I really want to quit smoking. The same thing happens each time. I am out of cigarettes. I try to sleep the first couple of days so I sleep through the cravings. When I wake up, I start to have a craving and I hear this voice (not literally) telling me to go buy a pack of cigarettes. I try to convince myself that if I wait to late into the night and I am unable to quit, then I will have none to fall back on. This sets me up each time. I get the pack of cigarettes and I smoke one just to calm that first major craving the next thing you know, I am smoking all day again. It is 8 p.m. here and I have already broken down and got the pack. But it's like I am afraid to not have that pack to fall back on just in case I can not make it through the night. Wow. I can not believe this is so hard. I have been trying to quit since 2009. I gave them up for 19 days in 2009 with the use of a stress ball to roll around and squeeze when cravings came on. I was living in a toxic relationship of verbal abuse so this caused me to start up on day 20. Can anyone relate to what I am going through? If so, any tips? I am just so frustrated that I made it 19 days then and I can't make it 1 now.
