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2018

Hello Family!!!

 

I hope all is well with my family in EX today....I am one busy Pops today...that is for sure....

Not one lingering thought of smoking...no urge, not missing it....just isn't a part of my life today....

Pops does NOT do that anymore....PERIOD!

The day is absolutley gorgeous today....I have been invited to a dear friends house @ 4 today to attend his one year olds daughters birthday celebration...such an honor to be included in on these occasions once again.  I won't be smelling of stinky cigarettes, and I will be sober as a judge.... What a beautiful life to be a part of again......

Today is 29 days free of the binds of my other issue, and 7 days without one single urge whatsoever!!!! 

Just beautiful....be well family....I'm got to run for now....xoxoxo to all of you.....

Pops with 7 days of freedom....

.....It is absolutely "perfect" just the way that it is!!!!!

Hello family....I am busy being out and about today.  I have the day off, but I have so much domestic stuff in front of me that needs to be handles...

As fort the quit....could not be any better.....not one single thought, or urge or crave, or zinger thought coming out of nowhere....My head is free to move about in this society without fear of it sabatoging me along the way.....

I hope all is well with the rest of the EXer family today....

Once again...thank each and everyone of you for your prayers & support and understanding as I was navigating some treacherous terrain last month.....

Pop is back!!!!! with 6 Days Of Freedom....woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good morning!!! 

Family...Pops is so alive on day FIVE!!!!! 

Seriously, everything is simply wonderful....I am so excited, and on point, and have absolutely zero seconds to spare in my busy, and happy & healthy day to squander any time whatsoever away by thinking about smoking...yuck....no thanks....Hang in there, and pray to get to this state of nervana...it is simply heaven....

I'm back to the grind, making the donuts.....

Pops, with Five Days of Freedom!!! Woo Hoo!!!!!

Thanks family, for believing in me.....

 

Good morning EXer family!!!!!

I certainly hope all of you are doing well this morning....I know that I certainly am....This quit is soooo natural, and is not imposing any discomfort whatsoever.  At least it doesn't appear to be to me anyway....I am so overwhelmed with just how much better I feel, and that I once again am able to go outside and take brisk walks in the cool morning air, and ascend two, or three flights of stairs instead of taking the elevator.  The terrible coughing during the night, has now stopped completely.  The damp morning air still brings out a random deep cough, however, I suspect that will soon disappear entirely as well.  Me and my family here...we are vanquishing this insidious addiction...."I am SPARTAN!"

Have a great day......

Pops w/4 Days of Freedom!!!!

                                                

Good morning EXer family!!!!!  I spent all day @ the doctors office (VA Medical facility in Washington D.C.) checking out to see what sort of damage I had done to my body while I was out there running and tearing through life!  Don't tell me there isn't a power out there looking out for me....My organs are all in great shape, to include my lungs! (if you can believe that....) My liver is great, psa levels are normal, cholesterol is only 158!!! My blood pressure simply blows me away....it is now 117 / 63!!!!!!! Thank you God!!!  It was so wonderful being able to say to the doctor, "No, I am not drinking any alcohol, nor am I ingesting any form of tobacco whatsoever...

Oddly enough, when I was in the medical clinic going through my backpack, I noticed there was a last brand new unopened pack of smokes that I had totally forgotten about in one of the side pouches...I simply returned home and threw the pack into the dumpster, (not my inside trash can).  I am having no craves or urges whatsoever, in either deadly habit.  Drink, or smoke....either one will most certainly hasten my death, and will be going against the agreement that I have with my God today....

Be well my friends...I will blog later, I have to get back to work this morning.....Have a great smokefree day!!!!!

 

Pops w/3 Days of Freedom!!!!! Woo Hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good evening family!!!

I'm back in full swing now.  Today is the first day of the rest of my life....I'm bouncing back and forth with the thought of a smoke right now, but then I am simply saying not anymore...remember you're in your forever quit.  Besides, it would make my breath stink anyway....oh yeah...they cost a small fortune....by the time I finish scanning through those thoughts...the thought of smoking has dissapated by then.  It's great how that works.

Well, for now...I am tired, and I am going to lay down & see if anything is on tv.  If not...I'm going to bed early.....

Thanks for being here to help one another....And thank all that responded to my earlier blog. 

xoxoxoxo Pops (on day one!)

Hello my wonderful and loving family....I'm so excited to announce that I am on my last pack and one half, that should last til about noon tomorrow...and that's it!  I'm starting my forever lifetime quit!  I am preparing now.  I'm now drinking 4 litres of smartwater a day, eating very healthier as a whole than I was 21 days ago...Thank you God....I guess the most important fact is that I am so so much more compliant to the powerful God that brought me back from the gates of hell....(no laughing matter to be sure).  I have been praying almost continually for the last 21 days.  It came to me during one of my morning meditation sessions yesterday.  I heard this powerful voice inside of me simply say, "okay now, enough of this...I'm tired of living in a dirty house.  It's time you got busy and cleaned my house up.  I am tired of this needless filth in my home..."  So, this time I am not quitting because I am afraid of dying, or that this deadly addiction is extremely expensive.  All of which are certainly true....Instead, I am entering into this quit with a completely different plane.  I am being asked to do this for not only myself, but a powerful and loving God that I have recently remembered.  In other words, I am now much more compliant, simply because it :IS" the right thing to do.

 

I have to get back to work now, and I promise that I will add to this blog later tonight or in the afternoon tomorrow.  I felt complelled to blog about this new found freedom, and my quit beginning tommorow!!! 

xoxoxox Pops (-1 day)

Have a great smokefree day!!!

Pops

I'm so Grateful....

Posted by Pops Sep 17, 2018

Good morning Family!!!

Oh how much I do miss this site....okay, I know alot of you are wondering how I'm doing...and for that I am sincerely grateful.  In short...I am demonstrably better this morning than I have been for the last few weeks....I still have a few nuerons, that are coming and going every so often.  However, the intervals are much longer in between, and the duration of them is not more than a couple of seconds....thank you God for that...trust me family when I tell you this...if you have never experienced anything like that great.  Personally, my mind gets terrified when that happens, or at least it did...now it is simply frustrating.  That by no means equates to me lessening the severity of the event...on that note, I am perfectly aware of just how close those extended blackout periods brought me to deaths' front door. 

So hey, on a kewl note...I am committing to a renewed quit date of NLT Sept 30, 2018....I guess the mantra that Youngatheart.7.4.12 keeps reminding us of...must ring true with me..One thing is for sure, having a drink in my hand without a smoke??? Well as the New Yorkers are famous for saying, "eating apple pie, without cheese...is like getting a kiss without a squeeze."  And for those who know me, I Love me some squeezes...lol  So, it is with great anticipation that my next quit journey "will" be final quit.  (I certainly am aware that it can be my final quit.)  As many of us have done, this is another quit...and I'm not beating myself up over it.  Instead, I am simply grateful that there is and will be a safe place to go to be amongst "my people."  So, as for the title of this blog, and the previous statement....you guys know how much I love proverbs.  Well, I heard one Saturday morning for the first time in my life, and it certainly could be applicable as a tool for me to stow away in my tool kit...

                   "It's not happy people that are Grateful...."

                   "It's Grateful people that are happy....." 

hmmm sounds like some tool for me for sure.  I invariably would think to myself when the urge of smoking would return trying to take me back, "If this quit I am on succeeds...I will be so happy."  Most people could certainly understand that sentiment.  According to this newly discovered proverb, instead of thinking like that...perhaps I should simply be grateful that I am currently quit, and focus on that only.  I would then most certainly be grateful...which would automatically make me happy! ??? make sense?  it sure does to me now.  Notwithstanding all of the other added benefits to not smoking, of which most all of us are so aware of.

p.s. I also am very much "grateful" for each and every well wishers that have encouraged me along the way.  

 

Well, I guess it is time for me to get back to making the donuts.  Have a blessed day, each and everyone of you.

 

Ken...aka Pops

 

oh, one more great quote that I suddenly remembered from the 80s when I was in Poughkeepsie, NY. 

"The things that I fear doing...those are the exact things that I must do most"

Eleanor Rosevelt founder and Chancellor of Vassar Colleg

Pops

It's been awhile....

Posted by Pops Sep 10, 2018

Hello, my dearest EXer friends.....

I know that many of you have been wondering where I have been.  I apologize that I simply couldn't bring up a coherent sentence for the last 10 days.  In keeping with the singleness of purpose of smoke cessation...I will simply say that I was in a lockdown facility for another addiction that I am battling with.  On 1 Sept, I literally thought that I was dead, and came very near being just that.  I have just yesterday been coherent enough to come on here and try to formulate a sane sentence.  Make no mistake, I simply must attack this with everything that I have in order to live through it.  

 

Youngatheart.7.4.12, you are simply on point in my case.  Liquour and quits, are a deadly cocktail.  That's not to say that all EXers mustn't drink by any means.  However I can't drink and maintain a quit.  That much is perfectly clear in my case.  As of today, I regret to inform the group that I have picked up again.  I am perfectly aware that I cannot smoke.  I won't try  to put a but in here...I will simply say that I absolutely "swear" to this group that I will return to this site, and give this cessation everything that I have. I have a mountain of anxiety and depression that needs to get handled, as well as new medications that I am taking. 

 

In the interest of the community, I will not be blogging while I am smoking.  Under no circumstances do I want to impair a newcomers quit.  As for all of the private messages...I assure you that I have read each and everyone of them, and am eternally grateful for all of your love and support.  I promise you, and anyone else that may feel the need to message me....that I will get back to you after I have shaken some of this fog out of my system.  I am not a bad person trying to be better, rather I am a sick person trying to get well.  (just not in all areas of my life for now) I certainly hope you can appreciate that.  

 

I pray that I have not offended any of you by continuing to smoke, however, I can completely understand your sentiments if you feel that I have.  In the interest of the EX community as a whole, (as this topic fails to fulfill the singleness of purpose) please respond to me in a private message.  I will leave the blog up for comments, and you can all feel free to beat on me if you feel the need, but I hope that you would take that offline to prevent emitting a mixed message to the rest of the site.  Perhaps as a community...you can find some good in it.  Hey, at least I make a bad example pretty will... (my poor attempt at humor). As for me....I'm still shaky and might be slow to get back with you.

 

God bless all of you, and may you have the greatest of success in your quit!  

 

Pops,

 

P.S. No Mark, I am not leaving the site...I am just going under for a bit...until I can regain some strength in this other area.  I need to be able to access my messages if needed.