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Actually I can think of two good things off the top of my head I haven't seen mosquitos in months plus we're not standing outside in these frigid temperatures freezing our butts off or our fingers, I always found it difficult to wear gloves when smoking because it interfered with holding the cigarette plus I didn't want to take a chance on burning the gloves so I chose to freeze my fingers instead WOW what a powerful addiction smoking really is BUT thankfully as difficult as quitting can be with the right Mindset it's absolutely DOABLE and by sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance then there's no way you can FAIL There's definetly Life after Cigarettes and it's super fantastic so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE......

George the Hump Day Camel isn't impressed with the never ending frigid temps and the back to back storms BUT that's life if you're in the deep freeze be safe and be prepared with a safety kit with a blanket, a candle and other things to keep you safe from frostbite or worse in case you get stranded in your Vehicle just like our quits being prepared for the unexpected can and will keep our quits in tact so preparation is key in so many areas of our lives.....

It's my mother-in-law's 92nd birthday today we had a big birthday celebration for her yesterday after church it's also my great neice's 13th birthday plus it's 7 years today that we had Mom's funeral, the 23rd was my Mom's birthday, the 26th I was with her when she passed, at the time I was still smoking BUT I had quit drinking BUT it wasn't quite A year since I'd quit and boy oh boy did I want to drink BUT I didn't because I needed to be there for my Dad plus I knew if I relapsed I'd probably never stop again until I was 6 feet under I was a functioning alcoholic and ended up with a very thin stomach lining several months before quitting I'd have a couple of drinks and end up lying on the couch in the fetal position in extreme pain my husband Mark drank as well and would walk by me and ask if I was ok I'd say not really but he'd continue to drink anyway I finally wised up and will have 8 years of sobriety on the 14th of February   Mark still drinks he's been making his own beer for over 20 years but he's finally cutting way back on drinking   because he's starting to feel sluggish. At some point we all must look after ourselves because if we don't nobody else can do it for us I also had a heart attack right around the time I quit drinking so I figure if I hadn't quit when I did that I might have been buried before my mother the cardiologist told me that the heart attack was most likely a warning and that actually helped me to quit smoking because finding out that I have mild copd got me thinking that I didn't want to end up on oxygen 7/24 and having my family especially the grandchildren watch me fight for every breath. It's amazing to me now that I watched my Mom the last couple of years of her life be on oxygen 7/24 and I continued to Smoke for several years BUT thankfully I wised up and so can everyone because with the right Mindset quitting smoking is absolutely DOABLE - EXtremely difficult BUT definitely DOABLE and so very worth it , smoking is one HELL of an addiction BUT as long as we are willing determined and totally committed to succeed and we stick with our quits no matter what is happening in life then there's no way we can Fail and we will live a life of Freedom so each evening we will say YAY for another Day WON....

It took me 40 years of smoking roughly 30 smokes a day and a half dozen or so half hearted attempts at quitting smoking it wasn't until I found out that I have mild copd that I finally wised up and realized that I wasn't invincible and decided to bite the bullet and quit playing Russian Roulette with my life so I got on line and found this site and I read everything I could find about this horrid addiction and picked a quit date but when it came I wasn't ready so I reset it and then I totally forgot about this site until my 18th day when I was having back to back cravings and wanted to jump in my car and buy a carton of cigarettes instead of just a pk BUT thankfully I remembered this site and I got on line and commented on something up until that point I was hiding in the shadows and hadn't let myself be known but thankfully moody_9-18-13 commented back to me and suggested I write a blog and say a little about myself and so I did and here I am living a life of Freedom as difficult as quitting can be it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it to be Free and besides anything in this life worth having takes time and effort plus we must be willing determined and totally committed to succeed and by sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance then then there's just no way can FAIL .....

if anyone asked me if quitting smoking was easy? I'd be saying HELL NO!!!! BUT if I was asked if quitting smoking was worth it? I'll be saying HELL YES!!!! Because it really really is and with the right Mindset it's absolutely Doable, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that those early days are EXtremely difficult there were days for me that the cravings were back to back and seemed never-ending that I wanted to scream or tear my hair out or better yet rip your face off anyone's face it really didn't matter who's face BUT from all of the reading that I did right here on this site I knew that I was going to get through them so I kept mind as well as well as my hhands occupied and kept giving my head several shakes and kept repeating that I don't smoke anymore and I made it through and so can everyone that's in the throes of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep you can and will get to that point where you realize how much better life is as an EXer BUT you must believe it and stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees everyone a Smokefree Life.....keep choosing Freedom.....

No Matter how difficult the cravings and moodswings can be at times and even with the lack of sleep that's also part of the quitting process you can and will get through the roller coaster ups and downs of it all BUT you must believe it and take a deep breath and keep your mind as well as your hands occupied and continue to move forward stacking up those precious DOF so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON, I know that it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT it's absolutely Doable and with the right Mindset we can and will be Free.....

I actually slept in until 8 o'clock this morning, schools are cancelled for the second time this week between the snow and the freezing rain the roads are treacherous BUT my hubby Mark made it to work I need to get moving and get something accomplished at least I'm not outside in all kinds of weather nearly horking up a lung or possibly even both because I think I need that fix when in reality I know that I don't need it and I'll never need it again as long as I stick with my quit as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever then there's absolutely no way we can FAIL let's never allow ourselves to become lazy  & complacent and lose the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE because going back to Day ONE again would totally suck big time but another Day WON is totally super fantastic.....

We had a foot of snow Monday with some freezing rain and ice pellets then it switched back to snow Monday night there really wasn't much more of an accumulation but the roads were horrid and the winds were gusting so hard what a trip to my appointment and back home I should have cancelled I hit several areas where the snow drifted into my lane and I was driving into so many whiteouts that I white knuckled the whole drive home. I'll tell you though there's absolutely NO WAY YOU CAN SMOKE WHEN BOTH HANDS ARE GRIPPING THE STEERING WHEEL THAT TIGHT......

My buddy my pal my friend George the Hump Day Camel isn't impressed with Winter either so let's all enjoy a stiff cup of coffee and enjoy this day that we're fortunate enough to be blessed with......

Life has a way of kicking us in the teeth at times BUT it's going to happen whether we smoke or not and once we realize that, then it's much easier to deal with whatever the issue may be without the crutch of cigarettes because living LIFE on LIFE'S Terms is absolutely Doable definetly not easy in those early weeks BUT definitely DOABLE. I gotta get moving I've got an appointment this morning so I better start the car and let it warm up.....

We were expecting 18 to 24 inches of the white crap I'm definitely getting my exercise shoveling which isn't a bad thing I'm just glad that I finally wised up and quit smoking because I get out of puff quite easy now and can't imagine leaning against the scoop taking smoke breaks like I used to I really can't imagine doing that anymore and with N.O.P.E and vigilance I won't and neither will any of you because N.O.P.E is the gift of LIFE ........

All schools are cancelled which will make all of the children happy I know Adam and Mason will be for sure many roads are closed as well we got freezing rain overnight so the snow is really heavy this morning, Mark is still heading for work shortly now that he plowed himself out.....

No matter what is happening in life we have a choice to relapse or not and choosing Not to Smoke is definitely the right choice I know it's much easier just to throw your hands up in the air and say screw it and relapse BUT then you kick yourself later for giving in to the damned Cancer Sticks, I know that because  I screwed up at least a half dozen quits by doing just that BUT thankfully this quit has stuck because with the help of this community I made it through and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that quitting smoking is absolutely horrendous at times BUT definitely DOABLE and totally worth it so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE. I posted this pic on Missy's post this morning of Sam's run we're expecting a couple of feet of the white crap so I scooped a few paths yesterday so she could get around better in it and Mark shoveled the garage roof just to be sure it wouldn't cave in, I'm ready for Summer BUT at least I'm not outside freezing my butt off sucking on a cancer stick because I don't do that anymore and you don't do that anymore either sticking with our quits N.M.W - No Matter What - is Doable difficult at times You Bet BUT thankfully it's also Doable and totally worth it to be Free....

I know that quitting smoking is EXtremely difficult to say the least because I remember & I hope that I - N.E.F  - Never Ever Forget those early days and weeks because I don't want to ever go back to Day ONE again, I don't want anyone to lose the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE as hair raising as it can be it's also very Doable there were times that I wanted to tear my hair out by the handful BUT I didn't and I'll tell you if anyone happpened to look at me the wrong way I wanted to rip their face off BUT I didn't   the only people that I wanted to be around ME were the grandchildren because they were my incentive to keep plowing forward & I'll tell you the longer you're quit the easier it will get BUT you must believe it and stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees you a Smokefree Life....

If you're reading this and you're struggling with remaining quit please know that you can and will be successful one precious Smokefree Day at a time or hour minute or even a second at a time stay close and read everything you can about quitting smoking because there's a wealth of information right here on this site to strengthen your resolve to kick the nicotine poison to the curb permanently it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE which I consider the one gift that'll keep on giving day after day week after week month after month and Lord willing year after year it's vital to our quality of LIFE which was my main reason for my quit because breathing is essential to living and I didn't want to end up on oxygen 7/24 and have my family watch me fight for every breath plus I decided I wanted to be around to enjoy LIFE on LIFE'S Terms with the family but especially the grandchildren so I can make memories so hopefully someday when I'm gone they'll be able to look back and smile as difficult as it was for me in those early weeks with the help of this community I made it through and so can everyone because with the right Mindset we can do just about anything we put our minds and by sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance then there's just no way you can FAIL! It's definetly going to take time to get to that good place in your quit where you realize how much better life is as an EXer BUT you must believe it and stick with your quit so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON .....

I love celebrating Milestones whether you're entering the DDC - Double Digit Club which is hitting the 10 days of Smokefree living and counting or reaching 30 glorious DOF - Days Of Freedom or your entry into the TDC - Triple Digit Club which is 100 stupendous DOF or the Quad Squad of 1,000 precious days or the Double Quads 2,000 or anything in between no matter where we are in our quits we need to celebrate our Freedom and we sure as HELL don't want to become complacent and take our quits for granted I never want to forget I don't any of you to forget those early days and weeks so let's always remember and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget - DAY ONE because going back would totally suck big time but another Day WON is totally super fantastic ....... We must stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees us a Smokefree Life and if we stick with our quits then there's no way we can FAIL......

It's been one of those mornings ugh  I'm sure you know what I mean I feel like I've been on a 3 week drunk and chainsmoking Grrrrr my head feels like it's going to EXplode   BUT realistically I know it won't so hey it's just one of those days so I'll get my day started late so what right! Oh by the way I'm actually a recovering alcoholic and I'll be celebrating 8 years of sobriety on the 14th of February   and I've got a little over 4 and half years of Smokefree living too and with commitment to my quits I'll never be go backwards only forward for me and forwards for each of you in your quit journeys because only Days WON will do ..........

January is pretty much half over  I find the older I get the faster time zooms by usually the month of Jan. drags on and on but not this year it's going by pretty quick which gets me to thinking how glad I am that I'm taking much better care of myself and I think we all are just by being here on this site is definitely one way of doing so because this community is full of caring people and we're all on this awesome quit journey together and we're all here to support each other whether a person is contemplating quitting or on their early days or wks or months or years, it doesn't matter because we're all here to support each other so we can live a life of Freedom because our lives literally depends on us to quit and stay quit it's up to us to nurture and protect the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE which I consider the one gift that'll keep on giving day after day week after week month after month and Lord willing year after year, Hhmmmm I see Georgette popped in on this Hump Day to see our buddy our pal our friend our Hump Day Camel George  I think she has a crush on him ........

 

If you're reading this and you're struggling with remaining quit please take a deep breath and know that you can and will make it through these roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep and you will get to that point where you realize how much better life is as an EXer BUT it's going to take time to relearn life without the smokes if you stop and think about how many decades you smoked then it only stands to reason that it's bound to take time BUT believe me when I say it's totally worth it so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE, we're all here to help you in any way we can, try to keep your mind as well as your hands occupied which really helps do whatever you have to do so at the end of the day you'll be able to look in the mirror and say yay for another Day WON keep moving forward because you will get the UMPH .....

I did a double take checking the temp outside this morning -25°C or -12°F now that's cold I know there's different regions that's even colder BUT brrrrrrr it's nice and toasty inside now that my hubby filled the wood furnace before he went to work so I'll be keeping that filled, I'm just glad that I don't need to be standing outside in these frigid temperatures freezing my butt off & my fingers trying to suck on a cancer stick coughing choking and nearly horking up a lung or possibly even both because I think I need that fix BUT in reality once we've made up our minds to kick the nicotine poison to the curb permanently we can do it and we can be Free it's definetly not easy in those early days and weeks BUT it's absolutely Doable and with N.O.P.E and vigilance there's just no way we can Fail, I'll have five years Smokefree in July I alwayswant to remember and N.E.F  - Never Ever Forget that horrid DAY ONE because going back just isn't an option BUT continuing to stack up those precious DOF - Days Of Freedom is totally super fantastic   I still smile each evening at each and every Day WON because after 40 yrs of smoking roughly 30 smokes a day & at least a half dozen failed attempts at quitting smoking BUT thankfully I found this site and with the help of this community I am living a life of Freedom and so can everyone because with the right Mindset you can do just about anything you put your minds to is quitting smoking easy? HELL NO!!!!! BUT is Quitting smoking worth it? HELL YES!!!!!

It all starts with Day ONE and the willingness determination and the commitment to succeed  BUT you must believe you can be successful because you will one precious Smokefree Day at a time or hour minute or even a second at a time deep breaths, chin up and keep moving forward stacking up your precious DOF - Days Of Freedom so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON as difficult as quitting can be it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it to be able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a disgusting cancer stick......

Once I made up my mind to take back my life from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison and found this site and read everything I could find about this horrid addiction and bit the bullet and stopped playing Russian Roulette with my LIFE That's when I finally realized that as difficult as it was going to be that I was going to succeed and it was EXtremely difficult BUT I knew that I was going to make it because I was sticking with my quit N.M.W. - No Matter What and so can everyone  because as horrendous as the cravings, moodswings and lack of sleep are in those early days and weeks as long as you believe that it's going get easier and easier with time under your belt then it makes it more bearable to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance because it really does get better and better without the crutch of cigarettes and you'll be reaping the benefits of being an Ex Smoker because life is so much more enjoyable without the smokes so keep sticking with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and vigilance so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON.....

I DID, YOU DID, WE DID!!! RIGHT!

N.O.P.E works when applied on a daily basis .....

 

Taking back our lives from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison is absolutely difficult BUT definitely DOABLE and so very worth it to be able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a cancer stick BUT thankfully there's definetly Life after Cigarettes BUT you must believe it and stick with your quit N.M.W  - No Matter What......

I still am amazed at times when looking back into my smoking days because after only a few sips of coffee this morning I bundled up and grabbed the scoop and started shoveling while Mark was plowing so he could get to work it's amazing how much easier it is to function as an EXer BUT of course while we're still smokers we certainly don't believe it I know I didn't I'd have to get up much earlier than necessary especially when I was still working so I could wake up with at least 4 coffee but more likely 5 and at least 5 cigarettes but probably 6 to function BUT not anymore and looking back it's WOW because after the initial withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep and the brain fog that goes along with the early weeks of quitting smoking once that clears up and you get to that point where you realize how much better life is as an EXer then you'll never ever want to go back to Day ONE again BUT Each and every Day WON is totally super fantastic. I'm running late this morning I got to get ready to go out, Happy Smokefree Thursday everyone LIFE really is Grand without a Cigarette in Hand BUT you must believe it and stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees you a Smokefree LIFE ......

Keep moving forward and stacking up your precious Days of Freedom and get used to the new norm which is living LIFE on LIFE'S Terms .....

My buddy my pal my friend George the Hump Day Camel and I want to wish everyone a great day no matter what may be going on in our lives no matter how difficult things may be we're still blessed life is going to happen whether we smoke or not I still get frustrated and have my off days, stress wise and pain wise BUT thankfully each of us can live life on life's terms  without the smokes, if you're in the early days or wks of your quit it's definetly much more difficult at times BUT with commitment and perseverance you will succeed in living a Smokefree Life and we're all here to help you in any way we can sticking with N.O.P.E and vigilance guarantees us a Smokefree Life and it's super fantastic once you get to that good place in your quit so hang on tight because the longer you're quit the easier it will get BUT you must believe it then there's no way you can FAIL...

I know that it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination especially in those early weeks of quitting smoking because I've been there in the throes of some mighty powerful cravings that seemed never ending BUT I made it through without ripping anyone's face off or tearing my hair out strand by strand, I give this community of awesome folks much of the credit because I'd come on line during those horrid times there was always someone to talk me down and with all of the reading that was suggested here which I read over and again helped tremendously along with the mantras which I used on a daily basis like N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and Vigilance because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - N.M.W - No Matter What & N.E.F  - Never Ever Forget those early days and weeks of quitting smoking because another Day ONE would totally suck big time but another Day WON is the gift of LIFE plus keep them away from your face and the only way out is through & as difficult as quitting can be it's absolutely DOABLE plus there's so many more than I've learned here from everyone as long as we all stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance then there's no way we can FAIL & I know now that I've been in that good place in my quit for quite some time now that all of the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep was & is absolutely worth it to be Free because I know now how much better life is as an EXer & that Life is Grand without a Cigarette in Hand BUT you must believe it and stick with your quit....

I know that it's not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT I also know that it's very Doable and totally worth it so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that you or any of us will ever give ourselves which is the gift of LIFE our lives deserves for us to look after ourselves because if we don't nobody else can do it for us by quitting smoking we're giving ourselves a much better chance of being around to enjoy the little things in life that's actually the the big things in LIFE it's bound to take time to get through the rough patches and relearn life without the smokes BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it to be Free so keep moving forward and stacking up your precious Days of Freedom so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON.... as difficult as quitting can be you can and will succeed N.M.W. - No Matter What , deep breaths and believe it.....

Once you decide to bite the bullet and take back your life from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison and educate yourself by reading everything you can right here on this it should strengthen your resolve to kick the smokes to the curb and start living a life of Freedom it'll be the best decision that you'll ever make in your lifetime it's definetly not easy by any stretch of the imagination in those early days and weeks but after decades of smoking it's bound to take time to relearn life without the smokes BUT boy oh boy it's so worth it so hang on tight and don't let go of the best gift that you'll ever give yourself which is the gift of LIFE! You can and will get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep to get to that point where you realize how much better life is as an EXer then you'll never ever want to go back to Day ONE again and you'll be so thankful for each and every Day WON because like ME and so many OTHERS  you'll know that Life is Grand without a Cigarette in Hand BUT you must believe it and stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance which guarantees you a Smokefree Life.....

I smiled when I read this coffee pin so maybe it'll bring a smile to you too. 

Life really does happen whether we smoke or not I remember going to a funeral home just a couple of months after I quit smoking and walking by several people smoking and feeling like I was having an out of body experience like I was veering over to the smokers so I could light one up too BUT I was actually holding onto my husband's hand tighter than usual because I didn't really want one BUT subconsciously I thought I needed one BUT here I am 1635 days later trying to comprehend losing yet another person from our region so we'll be going to the funeral home to pay our respects, my brother in law will be headed to Boston to see the kidney Cancer specialist and a surgeon to see if they can operate his cancer is now in his lymph nodes he had surgery 18 months ago to remove cancer from his lungs and 3 yrs previous in Florida he had surgery on his thyroid which was cancer his original cancer is kidney where they took one kidney and part of a lung 18 yrs ago he's 58 years old and I pray that they can help him in Boston, Presquile, Bangor or Portland won't operate so they sent him to Boston he was there a couple of weeks ago and now they want to see him again. I know I'm rambling BUT I'm Smokefree and I'll remain Smokefree and so can everyone because with the right Mindset we can stick with with our quits N.M.W  -  No Matter What , now I need my third and final coffee so I can start the day I've been up since 7 o'clock but I haven't been able to get motivated, sticking with N.O.P.E  and vigilance guarantees us a Smokefree Life. .....

I remember my early days and weeks of quitting smoking and how horrendous and never ending some of my cravings were BUT I also knew that I was going to get through them because of all the reading that I did right here on this site about quitting smoking and remaining quit plus all of you also helped  talk me through many rough patches, the mantras I've learned from this community helped as well N.O.P.E  - Not One Puff Ever and Vigilance because - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - N.M.W. - No Matter What plus keep them away from your face and the only way out is through plus once we've been quit for awhile let's always remember and N.E.F -  that horrid Dua ONE  because going back would totally suck big time but another Day WON is totally super fantastic. Quitting smoking is a choice I decided to bite the bullet and take back my life after 40 yrs of smoking with at least a half dozen failed attempts under my belt and smoking roughly 30 smokes a day but I finally wised up and thankfully found this site and I found the UMPH and and I'm living my Forever quit so if you're on the fence about quitting smoking or if you're struggling with remaining quit please stay close and know that you can and will be successful, deep breaths and believe it because it's definetly Doable difficult YES BUT DOABLE and absolutely worth it to be Free.......

I am EXtremely happy that I'm not standing outside in these frigid temperatures freezing my butt off and my fingers off because wearing gloves interfered with holding the smoke and possibly burning the gloves so I chose not to wear them and stood outside in all kinds of weather nearly horking up a lung or possibly even both because I thought I needed that damned Cancer Stick BUT NOT ANYMORE & Neither does ANYONE, quitting smoking is is a CHOICE and once a person realizes that and is willing determined and totally committed to succeed then they'll have the right mindset and can educate themselves on this horrid addiction by reading everything they can find right here on this site because it'll strengthen a person's resolve to pick a quit date and start their DAY ONE so at the end of the day they'll be able to say YAY for Day WON with many more to come it's definetly not easy by any stretch of the imagination BUT it's absolutely Doable and totally worth it to be Free here's a picture of this morning brrrrrrrrr at -5 °F BUT I'm inside nice and toasty not outside freezing my butt off ...... I say YAY for Smokefree living and yay for each and every Day WON.....

Here's poor George our Hump Day Camel freezing his Hump off.......

Another year is here so let's do everything we can to make it the best year possible and one way to do it is to look our ourselves just a little bit better because if we don't nobody else can do it for us, if you're new here and are starting your quit journey you're making best decision that you'll ever make in your lifetime and we're all here to help you in any way we can. Quitting smoking is the gift of LIFE and of course it's extremely difficult in those early days and weeks BUT definitely DOABLE and absolutely worth it to be Free......