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2019

It's been raining on and off luckily it was barely misting when we were unloading the U Haul My Mother in law Muriel was taking us all out for lunch but Mark had to return the U Haul and pick up our car and Mark was volunteered to take our nephew back to his car which was a half hour away he had an appointment he didn't want to miss so no lunch out for Mark or our nephew Mike so I decided to come home with Mark, I think we're all tired and a little testy I know Muriel is tired I'm sure she'll be ready for a nap. I'm not sure if Mandy, Mason and I will be trick or treating or not it's supposed to downpour this evening with high winds we'll wait to see let's continue stacking up those precious Days Of Freedom so each evening we can look ourselves in the mirror and say YAY for another Day WON.

It's been really hectic the last couple of weeks or so but that's A OK because at least it keeps me out of trouble we're moving my mother in law to an assisted living apartment tomorrow morning it's supposed to be a rainy day so we rented a small U Haul, she's anxious about the move even though it's her idea she'll be 93 the end of January and it's getting harder for her stay alone anyway she's moving on Halloween I'm supposed to go out with my daughter Mandy and Mason tomorrow night Mandy bought me a cat mask but if we get the heavy rain and wind like we're supposed to get we'll probably just buy some Halloween treats for Mason, mind you I've already bought a bunch of his favorite treats. I'm so glad that I finally wised up and quit smoking because handling LIFE on LIFE'S Terms is much easier now that I'm  not outside in a cloud of smoke chainsmoking and stressing out I love living a Smokefree Life - N.O.P.E gives us a Life of Freedom relapsing isn't an option anymore.....

It's another damp dark dank dreary drizzly day BUT it's mild so that's a good thing, our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel George and I want to wish each of you reading this a Stressfree hasslefree BUT most importantly a Smokefree Day we must choose to stick with our quits so each evening we can look ourselves in the mirror and say YAY for another Day WON which is pure Freedom and thankfully with N.O.P.E and vigilance quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely DOABLE and it's definetly the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE....

Brrrrrr it's a dark dank dreary drizzly damp day I'm really glad to be back home but with only wood heat I'm going to have to start a fire to get it warmed up in here it's only 67 degrees that's a tad chilly speaking of chili that's what I'm heating up when hubby comes home for his lunchbreak I took some down to my mother in law already anyway my friends and Fellow EXers let's continue stacking up those precious Days Of Freedom because relapsing isn't an option anymore NOT when we know Life is Grand without a Cigarette in Hand BUT if you haven't reached that good place in your quit yet where you realize how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes then just keep moving forward because you will reach that wonderful AHA Moment and you'll be so glad that you stuck with your quit journey....

I've got a an appointment first thing in the morning so I'll be around later on in the morning or early afternoon remember sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance works and will keep us living a life of Freedom we must not let life's stressers screw up a perfectly beautiful quit because Life is going to happen whether we smoke or not so we must choose to stick with our quits N.M.W.  - No Matter What......

Anything in this life worth having takes time and effort and quitting smoking should be at the top of the list of things to do for our health family and friends BUT especially our lives which literally depends on us to quit and stay quit & with commitment and perseverance we will make it through as horrendous as it can be in those early weeks it's absolutely Doable when I look back at some of the horrid cravings and moodswings and lack of sleep that I had  in those early weeks all I can think of is whew because with the help of this community I made it through & am on Day 1,932 & I still smile at each and every Day WON!!! I always want to remember & N.E.F - Never Ever Forget [ there's no going back to that horrid DAY ONE as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance because it works when applied on a daily basis ] 

All I can think of this morning is I'm so thankful for this wonderful community because I never thought in a million years that I'd ever quit smoking BUT finding this site and reading everything that I could find about this horrid addiction really strengthened my resolve to kick the nicotine poison to the curb permanently it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it to be Free so if you're reading this and are struggling please stay close because we're all here to help you in any way we can because as difficult as quitting smoking is thankfully with willingness determination and commitment along with perservence you can and will succeed in living a life of Freedom....

Good Saturday morning everyone it's going to be a busy day plus we've got our sister in laws 95 year old father's funeral at 2 o'clock at our church they moved over from Holland in the eighties Nelien is married to Mark's youngest brother Jim today will be sad but good because her Dad lived a good long life and is now at peace, life can keep us busy that's for sure BUT even so as long as we're vigilant and don't allow any of life's issues screw up a perfectly beautiful quit I always liked what Dale says keep them away from your face and the only way out is through and that is 100 % truth sticking with N.O.P.E  - Not One Puff Ever - N.M.W - No Matter What will keep us FREE   I still smile each evening at another Day WON because even with all of the stress I'm dealing with right now I'm so thankful for my Forever quit I've worked way too hard to ever go back to to that horrid DAY ONE BUT I say yes to each and every Day WON.....

These last few weeks have been rough with having a cold bug or maybe it's just allergies I don't know anyway I've been keeping a close eye on my 92 year old Mother in law more so than usual taking her places and making sure she's got food, her daughter Wendy has alot on her plate running back and forth to appointments for her husband Bob who's dealing with kidney cancer I've mentioned him before he just turned 59 in August he's in Stage 4 it's in his lymph nodes anyway our younger sister in laws 95 year old Dad passed late Wednesday night plus a friend of my husband Mark and I died of lung cancer a few days ago he was 66 and a lady I know but haven't seen in years died ugh and none are having a wake and the funerals are all tomorrow so I guess I better go to my sister in laws Dads funeral. Life happens whether we smoke or not and choosing Not is the only choice we if we want to remain Smokefree, there's so many situations in our lives that we have no control over I'm very concerned about both of my sisters right now too but there's nothing that I can do other than prayers thankfully I can handle all my worries without the damned Cigarettes I'm not outside in a cloud of smoke chainsmoking thinking of what to do instead I am fixing plates of food for my mother in law and I'm there for whoever needs me plus I don't smell like a stinky old ashtray so that's definetly a good thing BUT I have to admit I'm stressed but I live with N.O.P.E and vigilance because it works when applied on a daily basis so N.M.W we can live a life of Freedom......Relapsing would only make things 1,000 times worse so it's not even a blimp on my Radar.....


Once we make the choice to quit and stay quit then we'll be successful even though it may be extremely difficult at times we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W because it works plus our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits.....

Our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel George and I want to wish each of you reading this a Stressfree hasslefree BUT most importantly a Smokefree Day if we EXpect to live a Smokefree Life then we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance on a daily basis so we can go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without wondering where to sneak off to suck on a damned Cancer Stick.....is it easy in those early days and weeks of quitting smoking? HELL NO!!!!! BUT is quitting smoking worth it? HELL YES!!!!!! If you're in the throes of horrendous cravings and moodswings and lack of sleep you most likely don't believe that you will get to that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes BUT with commitment and perseverance you will succeed and you'll be so glad that you stuck with your quit journey, deep breaths and know that we're here to help you in any way we can......

Our quits literally depends on us quit smoking and remain quit N.M.W. - No Matter What  Life is going to happen good or bad whether we smoke or not so N.O.P.E and vigilance is key to living a life of Freedom......

In order to EXperience the Freedom of living a Smokefree Life we must choose to stick with our precious quits N.M.W.-No Matter What, it doesn't matter where we are in our quits whether it's day ONE or ONE thousand and ONE or three thousand and ONE it really doesn't matter because it only takes a split second to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so sticking with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and vigilance is key to remaining Smokefree and the best part is it works when applied on a daily basis because there's no way any of us will fail.......Our quits is the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE which I consider the one gift that will keep on giving day after day week after week month after month and Lord willing year after year as long as we keep moving forward stacking up those precious Days Of Freedom so each evening we can say YAY for another Day WON....

I just want to say Congratulations to anyone here that have made the decision to bite the bullet and take back your life from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison because it's the gift of LIFE and Congratulations to the person that is struggling with DAY ONE deep breaths and know that this evening you'll be able to say YAY for DAY WON with many more to come and Congratulations to everyone in your early days and weeks of quitting smoking because even though you may be struggling you are moving forward stacking up those precious DOF so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON I know that it's not easy at times BUT with commitment and perseverance you will succeed in living a life of Freedom   Congratulations to all of us here at Ex   YAY for Smokefree living....... YAY for each and every Day WON!!!!!

After 40 years of slavery to the damned Cancer Sticks smoking roughly 30 a day with a half dozen half assed attempts at quitting smoking I'm finally living my Forever quit I've got well over 5 years of Smokefree living in  I give this community of awesome folks so much of the credit for helping me through some really rough times I thank each of you, there's so many that's not here anymore for one reason or another but I remember them fondly. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that quitting smoking is the gift of LIFE which our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W and thank Goodness it's absolutely Doable it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT it's absolutely Doable.....

I see there's a few folks struggling with their quit please stay close because we're all here to help you in any way we can I remember only too well how difficult it is in those early days and weeks BUT thankfully you can and will get through the roller coaster ups and downs it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it to be Free, deep breaths chin up and keep moving forward stacking up those precious Days Of Freedom so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON, it takes time to relearn life without the smokes even though it may not feel like it right now the longer you're quit the easier it will get and when you get to that good place in your quit you'll be so glad that you stuck with your precious quit journey ...... if you asked me if quitting smoking was easy? I'd be saying HELL NO!!!!! BUT if you asked me if quitting smoking was worth it?I'd be saying HELL YES!!!!! And I'll be saying it with a humongous smile on my face because I'm living a life of Freedom......

Hang on tight to the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves iwhich is the gift of LIFE .....

With commitment and perseverance you will make it through the roller coaster ups and downs and into that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is as an EX Smoker Non Smoker or EXer it doesn't matter what you call it as long as you stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W because it works when applied on a daily basis, as difficult as quitting smoking is it's also very Doable and totally worth it to be able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without wondering where to sneak off to suck on a damned Cancer Stick.....

                                                                                     

sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance works when applied on a daily basis because LIFE can be difficult to say the least BUT with commitment and perseverance we will be successful in living a life of Freedom.......

Wow it's the 15th of October already ugh I hope Winter will be much kinder to all of us that live in snowbelts it feels like I just blinked a few times and Summer is over I'm exaggerating a little, kinda anyway we've been enjoying some beautiful Fall temps the last few days which has been wonderful compared to our friend Chris this past Wk end that got buried in 2 and a half feet of snow grrr has it melted yet Christine13? We can't do anything about the weather or so many other things that happen in our lives BUT when it comes to our quits we do have complete control whether we continue living a life of Freedom or throw away a perfectly beautiful quit by relapsing over a situation that most likely would happen whether we smoked or not! If up to us to keep our quits firmly in our grasp to nurture and protect the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE which I consider the one gift that will keep on giving day after day week after week month after month and Lord willing year after year.....

We had Mason Sunday night I snapped a pic of him in front of our Beech tree in Sam's run I think it's more beautiful than usual. 

Since it's Thanksgiving here in Canada hubby has the day off so he cooked breakfast pancakes bacon and scrambled eggs it's been a busy wk end but a good one our 10 Year old grandson Mason came over yesterday afternoon after the potluck Thanksgiving dinner at my Mother in law's place there were  23 of us including our 4 month old twin great neices   Mason is still sleeping I put on a big batch of bread by 7 o'clock. I'm still amazed at times how I can function on just a couple of sips of coffee compared to my smoking days because I'd need at least 4 coffee and a half dozen cigarettes before I could function at least that's what I thought  There's nothing but positives when it comes to quitting smoking BUT first you must get through the roller coaster ups and downs then you'll realize just how much better life is.....if you haven't reached that good place in your quit yet please keep plowing forward because it will get easier and easier with time under your belt and being able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without wondering where to sneak off to suck on a damned Cancer Stick is super fantastic......

Once you decide to bite the bullet and educate yourself by reading everything you can about this horrid addiction and believe that you will perservere through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep N.M.W then w you will succeed in living a life of Freedom it's definetly not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it once you get to that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is without the Smokes because I know through EXperience how wonderful it feels and I still smile at each and every Day WON because LIFE really is Grand without a Cigarette in Hand....

How about a little coffee humor this morning......

Marilyn.H.July.14.14.

Hang on tight!

Posted by Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Oct 12, 2019

Life has a way of kicking you in the teeth at times and it usually happens when it's least EXpected that's where Vigilance is key to remaining Smokefree, deep breaths chin up and keep moving forward stacking up those precious DOF because our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W - No Matter What - I know it's much easier said than done especially in the early days and weeks of quitting smoking BUT you can and must make the choice to hang on tight to the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE and thankfully it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it .....definitely Not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT Doable......

if you're struggling with your quit journey keep telling yourself that you can and will be successful because relapsing isn't an option anymore because you just don't smoke anymore keep choosing freedom....after at least a half dozen failed attempts at trying to quit smoking with N.O.P.E and vigilance I'm free and as long as I always remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE then I'll continue living my Forever quit ......

I've been feeling under the weather the last week or so with a head cold ugh BUT I  think I'm finally starting to feel better  I'm so glad that I I don't smoke anymore otherwise I'd be outside trying to suck on a damned Cancer Stick thinking I needed those 5 or 6 cigarettes and the 3 or 4 coffee just to wake up BUT that's not true it was just the addiction talking I'm so much more clear headed now, I can actually function on just a few sips even though I still enjoy my morning coffee if I had to I could quite easily go without iBUT I'd rather not   here's a collage of our Samantha Digger Jane Hartley having her breakfast of freshly cooked hamburger and rice mostly hamburg for our baby girl then Mark snapped a picture of Sam and I in her run hummm I'm still in my fuzzy pjs  we brought her home on December 1st of 2003 wow!!! Her back legs are pretty weak but she's still eating and drinking plus her bladder and bowels are working.

I did the bottom collage yesterday afternoon our Samantha Digger Jane Hartley as a puppy and Mark taking her for a walk and the pic of her waiting for a treat after her walk.

A few months ago I didn't think Sam would even see her birthday but here we are  now I'm wondering if she'll see Christmas whew I'm taking it one day at a time & N.M.W. - No Matter What I will remain Smokefree all of us can stick with our quits N.M.W because Life is going to happen whether we smoke or not so we must make the choice to stick with N.O.P.E because it works when applied on a daily basis plus our lives literally depends on us to remain Smokefree....

It's our Canadian Thanksgiving long weekend, we've got so much to be thankful for!   Happy Thanksgiving wk end Christine13 & anyone else that May be from Canada YAY for Smokefree living.

 

In order to EXperience the Freedom of living a Smokefree Life you must go through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep to get to that good place in your quit it's bound to take time to relearn life without the smokes so you must keep moving forward believing that it's going to get easier because it will plus it's so worth it so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE ....

Good Wednesday morning everyone YEP another Hump Day is here another Day to be Smokefree another precious Day to be WON as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance then we'll continue to move forward living a life of Freedom. 

Our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel George and I both enjoy our coffee and we both are wishing each of you reading this a Stressfree hasslefree BUT most importantly a Smokefree Day.....

I'm off to an appointment this morning then I'm planning on visiting my Dad and my little sister plus I'm hoping to get a little shopping done at Wal-Mart so it's a full day BUT Smokefree of course because I don't do that anymore plus the longer we're quit the more thankful we are that we finally wised up and bit the bullet and took back my our lives from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison at least that's how I feel plus even with 1,913 precious days of Freedom under my belt I still smile each evening at each and every Day WON because after 40 years of slavery to the damned Cancer Sticks smoking at least 30 of the yuckies (cigarettes) a day I honestly never thought in a million years I'd ever quit smoking BUT finding out that I have mild copd was enough for me to realize that I'm not invincible and my desire to live a Smokefree Life was so much stronger than knowingly continuing to slowly kill myself thankfully with the right Mindset we can live a life of Freedom it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT boy oh boy it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it to be Free....

Life can and will happen good and bad whether we smoke or not so in order to live a Smokefree Life we must choose to stick with our quits N.M.W - No Matter What we can't just throw our hands up in the air and screw up a perfectly beautiful quit  when life gets rough it doesn't matter where we are in our quits whether it's day ONE or ONE thousand and ONE we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and Vigilance because it works when applied on a daily basis then there's absolutely no way any of us will ever end up back to to that horrid DAY ONE. I've been totally frustrated with our Canadian Politicians grrrrrr I'll be watching the two hour debate this evening between the six of them UGH, election day is on the 24th BUT I imagine I'll be voting in the early poles starting on the 11th there's really only two that's got a chance to actually be the Prime minister of Canada the devil we know which is Trudeau  UGH or Scheer which really creeps me out worse than Trudeau UGH BUT other than cast my vote there's not anything I can do BUT I do have  complete control over my precious quit journey so I'll continue to reap the benefits of Smokefree living relapsing isn't an option anymore because I don't do that anymore...... We can't let our emotions and situations screw up our quits N.M.W let's CELEBRATE each and every Day WON because our lives literally depends on us to nurture and protect the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE!!!!!

I'm so glad that I found this site and read everything I could find about this horrid addiction because it strengthened my resolve to kick the nicotine poison to the curb permanently it wasn't easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT it's absolutely Doable, this awesome community of caring folks really helped me through some horrid rough patches and into this good in my quit life really does get easier and easier with time under your belt and it definitely gets better and better the longer you're quit and we're all here for each other through the good and the bad days....we can and will live life on life's terms without the yuckies (cigarettes).....

I definitely remember & I hope that I - N.E.F. - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE or those early days and weeks of quitting smoking I do remember being in throes throes of horrendous cravings and moodswings and lack of sleep thinking it was never ending BUT thankfully from all of the reading that I did I knew that I would eventually get through them so I kept busy and I kept telling myself that I didn't smoke anymore I would say over and over again shaking my head at the same time and I'd yell it over and over again and there were times that I wanted to tear my hair out or rip someone's face off anyone's face it really didn't matter who's face but instead of giving up I kept moving forward stacking up those precious DOF it did easier and easier with time under my belt and it will for anyone that's struggling it's definetly not easy in those early weeks by any stretch of the imagination BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it once you get to that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is without the Smokes.....Another Day ONE would totally suck big time but each and every Day WON is the GIFT of LIFE.....

After 40 years of slavery to the damned Cancer Sticks smoking roughly 30 a day with at least a half dozen attempts at trying to quit smoking I finally wised up and got on line and found this site and read everything I could find about this horrid addiction, I hid in the shadows until the 18th day of my quit when I was having horrendous cravings back to back and they seemed never ending I was about to throw my hands up in the air and jump in my car and buy a carton of cigarettes SCREW just the pk BUT thankfully I remembered this site and got on line and with the help of this community I made it through and so can everyone because with commitment and perseverance there's no way any of will FAIL......

 

I never thought I'd ever quit smoking BUT here I am with well over 5 years of Smokefree living and I still smile at each and every Day WON I'm so glad that I bit the bullet and stopped playing Russian Roulette with my life please know that as difficult as quitting smoking is it's also very Doable and we're all here to help you in any way we can.....Freedom really does Rock BUT first you must go through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep to get to that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes....

In order to EXperience the Freedom of living a Smokefree Life we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever N.M.W. - No Matter What then there's no way any of will FAIL as difficult as quitting smoking it's absolutely Doable it's definetly not easy by any stretch of the imagination in those early weeks BUT with commitment and perseverance success is inevitable.......

I've been feeling under the weather the last couple of days I can thank my precious 10 year old grandson Mason for this cold bug since he spent Saturday night here with the same symptoms I now have which is a head cold ugh both ears are aching plus my throat is scratchy BUT YAY for not smoking anymore because if I was I'd be outside trying to suck on a damned Cancer Stick coughing choking and nearly horking up a lung or possibly even both BUT thankfully not anymore because I don't do that anymore and you don't either right?  thankfully S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option as long as we stick with our quits then we can continue living a life of Freedom.....

George our HUMP DAY camel wishes everyone a Stressfree hasslefree BUT most importantly a Smokefree Day....

Another day is here to either say DAY ONE which will turn into WON or another Day WON as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance then we'll continue to stack up those precious DOF - Days Of Freedom because relapsing isn't an option anymore NOT when it comes to our lives which literally depends on us to quit and stay quit thankfully with willingness determination and commitment along with perservence it's absolutely Doable.....

Here's A collage I put together yesterday of my Samantha Digger Jane Hartley it's hard to believe that she'll be 16 on the 11th, some days I wonder if she'll make it to her birthday because her back legs are very weak but then I'll help her up and she's fine she's eating and drinking plus her bladder and bowels are working she's pretty deaf and her eyesight isn't good at night so we leave a lamp on at night she's happy so therefore we're happy and N.M.W - No Matter What , when the time comes to say goodbye to our Sam it'll be heartbreaking BUT I'll remain Smokefree because relapsing isn't an option anymore.......