Hi EXers...
Pops is on day two (2)...
Yep, that's right..as most of you could pretty well surmise...I once again for reasons...infinitely long and not worthy of mentioning...I picked up another pack of death and proceeded to play "russian roulette" with my life. Now, after approximately 10 months of being "totally" free of the liquid courage...I felt it was time to turn out the lights on these damned smokes as well....I'm on step one of the nicoderm patch (under doctor's supervision) and am going to go completely through the program as it is written this time. Last time, I felt that I could handle it, and quit taking the patch after about one week at the behest of several other people's suggestions. (People that haven't a clue about the medical research and effort that has been put into this study as well) This time, I am going to trust in the process, and do what I am told to do by my doctor and stay the course as it is designed.
I did discover during my Drs visit, that my bp is surprisingly good considering all the stuff that has been going on @ work these days with regards to stress. 118/87..!!! I'm can certainly learn to like those numbers, since at one time in my life, I was 221/114...(how I lived through that time in my life is beyond me.....) So yesterday, being day one was hectic inasmuch as I kept on remembering at different times during the day, that I would normally be outside smoking a butt. Then I would just say that same old mantra that we all know around here...."oh yeah...I don't do that anymore..." And so here I am at 5:00 pm, leaving work, (it's been a 12 hour overtime shift today)...and I am going home to my boys...btw, Mac & Cheese are doing absolutely great these days....What a precious joy they have become for me...we are without question...thick as thieves...
This last couple of months, I have been throwing "copius amounts of money" into the motorcycle. I have joined a motorcycling club called the "Road Toads", and they have decided to call me "Pops Road Toad", and just recently patched me in as an official member...lol
We have fun together...just a bunch of old geazers getting together and riding for the joy of it. None of us drink either, and that makes for a much safer journey as well....Next month, about 12 of us are getting together for a week long journey. We are going to leave Urbana, Maryland..and travel north up through the Adirondack mountains in Pa, New York and Vermont...ending up in Bangor, Maine. The plan is to go out to Acadia National Park, and turn back around and come back home on the other side of the Adirondacks...until finally getting home. That should be a great trip.
Work has been crazy this summer! We have people that are so fed up with the bureaucracy, that they are simply throwing their hands up and walking out without notice or anything. Just saying "I've had enough...I quit!" I mean people with over 25 and 30 years...just saying enough...Craziest thing I've ever seen. I don't care how stupid upper management gets...I am never going to let someone drive me away from a career that I have worked on and earned the right to retire from. When I retire, it will be on my terms, and at the time that I choose to retire...not theirs....oh well...that's a story for pms i guess....
Anyway, let's rip the scab off the sore...I'm sorry to the group for not being a successful quitter as many of you have. I realize that I know very little about this freaking addiction. One thing that I know beyond any shadow of a doubt is this..."I will never be free of it..." I don't care how long I have been away from smoking...if I am not careful, and keeping my head on a swivel (by watching out for any sign of waning...) I can and "have" found myself standing @ a gas station counter somewhere...asking some attendant to sell me a pack of death...geeze...unbelievable how easily I can just throw away a perfect quit just to satisfy an immature decision for a moment that turns out to be a long dangerous travel...So once again, I'm sorry, and now I have to get back to the basics. I am now on day two, and headed home to the boys and dinner. I look forward to hearing from you guys again....
xoxoxo Pops with 2 Days of Freedom!
