Hello Ex Community! I'm having a lot of appointments so I haven't been able to check in very often. Wanted to let everyone know that I'm still smoke free and hope all of you are still fighting the good fight as well. I still have cravings but I won't allow myself to give in. I went to a friends house Sunday and she was smoking, in the house. She offered to go outside even thou she's handicapped. Now that's a real friend :) I told her no, that I would be fine, and I was. While I know that it's not good to put yourself in that kind of situation, especially as a new non-smoker, I will be going to a party where most of the people are smokers in a couple of weeks. I decideded to look at it as a challange and help me prepare for the army of smokers that will be at the birthday party. While I know that I will desire and want, I also know that at this time I am strong enough to beat it. When/IF I reach NML...I'm going to need all of you on EX to remind me of my inner strength and that I said "This is a fight and I'm not a person that likes to lose...so...I WON'T!!
Tonight, I am going to be blessed with a visit from my beautiful daughter, son-in-law and grandchildren. I'm so happy that I will get to see them....but .....this will be the 1st time that I will not be sitting on the porch, relaxing, talking and smoking with them. Don't get me wrong, even though they are smokers they will support me not to smoke and would yank a cigarette away from me if I tried to smoke it, what I figured out was that I was setting myself to be my OWN enemy. Then it hit me (yes, I'm a little slow) that EVERY time I've logged onto EX it has been sort of like being slapped in the face with CIGARETTE, CIGARETTE, CIGARETTE and making you think about them. And thinking about them would make you crave one and immediately go out and smoke one....EXCEPT...there's people that are making you think about NOT having one at the same time they are making you think about a cigarette. To me, it's like I've been in training to meet and conquer the evil. I've been facing the TEMPTATION every time I've read a post and I've been beating that temptation every time I've not walked out and had a cigarette after doing nothing but read/think of a cigarette so I'm prepared! Will my body and parts of my brain go a little crazy when I'm faced with it tonight? Probaby...but...I've been winning that battle for I6 days so I'm going to view it as another opportunity to kick ass and add another notch to my belt!!!! Turning NEGATIVE into a POSITIVE. LOL, this blog will probably not make sense to anyone but me and YES..my brain is a scary place to be :)
I have found so many inspirational pictures and words of wisdom...but I can't seem to get any of the pictures to post. Can someone walk me thru the process? In the meantime, I'll just type the words.... A Negative Mind Will Never Give You a Positive Outcome.
Here's a big CONGRATS to eyeryone of us! Regardless if it's day 1 or day 10,001 it's something to brag about! For me....Quit Date: July 31, 2013----That means I've went 14 days---that's 2 whole WEEKS of not SMOKING!!! Woot-Woot & Yippie kay-yay cause I haven't maimed a single person or been sent to the funny farm during this 1st 2 weeks:)
One day at a time. Breath in...Breath out...Breath in...Breath out....I can do this, I've did it for 13 days now and I can do it for another day. Tomorrow, I'll tell myself it's been 14 days and I can make it through 1 more. One day, I'll tell myself it's been a month and I can do 1 more! May that cycle continue forever, even when I'm feeling weak. I don't know why, but today is a hard one. I don't have a reason, no stress or anything that should make this day harder, but it is. So today, I'll spend all my extra time on Ex and soak up the knowledge that is shared in the blogs and sites.
Hello! I stopped smoking 7/31/13 so I'm still adjusting to NOT smoking. I was having a hard time with withdrawal today so decided to read the blogs and hopefully find inspiration in the journals of other people that are fighting the pull of addiction. I'm so glad I did! The 1st blog I read seemed to have been written just for me! I continued reading others and found post that both inspired me and made me laugh. Needless to say, I was so busy reading and laughing that I forgot about my desire for the "C" word for a while. Reading Ex blogs will be one of the things on my list of things to do instead of smoking.