Skip navigation
All People > Marilyn.H.July.14.14. > Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Blog > 2019 > May
2019

My sister Cheryl and her husband is headed back to N.S this morning and Mason is getting off the bus here this afternoon for an overnighter my daughter Mandy didn't want to ask me because she's knows that I'm tired but she also needs me plus Mason loves being here and we love it too no matter how tired Gramp and I are we want the memories because he's growing up way too fast, he's 10 already our other two grandchildren Adam 15, Emma 16 come sporadically so we'll keep having Mason as long as we can it's fantastic that we're not wasting time stuck outside sucking on a cancer stick because hubby Mark and I don't do that anymore I'm so glad that as difficult as quitting smoking was at times that it was absolutely Doable and sure as HELL worth it so hang on tight if you're struggling because once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs and into that good place in your quit you'll be so glad that you stuck with your quit journey. Life happens whether we smoke or not and choosing Not to Smoke guarantees us a Smokefree Life as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance. ..... Here's a silly pouty pic of all of us Wed evening with Cheryl   she's not too enthused with getting her picture taken especially this one BUT hey we had fun and it was Mason's idea to do the pouty face so we did .......

I've missed you all these last several days BUT I've been so busy I had my Dad, younger sister and Cheryl's husband in for an early supper yesterday I put on a huge feed! then Cheryl went to Dad's for the night she stayed with me the whole time except for Friday night when they arrived her hubby stayed with our Dad they had a great time I'm headed down later this morning to spend time with both my sisters and tomorrow Cheryl and her husband will be going back to Nova Scotia, I've been around more cigarettes these past few days then I have been for quite some time and I have to be honest with you I've thought about (surely just ONE!!!) as disgusting as the smell was hanging in the air of these couple of places it stunk like a stinky old ashtray plus I had a hard time to breathe and I still thought about (JUST ONE) it didn't seem to bother Cheryl any but she's one of the people that quit smoking BUT is still smoking the odd one so she's definetly not doing it right plus she smokes medical marijuana once in awhile NOT ME! N.O.P.E MEANS N.O.P.E!!! I have been having quite a few smoking thoughts even though it stunk to high heaven and I had a hard time breathing in the midst of the smoking that's how powerful this horrid addiction is that's where N.O.P.E AND VIGILANCE comes in because it works when applied on a daily basis and we must never let ourselves become lazy and complacent we must always remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE or those early days and weeks of quitting smoking because another Day ONE would totally suck big time but another Day WON is the gift of LIFE our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W  - No Matter What ....... Breathing IS essential to living......

Sam seems to be doing okay right now I'm ready to do what's necessary when it's time Mark and I are watching her closely, she wasn't eating much BUT now that I'm cooking her boiled hamburger and rice that the vet's suggests when they're not eating she's more spry for how long I'm not sure, this pic of Samantha Digger Jane Hartley, Mason and Cheryl was Tuesday afternoon.....

My hubby Mark, Cheryl and I never got too much sleep last night many of you know who Samantha Digger Jane Hartley is   she's our baby girl our precious furbaby her back legs have pretty much given out I believe it's time! She would be 16 on October 11th, I'm ready! BUT I'm waiting for Mark to be ready he had to go to work at least for awhile today but the decision must be made soon or at I think so I've had to pick her up last night and again today and so has Mark to get her outside to use the bathroom our poor baby girl weighs 69 lbs, Mason loves her and is getting off the bus here today through Thursday it'll be hard on him too, anyway I don't mean to ramble on I'm exhausted but I'm Smokefree and will remain so because smoking wouldn't help a blessed thing actually relapsing would only make things so much worse, I boiled Sam some hamburger and cooked her some rice she ate it right up and is now resting I'll let you know what's happening when I know I'm leaving the final decision up to Mark here's a picture of her this morning eating her hamburg and rice......

Here's a couple of pics of her as a baby we got her when she was six weeks old.....

I thought I'd pop in and say hello and see if I can post a couple of pics or so we've been very busy BUT it's been great and smoking isn't even a blimp on my Radar because I don't do that anymore ...... it's wonderful to live life on life's terms......

We can and will continue stacking up our precious DOF - Days Of Freedom NMW - No Matter What as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance then there's absolutely no way any of us can FAIL! There's always going to be something that can deter us BUT with commitment and perseverance we will succeed in living a life of Freedom so let's treasure our precious quits because each and every Day WON is the gift of LIFE, I tried to post a pic of my sisters and me but for some reason I can't post BUT then again I had a terrible time just getting on site tonight it's probably just my Wi-Fi acting up, everything is running slow tonight anyway I got on so hopefully this will post   it's getting late so I better get to bed my sister Cheryl just crawled in we've got plans again tomorrow so I'll check in when I can, huge hug to all of you .....

It was only 34 when I got up at 6:30 but it's going to be a gorgeous sunshiny day with temps getting upto 70 and maybe even hit 75 YAY! My Dad and I met my sister Cheryl and her husband at the bus last night at 8:35  I stayed a little longer than I should have because I have a hard time driving in the dark the last few years but I made it safe and sound   it's only a half hour drive but nerve wracking when you can't really see BUT I don't need to Smoke over it to calm my nerves because I don't do that anymore PLUS I figured out that smoking doesn't calm the nerves at all BUT quitting smoking actually does once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs to that good place in your quit because once you get there then you'll realize just how much better life is and you'll be able to deal with life on life's terms so much better without the crutch of cigarettes, BUT if you're you're not there yet! Please keep moving forward stacking up those precious DOF - Days Of Freedom because you will get there and you'll be so glad that you stuck with your quit journey, I'm going to go pick Cheryl up at my Dad's place later on today she's planning on staying for at least a couple of days so I'll be around sporadically to say hi huge hug for each of you and remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE or those early days and weeks of quitting smoking because another Day ONE would totally suck big time but another Day WON is totally super fantastic ......

I'll be around today and tomorrow as I normally am but Sunday through Thursday will be hit & miss when it comes to blogging because my older sister Cheryl is arriving this evening with her husband whom I haven't even met yet so I'm going to my Dad's this evening to meet the bus they'll be staying at his place tonight and they'll be hooking up with with our younger sister tomorrow then I'll drive back down Sunday to Dad's church, he's singing a couple of songs then Cheryl is coming home with me for a couple of days for sure so I'll be taking her around places, they'll be going back next Friday morning. We've only seen each other for 2 hours 6 years ago when I was on a bus tour and before that it was 20 some years crazy I know because we're only a 6 hour drive apart I tried many times to see her when I was down that way but she always had an EXcuse but finally we're going to spend quality time with each other she's 1 year and 16 days older than I am, I'll be 60 in November WOW it's about time we get together before it's too late, don't you think? Anyway I'm rambling so I may not be around this evening BUT I EXpect to be in the morning then the rest of the week probably will be sporadic BUT no matter what I'll be sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance and so will each of you right! So we can look ourselves in the mirror each evening and say YAY for another Day WON ........

Wow I can't believe that a week from tomorrow is the last day of May! I'm hoping it's going to warm up soon and stay warm it was 33 degrees first thing this morning but it's supposed to get up to 66 YES I'll take it BUT it's supposed to cool off again over the wk end BUT I shouldn't complain because there's a huge fire out in High level Alberta I wish we could switch the weather which would surely put their fire out and we could dry out and warm up so the farmers can get their crops in and we can get our garden beds in at least with N.O.P.E and vigilance there's No going backwards and relapsing because I don't smoke anymore and it would totally suck big time going back to that horrid DAY ONE! Sticking with N.O.P.E works when applied on a daily basis then there's absolutely no way any of us can FAIL.......

We can quit smoking and we can stick with our quits N.M.W. - No Matter What, it sure as hell isn't easy by any stretch of the imagination in those early days and weeks BUT thankfully it's DOABLE and once we get to that good place in our quit then iwe must not allow ourselves to become complacent thats where vigilance comes in because our quits must be our #1 priority so we can continue living a life of FREEDOM.......

YIKES George our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel just reminded me that it's Hump Day again, it's another Day to be WON here in Ex land because Smokefree living is ours as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance......

Once we've decided to bite the bullet and take back our lives from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison then we must choose to stick with our quits no matter what so we can live a much happier healthier life style and enjoy LIFE on LIFE'S Terms which is EXtremely difficult in those early days and weeks BUT thankfully it's also very Doable and totally worth it to be able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a damned Cancer Stick and once you've plowed through the rough patches and get to that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is as an EXer then you'll be so glad that you stuck with your precious quit journey because you'll never ever want to go back to DAY ONE BUT you'll be smiling at each and every Day WON.....

It's been a very busy wk end but a very productive one my hubby Mark and I gathered up a bunch of fallen trees off our property yesterday afternoon mostly dead but some were green and wet Mark sawed them up and I wheelbarrowed them into the basement probably 15 or 16 trips, we wanted to get it in before it rained because it's going to rain all week and it's damp and cold with the temps hanging in the 40s in the day and mid 30s first thing in the mornings we prefer the wood furnace to the electric heat BUT no matter the Weather or anything that's happening in life we don't need to get frustrated and allow ourselves to lose the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE, we must stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W. - No Matter What! We have the choice to continue living a life of Freedom or relapse, relapsing isn't an option anymore NOT when we can stick with our precious quits so each evening we can look ourselves in the mirror and say YAY for another Day WON. Here's a pic of Mason and I last night just before heading off to La la land, he's been up and had his breakfast already while I'm swilling coffee and wishing all of you my friends and Fellow EXers a wonderful day and Welcome back to our EXers that's been to the Ex 7 Reunion in Virginia Beach. 

Wishing everyone a wonderful day here in Ex land and for everyone that made it to Virginia Beach for the Ex 7 Reunion have safe travels back to your homes you were missed BUT I'm sure it was a fantastic mini vacation, I'm hoping to make it to one of these reunions because we're all on this quit journey together and I want to be able put faces to all of you my friends and Fellow EXers and most definetly EXtended family XO we are the Ex family whether we're on day one or day one thousand or two thousand it really doesn't matter where we are in our quits as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees us a Smokefree Life and that's what Ex is about...... Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison is absolutely wonderful so if you're struggling with remaining quit chin up and keep moving forward stacking up your precious Days of Freedom because it's going to get easier and easier with time under your belt BUT you must believe it and stick with your quit journey N.M.W  - No Matter What so you can also reap the benefits of Freedom ......

Once you reach that point where you realize how much better life is as an EXer then you'll never ever want to go back to that horrid DAY ONE or those early days and weeks of quitting smoking, I know just how difficult it is in those early weeks BUT I also remember getting to that good place in my quit and it's one heck of a great Feeling so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that you'll ever give yourself which is the gift of LIFE......

When I was in the throes of the horrendous cravings and moodswings and lack of sleep I'm so thankful that I had this awesome community to come to vent and once I stopped and really thought about how many decades I smoked which was 40 years of roughly 30 smokes a day then it made perfect sense that it was bound to take time to relearn life without the crutch of cigarettes it didn't make it any easier in those early weeks BUT I knew that I was going to get through the roller coaster ups and downs and into that good place in my quit and so will all of you that are struggling, you can do it! Believe it stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees you a Smokefree Life it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it to be Free and besides anything in this life worth having takes time and effort and our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W - No Matter What ......

I want to wish all of our friends and Fellow EXers meeting up at Virginia Beach this wk end a wonderful time  see you on the flipside, I've been doing alot of reminiscing lately and got to thinking about my childhood and getting married at 16 and then ending that marriage at 28 meeting Mark and eventually marrying him life has so many twists and turns and sometimes it'll catch us totally off guard and kick us in the teeth BUT that's life so we kinda got to go with the flow EXCEPT when it comes to quitting smoking because that's completely in our control and as difficult as it is at times thankfully it's DOABLE! If anyone asked me if quitting smoking was easy? I'd be saying HELL NO!!!! BUT if they asked me if quitting smoking was worth it? I'll be saying HELL YES!!!! If we want to be around to enjoy the little things in life that's actually the the big things in LIFE then we must  choose to take EXtra good care of ourselves and by kicking the damned Cancer Sticks to the curb permanently is taking our lives back and is a really good start to a much healthier lifestyle our quits are firmly in our grasp and it's up to us to nurture and protect the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE. .......

I never thought I'd ever quit smoking let alone be able to stick with it and be in it for the long haul BUT here I am and there's so many of us that's in it for the long haul which is for LIFE our precious lives that's the reason I'm living my Forever Quit because after 40 years of slavery to the damned Cancer Sticks I developed copd  which thankfully is mild BUT that scared some sense into me because I figured out that I'm not invincible so I found this site and got serious about taking back my life and thankfully as difficult as quitting smoking can be it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it,  our lives deserves for us to look after ourselves and quitting smoking is absolutely a gift of LIFE that we can give ourselves and our families PLUS our health and our wallets will definitely benefit ..........our Exer friends that's  going to the Ex reunion have fun and takes lots of pictures and maybe a short video or two love you guys huge hug for each of you, stay safe and we'll see you soon.......    

It's a dark dank dreary drizzly day with huge snowflakes UGH the temp at the moment is only 34 degrees but it's supposed to get up to 40 we've had one day of 70 since Spring arrived and a few days of 60s BUT geesh I'm beginning to think Mother Nature forgot what Season this is BUT thankfully I do have electric heat that I'm using because we ran out of wood for the furnace quite awhile ago UGH BUT that's LIFE and LIFE is going to happen whether we smoke or not and as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance then we'll continue to reap the benefits of Smokefree living, we're always going have ups and downs and sometimes there's alot more downs I find that I can handle things so much easier now that I'm NOT sitting outside in a huge cloud of smoke chainsmoking! I'm just so thankful that I found this site and am living a life of Freedom ...... Oh George the Hump Day Camel just reminded me to wish you a very good morning and to let you know that the coffees on and if you're having a rough morning hang on tight, deep breaths and know that we're all here to help you in any way we can so keep moving forward stacking up those precious DOF - Days Of Freedom, the longer you're quit the easier it will get please believe it because it's true. .....

I'm on my way out the door, hummm I had a blog all written up at 6:30 this morning BUT I must've forgot to hit publish, yesterday I did more than I normally do and had one of those surely just ONE would be OK moments and that's all it was because thankfully I know that ONE would totally suck big time and would certainly screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so we must always remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE or those early days and weeks of quitting smoking Sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance works when applied on a daily basis then there's absolutely no way we will relapse because relapsing isn't an option N.M.W. - No Matter What, here's a card my future daughter in law done for me for Mother's day she's worked for Wal Mart for over 11 years in the Photo lab anyway my family is a huge incentive to live a Smokefree Life because I want to be the healthiest I can possibly be so I can be around to enjoy the little things in life that's actually the the big things in LIFE and I definitely want to be around for my precious grandchildren well I'm hitting publish! This time....

Life can and does throw us curve balls that can really cause stress BUT with commitment and perseverance PLUS the right Mindset Relapsing isn't an option it should not be anymore than a passing thought because our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W. - No Matter What and we must remember that LIFE is going to happen whether we smoke or not and screwing up a perfectly beautiful quit isn't the answer because whatever is causing the stress will still be there so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that you'll ever give yourself which is the gift of LIFE! Our LIVES deserves for us to look after ourselves because if we don't nobody else can do it for us....... Here's a pic my daughter Mandy took last night hummmm I better go put my bread in the pans hugs everyone. .....

Happy Mother's day to all of us Moms and Happy Mother's day to any Dad's out there that's being both Mom and Dad, I know what it's like being both parents, Happy Mother's day to everyone that's a furbaby Mom, Happy Mother's day to all of our Mom's that's in Heaven I know my Mom is at peace, I know that today is bittersweet for us missing our Mom's BUT I do know just how proud of me my Mother would be knowing that I'm heading for 5 years of Smokefree living in July, I didn't quite have a year of sobriety when she died she was so proud of me I was with her when she passed I wanted a drink so bad after the funeral BUT I stayed sober for my Dad so I could be there for him I've never touched a drink and I never will I celebrated 8 Years of sobriety in February and I'll be celebrating my 5 years of Smobriety in July  because another Day ONE would totally suck big time BUT Each and every Day WON totally rocks we're all very fortunate to have found this site because we're all on this quit journey together and I for one consider us FAMILY we're the Ex family whether we're on day one or day one thousand or two thousand it really doesn't matter where we are in our quits as long as we all stick with it then we'll continue to reap the benefits of Freedom...... Freedom from the clutches of the nicotine poison is absolutely Splendiferous .......

I'm very fortunate to still have my Dad in my life I'll get my brother tomorrow after church and Dad will get my younger sister because they both live close together a half hour from me and we'll hook up at the grave site and put new flowers on Mom's headstone it's hard to believe it's been seven years since she passed then there's other times it seems like yesterday BUT thankfully smoking isn't even a blimp on my Radar because I don't do that anymore and I know Mom would be so proud of me for quitting she was on oxygen 7/24 for over a year before she died on January 26th 2012 she just turned 72 on the 23rd of January and her funeral was on my Mother in law's birthday and one of my great neices on the 28th I'm really glad that I finally wised up and quit smoking because I plan on being around to enjoy the little things in life that's actually the the big things in life and I want the best quality of life that I can possibly have, heres a picture of my Mom back in June of 1983 that's  my son Alfred when he was 3 months old when I flew back from Edmonton Alberta for a vacation and the other pic is Mason when he was 3 years old, he's pretty played out from running up and down the halls of the nursing home whew so was I from chasing him   my daughter Mandy took this pic which is the last picture I ever got because Mom passed 22 days later so this picture is priceless to me I loved the expression on her face when I finally got Mason settled on lap watching T.V. she's like whew  ........ smoking doesn't need to be part of our lives period because we really can live life on life's terms if we stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance there's absolutely no way we can FAIL we must choose to stick with our quits N.M.W...... I know EXactly how horrendous it can be in those early weeks BUT I also know that it's very Doable with willingness determination commitment and perseverance and I didn't tear my hair out or rip anyone's face off even though I felt like it at times BUT thankfully I had this community to come to vent and there was always someone here to help me through and there's always someone here to help you too .......

I'm one of those serial quitters that had at least a half dozen half assed failed attempts at quitting smoking until I was told that I have mild copd that's when I realized that I wasn't invincible and I didn't want to end up on oxygen and I didn't want a Dr to tell me to go home and get my affairs in order that there's nothing that can be done all because I wouldn't quit the damned Cancer Sticks so I found this site and was willing determined and totally committed to succeed and as difficult as it was in those early days and weeks I made it through with the help of this community and the mantras I learned  without tearing my hair out or ripping anyone's face off  Relapsing wasn't an option & never will be for me or for anyone as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and vigilance which guarantees us a Smokefree Life.....As difficult as quitting smoking can be thankfully with perservence it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it......


Stay Smokefree because it's the one choice, the best choice and the only choice that is worth making and the best part is quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely DOABLE  it's definetly the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE and our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W so we can be around to reap the benefits of Freedom. ..... Smokefree Freedom. 

If you're struggling you can take it one minute or even a second at a time as long as you keep moving forward so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON it really does get easier and easier with time under your belt......

It's nice to be on site this afternoon our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel George and I want to wish each of you a Stressfree hasslefree but most importantly a Smokefree afternoon and evening Life really is Grand without a Cigarette in Hand so chin up if you're struggling with remaining quit and please keep plowing forward through the rough patches until you realize for yourself just how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes because once you get to that good place in your quit you'll be so glad that you stuck with your precious quit journey...... 

My oldest sister Cheryl called me before 7 this morning I was still sleeping so I got up and she was yammering a mile a minute   whew hubby turned the coffee on for me, he's feeling better and went to work I don't feel overly bad with this cold bug anyway I haven't seen Cheryl in 6 yrs since I hooked up with her on a bus tour in Nova Scotia, she  hasn't been here in NB in 23 years BUT she's coming home on the 24th of May for a week with her husband so we're both pretty excited, she'll be staying with me most of the time so I'll be taking her around places her husband will stay with Dad so it's going to be busy but wonderful. She talked for 2 hours this morning whew I'm so glad that I don't smoke anymore because my head feels huge now BUT if I was still smoking I would've smoked at least 8 cigarettes and at least 4 coffee and my head would be exploding right about NOW I don't like being woke up like that especially sick with a full head BUT thankfully I wised up and kicked those disgusting cancer sticks away 1,758 glorious Days ago or something like that BUT my point is I'm Smokefree and I plan on remaining vigilant and I'll always remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE or those early days and weeks of quitting smoking because I never ever want to go backwards BUT I still smile at each and every Day WON because Freedom Rocks....... Cheryl's husband still smokes and I thought she quit completely when she got breast cancer 4 years ago but I asked her this morning if she's actually done and she said she has the odd cigarette! I told her I couldn't do that! That I wouldn't even consider it because I'd be right back smoking 30 a day again so whoa in my opinion I'm not sure if this is Dale's saying or Not BUT I told Cheryl  if you quit smoking and you're still smoking then your doing it wrong! N.O.P.E MEANS - N.O.P.E - NOT ONE PUFF EVER .......

Whether we're on day one or day ten, one hundred or one thousand or two thousand it really doesn't matter where we are in our quit as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and Vigilance which guarantees us a lifetime of Freedom because relapsing isn't an option our lives literally depends on us to stick with our quits N.M.W - No Matter What, life is too damned short to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit and have to go back to that horrid DAY ONE BUT by sticking to our precious quit journey each evening we can say YAY for another Day WON  our quits is the best GIFT that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE.......

itIt's not easy quitting smoking by any stretch of the imagination BUT thankfully it's DOABLE if you stop to think about how many decades upon decades you smoked then it makes perfect sense that it's going to take time to feel comfortable in your own skin again and to relearn life without the smokes because every blessed thing we did from the time we woke up until the time we went to bed was wrapped around smoking but thankfully with N.O.P.E and vigilance we're guaranteed a life of Freedom .....

There's no school today so Mason spent the night last night and was up just minutes after I got up this morning just before seven, he got to see Gramp before he went to work hummm I'll have to think of what to fix Mark for lunch, it's great being able live life on life's terms without the smokes BUT it does take time to relearn life without them so if you're struggling with remaining quit please stop and think about how many decades upon decades you smoked then it might help you to realize that it's bound to take awhile to get through the roller coaster ups and downs to that point where you realize how much better life is as an EXer so deep breaths and keep plowing forward through the rough patches and you will get to that good place in your quit then you'll be so glad that stuck with your quit journey because life really does get easier and easier with time under your belt and much better without the yuckies (cigarettes) we're all here to help you in any way we can ..... I love both of these pins...... I love my little Mack Attack Mason in the bottom pin too.......

                                                                       Suppertime last evening.....

 

Sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance can be EXtremely difficult at times especially in the throes of the horrendous cravings and moodswings and lack of sleep BUT you can and will make it through those horrid rough patches BUT you must make the choice to stick with your precious quit journey N.M.W - No Matter What, I remember only too well how difficult it can be BUT thankfully as long as you're willing determined and totally committed to succeed then you can and will be successful and boy oh boy it's so worth it to be Free..... We're all here to help you in any way we can ......

Our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel George and I want to wish everyone on this chilly start to the day at a brrrrr 29 degrees here in the Maritimes a wonderful Smokefree day on this 1st day of May plus it's International Worker's Day, I cleaned up my patio area and set up the patio furniture yesterday it warmed up to 49 but felt alot warmer then when Mason got here after school he helped me put the canopy on the swing I had several thoughts of just ONE would be OK for a job well done oh yeah!  BUT Thankfully I know better we all know better this is why vigilance is so important because it would only take one split second  to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit! I also woke up at 2:30 with a Cigarette in one Hand and a drink in the other UGH! I'll have 5 years of Smobriety in July plus I have well over 8 years of Sobriety so I will not allow myself to become lazy and complacent. We must always remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget - DAY ONE - or those early days and weeks - N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and vigilance guarantees us a Smokefree Life as long as we stick with our quits N.M.W - No Matter What then we'll continue to reap the benefits of being an Ex Smoker Non Smoker or EXer it doesn't matter what we call it as long as we stick with our precious quits so each evening we can look ourselves in the mirror and say YAY for another Day WON......