird huh? So now I'm back with a new quit date of July 8th, 2020 & am hoping that I can accept that as a perfect quit date that does not need to be changed. Thanks for reading and good luck to you in your quit journey. Pops w 4 DOF!