No matter what is happening in our lives or where we are in our quits it all boils down to a choice whether we throw our hands up in the air and screw up a perfectly beautiful quit because we're discouraged over something or we just want to reward ourselves for a job well done or maybe we're just in a funk over whatever is happening in our lives! If we want to remain Smokefree then we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E ~ Not One Puff Ever ~ N.M.W ~ No Matter What ~ because there's just no other way to remain Smokefree! It's my Mother in laws 94th birthday today because of the rise of Covid cases we can't visit her I'm going to call her after I post this blog and I pray she'll be able to hear me this morning somedays she can so I hope today is one of those days, I've also got a great neice that is 15 today plus it's been 9 years since my Moms funeral it's a bitter sweet kinda day BUT I'm Smokefree and that's a super fantastic feeling. We've all got our ups and downs BUT we MUST remember and N.E.F Never Ever Forget that Vigilance is key to remaining Smokefree and besides relapsing isn't the answer EVER! Here's a picture of my MIL that I took last Summer at the Assistant living facility and a collage picture that I put together of my family I'm in a funk so I'm reminiscing through my pics which is filling my heart with love! 
I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this, my prayers are with you your parents especially your Mum 
Good Morning Marilyn...tough day, no wonder the funk...sending out some hugs your way hon...it is so sad and hard with our elders in nursing homes...I haven’t said anything on line, but my mom and dad in nursing home and only saw them twice in the last year, but many times through a window...it is so sad....and the finally got the first part of shot and my mom got COVID...she is doing better than expected for her age, but hoping it is due to the first part of shot helped. The staff is bringing in the COVID...so it is all so frustrating....I pray every night I will be able to hug them before they / or I pass....I will lift up your MIL in prayer that they do somethings at her facility to celebrate her for her birthday...
After 12:30 am ... up and out with Peanut every 1 1/2 to 2 hours...a bit weepy today from barely any sleep...taking her to vet today to get checked out and get something for the poops...ok ... I guess you aren’t alone...I will be in a funk with you...LOL...sitting in pjs with my coffee...be well dear Marilyn...I just know tomorrow is going to be a better day for both us...Love and Hugs Colleen