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Share your quitting journey

It's been awhile! Life lessons and resisting the crave.

OxfordComa
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Hey y'all! It's been awhile since I've checked in. Since we last chatted, I've written a book (literally!) and skated miles and miles. 

 

This week has been one of my more challenging weeks, lately. After 40 years of marriage, my parents have decided to get a divorce. They gathered my wife, brother, & I into the living room and told us together. When we were driving away, I felt that familiar urge. I want a cigarette. I want it, bad, man. I'm doing a good job of holding it off. I did some yoga, went for a run at the gym. I wasn't able to derby this week because of an epic (and well earned) bruise on my knee from scrimmage, but keeping active is helping me work through some of the feelings without going back to smoking. 

 

Every time I think about smoking, I think about a post one of you (I'm sorry, my memory is terrible) made. It was about a particularly challenging point in their life but the author reiterated that smoking or not smoking wouldn't change what they were dealing with- and that message is really poignent for me. If I start smoking again, it's not going to fix my parent's marriage and it won't turn back time. It will effect my finances, health, and well being negatively. So is that puff worth it? HELL TO THE NO. 

Smoking will only hurt me more than I already do. I'm working on accepting change and protecting my quit. Afterall, I've made it this far! When we're skating our 5 minute laps, there's a point at about 2-3 minutes where I think "Ug, god, I'm going to die this is the wooooooooooooorst" and I have to stop myself and reframe: I already got this far into my laps, why in the world would I negate the past 2 minues by quitting? Keep going and build on that steam. I'm going to keep going and build on that steam. 

 

If you're reading this and you're thinking about how hard it's been, or you're mourning that the cravings don't go away completely, remember all of the hard work you've put into protecting your quit and working on your health. Smoking will only hurt you, physically and emotionally. The healing process is hard, but it is so worth it! We are worth it. We are SO worth it! It's true, for some of us the cravings still happen, but by building healthy habits, we can work through them and improve our lives. That's pretty freaking cool. That's what I'm trying to do, one day at a time. 



I so appreciate this community. Sometimes just blogging helps me reframe everything. Thanks for being around y'all. ❤️ I won't stay away so long this time 😉

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About the Author
I recently experienced grief and started smoking again. I'm looking to get back on that ex train and use healthier coping mechanisms.