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Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Oct 27, 2015
   Hello all! It's been a long time since I last posted. Life stays busy and I just came back from an amazing 2 week vacation. I used my "NO SMOKING" savings fund to go to the Smokey Mountains for a week and the North Georgia Mountains for another week. I had a wonderful time---but I admit, I smoked.
  LOL, at least that's what that stuff that came out of mouth looked like when the temps dropped ;-)  It's been so many years since this Florida girl has breathed smoke because of cold temps that it actually threw me for a minute. Then I laughed and made a joke that I smoked in the Smokey Mountains.  
    Finally taking a break to rest from vacation. Dang I'm so exhausted that I need another vacation! I had so much fun and went non-stop. The old body is still complaining but my heart and mind are filled with the beauty of the fall leafs on the mountain, the wildlife, spending a little time with family. It was even better than I hoped for. 
    I am so thankful that I stopped smoking and started a vacation account with the money that I was no longer using to buy cigarettes.  The fun, beauty, and memories will be with me forever vs a cigarette that's gone in a matter of minutes and forgotten. A cigarette holds no fond memories or amazement at the sheer beauty of the world or the majesty of the herds of Elk that I witnessed. A cigarette doesn't hold the purity of the rushing mountain stream that was under my hotel balcony.  All the years that I wasted, all the years I couldn't afford to go on vacation, simply because my extra money was going up in smoke :( That makes me sad. 
    So, at   2 Years, 2 Months, 3 Weeks, 5 Days, my "No-Smoking" Vacation Account is at $0.00 :( 
    Oh no, WAIT!! I haven't deposited any money into the account for the 2+ weeks I've been vacationing! Time to get that money in the bank and start planning my NEXT vacation!  

2 Years!

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Jul 31, 2015

2 Years! 
Wow, I've been in a fog all morning and forgot it was my big day. Not only that, I'm normally a bit long winded when I write blogs on Ex, but today, the really important day to say something profound ---I've got nothing! So, I'll keep it short and sweet. 

   Thank you to everyone on the Ex site that helped me to become an Ex. This is a wonderful support family and I hope each of you know how important you were to my quit.  There are so many of you that have been an inspiration, a teacher, an Elder, a rock to cling to when I felt weak. It's hard to single out and thank all of you individually but my heart knows each of you and praises you. 
   However, there is 1 person that I absolutely   have to thank. She's my   "Call a Friend" and  closest connection ---- my Sista Smorgy I couldn't have did it without you kid! Love you ♥
   I've saved $7665.28, b ut the friends I've made on this site are PRICELESS!

As requested, I checked my SilkQuit to see how many cigarettes Smorgy could toss on the 4th of July Bonfire for me. I was happy to report that she could add 20,880+ cigarettes (current moment count is 20,880) to help fuel the fire. However....I absolutely REFUSE to let my hard earned $7,308.21 dollars of money saved, by not smoking, go up in smoke! I already burned up enough money over the years! The only way my money is getting close to smoke is a trip to the Smokey Mountains! 

  Yeah Baby....this girl is spending that smoke money on a vacation to the Smokey Mountains this fall. Already rented a creekside room with a view of the mountains and the   palette of reds, oranges, golds, and browns of the leaves. That's something you don't see in Florida! 
   See, I keep telling everyone, put that money aside and reward yourself! Watching that money grow and using it for fun (or something you need) is one hell of a motivator and a lot more fun than watching it burn up at the end of a cigarette! 

Day 695

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Jun 26, 2015

Company all gone....or so I thought :) Found out a couple of good friends and their families are coming in for the 4th to celebrate with our stage 4 cancer friend. Yes, we are blessed that he is still with us to celebrate another 4th!  He had to go back on the strongest regiment of chemo but he's still fighting like a trooper. 

I probably won't be back on before then, so I'll do an early----------



Day 672

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Jun 3, 2015

Just dropping in for a quick hello to my friends. Life is busy, Life is good. 

   Take care and enjoy your smoke-free lives!

Thank you so much for all the warm birthday wishes! What a wonderful birthday it was. My GA/TN family came down to celebrate my birthday with me. We drove down to  St Augustine to spend the week and my Jax family drove down for dinner last night. Today....Beach, then driving to Daytona to meet more family, 4 of us have May birthdays, so we are having 1 BIG birthday celebration.

Life is good. Nothing like having my loved ones around, especially the grands, to make me appreciate being a non-smoker. I haven't had to spend countless hours (That smoking time adds up quick!) away from them because I wanted/needed that nicotine fix more than spending time with them. So wonderful to be able to cuddle with that sweet baby/child smell and not make them stink. 

Love you my friends,



Day 639

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 May 1, 2015

Quit date July 31, 2014 ==========  1 year & 9 months

$6,711.20 Saved - This is my biggest motivator!!! I took a dream vacation to Key West with part of the savings and will have enough to take a trip to the Smokey Mountains this fall. This is money I saved by giving up a bad habit. Money that would have literally went up in smoke! Now, I put the money in a savings account and reward myself.  

What would you do with an extra $6,711.20?


Day 630

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Apr 22, 2015

Dropping by to say hello to all my EX friends. Hope everyone is doing well and maintaining a happy quit. 

For all the newbies, hang in there and stay strong. 

For all of you going to Nashville........have FUN!! Can't wait to see all the pictures. 


Day 617

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Apr 9, 2015

Hello friends!~ Hope everyone had a happy and blessed Easter. Also hope everyone is doing well and staying strong in their quit. 

Hugs to all,


  Hello my friends! I'm still strolling down the garden path of non-smokers. N.O.P.E not in a rush, I'm taking time to smell the flowers along the way. So much better than smelling a nasty cigarette. I've only quite strolling once, and that was yesterday, when I ran into a real (not an urge) snake...I quit strolling and did a sprint that would probably have qualified for me for the Olympic track team!  
  I many of you are still battling snow and ice and snakes are running rampant here :( 
  Hoping each of you are doing well and staying true to your dream.
   Today is a mixture of sad and happy. I'm going to start with sad, but I hope that in the telling, I am able to convey a message of goodness and happiness. I hope to inspire you to think about your life and the way you live each day of it. Life is short my friends, and sometimes, it's even shorter than we hoped. So please, live every moment to the fullest. Do what you can to make it last a little longer (hint, hint..stop smoking!) , and above all, live your life in a way that makes you proud of the person you see in the mirror. A person that treats others right and is there to help your friends in their time of need. A person that every one is proud to call friend.
   My friends are those kind of people, and I am so proud to have them as friends. I love them and would help them in anyway I could. They would do the same for me. They are friends of the truest and deepest kind. And I am proud to say, I'm not the only one that feels that way.
   Today brought the sad news that my friends last CT scan showed his lung cancer has progressed with new tumors and s pread to both upper lungs and liver. The tumors went from less than a cm to 14x14 mm. He will start back on f ull blown aggressive  chemo infusions for 6 months. Even without chemo, he lost another 6 lbs last week.
   I am so sad for him, his wife, family and friends. But at this time, I will also reiterate, if  you had any doubts, that how you treat people will come back on you one day. This loving couple, that have helped so many, are going through hurt and turmoil that no one can cure. But this loving couple also have friends that are trying as hard as possible to make it easier. They are surrounded  by people that want to help in any way they can. And friends have turned out to offer over-whelming support and love. 
   This is where I tear up....picture this, you are sick, frightened, have no money coming in, and every moment seems to be spent in treatment. Life has changed, your health and abilities have all changed and you no longer have the energy or mobility to manage some of life's basics. You require special equipment for life needs. Now imagine all those people that you helped in the past wanting to help you in your time of need.....and they do!
   While my friend was in the hospital, one of the friends went to his house and built ramps for all the outside doors so he could get in and out for his daily treatments and have freedom to go outside to get some fresh air and enjoy the beauty of nature. Another friend took his power chair and modified it for comfort and performance. Put new wheels on it, the works! Other friends went on cooking spree's and filled the freezer with pre-cooked meals and we will keep it full! But the action that touched me the most, 2 of the friends decided 
   a break from the stress was in order. They wanted to provide a night of fun, laughter and NORMAL. So, t hey showed up with warm/comfy adult Superman PJ's, complete with cape for him to wear. Let me tell you, his pictures were awesome! They cooked a wonderful meal, played cards and made the night one of fun and laughter :) Now that's love! So yes, there is happy mixed with the sad in this part of the story....but the really mind blowing HAPPY is yet to come!
   You see, despite the stress. Despite the coping of everything that is going on and dealing with the knowledge that her husband, that she loves with all her heart, doesn't have much longer in his earthly body and will be leaving her......
   Celebrates her 1 month QUIT anniversary today!!!!
   So if you are out there saying this is to hard, or I can't quit because I'm stressed or my spouse/roommate/cousin/uncle/next door neighbor/WHATEVER... still smokes.....I say to you (male or female) PULL UP YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES AND GET ON WITH IT!!!! Because this is proof that if you want it, you CAN quit despite anything else that is happening in your life.
   I will also tell you that my friend with cancer celebrated 1 week smoke-free on Sunday. Unfortunately, for him, it's to late to make a difference. Don't let that be you.
   And for your viewing pleasure..Guilia may be viewing a little closer than most :) I would like to post a picture of my beautiul birthplace. I often say, no matter how far I roam, this will always be home.

Blessing to all,




Wishing each of you a Happy Valentine's day! Yes, I do know it's tomorrow and not today...but what I have to say can't wait for another day! 

    Today, I need to talk to you about LOVE! Today, I want to tell you to LOVE   yourself! I want to tell you that in the end, you are the one that you will spend the rest of your life with! You are the one responsible for your own nourishment, happiness and enrichment in life! I promise you, once you take total responsibility for loving yourself, just as you would love your child or significant other, you will have a happy heart. 
    Ask yourself---would you endanger your child or the person you love? Would you willing give them poison or intentionally cut their life short? No? Then ask yourself, why am I doing it to myself? Do I not love myself? 
    So my Valentine's Day wish to you, is fall in love with yourself. Love yourself   enough to stop smoking-----NOW! It's way to easy to put off until tomorrow what you can do today.  
    This Valentine's Day, I wish you a happy & healthy heart! 



Day 555

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Feb 6, 2015

Happy Friday! Wishing each of you a wonderful, fun filled weekend! NO cigarettes or whining allowed this whole weekend. To all the new members....hang in there, it will get easier. Just take it one day at a time, keep a positive attitude, stay focused and most of all...celebrate the journey!



Day 539

Posted by Marilyn_marmac_07-31-13 Jan 21, 2015

Hello all! I hope each of you are doing well. I don't blog very often these days, but I keep you in my thoughts. 

   It's amazing the difference in my life since I cut my social media/internet time. It was very difficult at first, like quitting cigarettes, I had to relearn habits and get past the urge. For one thing, after the stroke, social media has been my main connection to the world. But, I knew that I was spending to much time online instead of living in the 3D world so it was best for me to cut the connection for a while. I even deleted my  facebook friends down to only family & best friends. Wow, I didn't realize how much drama I would be removing at the same time. So, I'm staying busy in the real world and trying to be a help to those around me. Especially my ailing friends and family.  One of my cancer friends passed :( On the positive, my husband had a cancer scare but it turned out ok. I'm thanking God for that but it once again reminded me...we never know what day may be our last or the day our life changes forever. Live each and every day to the fullest my friends. Make it count and don't sweat the small stuff. 
   To all the new people on EX, you can do this! You can be a quitter. More important, you can be a happy quitter. Take it one day at a time. Make it through just today. Don't worry about tomorrow, just get through all the today's.
   Love, Peace & Happiness,
  You know you live in Florida when a Weather Alert is issued for possible snow flurries :) Yes, this came across a little bit ago and I couldn't help but laugh. Hope in gives you a chuckle too.
  Duval County, FL.
  Special Statement
  Issued at: 2:15 PM EST on January 8, 2015, expires at: 6:00 PM EST on January 08, 2015
   ...Isolated snow flurries this afternoon... Isolated snow flurries will be possible this afternoon across interior sections of Duval County. No snow accumulation is expected...with no impact on travel. 
  PS...they are very wrong about no impact on travel. Floridians freak out and forget how to drive when it rains. They would totally forget they were driving if they saw a snow flurry.