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Let's end 2016 on a positive note and go into 2017 smiling because we're protecting our precious quits with our lives because our lives are depending on us to remain vigilant while enjoying our hard earned Freedom. If you're hiding in the shadows reading this and haven't quit yet now is the time to take back your life while you can before it's too late, there's a wealth of information here to help you quit and to remain quit so read everything you can and maybe even write a blog and tell us a little about yourself so we can possibly help you through the rough patches and if you are struggling hang on tight and don't let go to the best gift that any of us has ever given ourselves which is the gift of Life. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely doable and absolutely worth it to be FREE, there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's yours for the taking so grab on tight and continue stacking up your precious smoke free days! 

I haven't been checking my quit clock the last couple of days so I was pretty happy when I got on site this morning with a message on my message board from our friend Sharon  ( Smorgy ) - to get on board the Freedom Train to celebrate my 900 day milestone , I am most definitely a Happy Quitter and have been for quite some time, I have failed many times in the past in quitting smoking but I know now that's because I didn't have the right mindset and I was only half heartedly ready to quit and wasn't prepared to deal with any rough patches and stressers but with this quit and this wonderful community and the right attitude of being willing, determined and totally committed to succeed no matter what then how could I fail? We all can and will be successful if we hang tough and know that quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals and mood swings to get to that good place in our quits and I definetly lived by and still do and always will on a daily basis live by N.O.P.E. -because it works! 

I slept in until almost 9 o'clock which is great because I really needed the sleep I think, my daughter Mandy picked Mason up after she got off work yesterday and she's got the wk end off so yay .I am so happy that I still have power this morning there's thousands around me that don't. There's alot of snow down and our plow man's been here during the night and I didn't hear him, Mark went to work but he never misses time hopefully he'll get done early today. The wind is starting to pick up but I can stay inside and stay warm plus being an EXer is great because I don't need to be standing outside freezing my butt off sucking on a disgusting cancer stick, whew thankfully I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away and plowed through the rough patches and struggles and came out the other side smiling and if you are reading this and struggling please hang tough and hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes but unfortunately we all have to go through the roller coaster ups and downs but it's absolutely worth it to be Free! But you don't have to believe me when I say there's life after cigarettes, prove it for yourself by continuing to move forward stacking up your precious days of Freedom and one day soon you'll realize how much better life is without the crutch!

I plan on being here in the morning with my coffee and visiting with you my friends and fellow Exers and hopefully some folks that are hiding in the shadows reading this will decide to come join us and join the ranks of an Ex smoker but just in case you don't see me in the morning it'll be because I lost power .we're supposed to get a crap load of the white stuff, ugh and then possibly freezing rain and strong gusty winds so I thought just in case, I would wish each of you a blessed evening and a good nights sleep tonight and tomorrow is another day and definitely a great day to remain vigilant and protect our awesome quit so tomorrow evening we will be able to look in the mirror and smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

Marilyn 

Mason is still sleeping, hubby helped me stir up a batch of bread before he went to work so I am sitting here with my third and final cup of coffee before getting on with my day. My older sister called me and we talked for awhile, she lives 6 hrs away and I let her know that our younger sister Marion is doing well a nurse told me last night that physio is working closely with her and she's going to be there for awhile longer before they transfer her closer to home while waiting on the rehabilitation hospital, let's all of us Exers take deep breaths and hang on tight to our precious quits and remaining vigilant while enjoying our freedom is vital to our health and well being so let's not become complacent and lazy but instead embrace the best gift of our lives which of course is our awesome quits so let's always be on guard but even more so right now with the New Year right around the corner! 

I haven't been able to answer very many comments lately there just doesn't seem to be enough hrs in the days lately but I am still here and I am still pushing vigilance especially right now with the holidays and New Year's Eve coming in just a few days so please leave 2016 an EXer and go into 2017 with your head held high smiling because the gift of Freedom from the clutches of the cancer sticks is the most precious gift any of us can give ourselves and we must protect it with everything in us because in a split second itcould be lost and we don't ever want to lose it so N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because there's no reason on the face of this earth that's good enough to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit , S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option but living a life of freedom sure sounds good and is so very doable so reach out and grab it and hold on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic. 

Mason got here around 8:30 last night already for bed so gramp talked to him a few minutes and then I shuffled him into bed and layed down with him with the TV on until 9 o'clock then we snuggled and talked and he was sound asleep by 9:30. I got in my bed and probably was asleep before 10 o'clock I feel so bad for my hubby because he had to go to work, Masons still sleeping lucky boy but at least I slept until 7. It snowed several inches overnight with freezing rain and I think it's just rain now I shoveled all of the steps off before it freezes tonight the snow is really heavy but thankfully I won't smoke over the crappy weather or anything else because it wouldn't change anything EXcept ruin the best thing that I've ever done for myself and that's my precious quit so let's all of us EXers stay EXers and be EXtra cautious especially during this holiday season and protect our precious quits with our lives because our lives and families are counting on us to remain smoke free so we can be around to enjoy life without the crutch! 

My sister Marion looks really good, pysio had her up walking with a walker while we were there, for most people they'd think that she was moving horribly but for me knowing what's she's been through I am very pleased at how well she's doing. Our Dad and my husband was teasing her and got her laughing which hurt I'm sure but it did my heart good to see her smile it's been a very long day my daughter worked today and is working the rest of the wk days. She was going to bring Mason over at 6 tommorrow morning but I told her to bring him this evening with this storm coming in overnight and through the day tommorrow I would rather him be here so she can just concentrate on getting to work, anyway I am happy to be home and even more happy that I have 896 precious smoke free days of Freedom and counting, stick with your quit and keep stacking up those splendiferous DOF ! 

I only have a few minutes before heading out the door with my husband to go pick up my Dad for the three hr drive to visit my sister in the hospital, her daughter, son in law and four granddaughters aging from three to ten got in yesterday to see her. I talked to a nurse last night and she said she's getting some mobility back in her hands and legs now I call that a Christmas miracle, I better go so we can get back because a huge storm is coming in overnight but we'll be back and put the car in the garage. I can tell you that there's definitely life after cigarettes and I am so thankful to be able to get through stressful situations without the crutch because dealing with life on lifes terms is much easier and believe it or not much less stressful because I don't need to be outside sucking on a disgusting cancer stick but instead I can deal with things face on so let's just keep on moving forward stacking up those precious smoke free days. I hope everyone had a blessed Christmas Day and got to relax some before heading to bed with another day WON!

Let's have a super fantastic day today, I know that there's many of us Exers with either health issues or know someone close to you that's having problems or this is your first Christmas with losing a spouse or someone close to you, I pray that you will feel God's loving arms around you this blessed Christmas morning. Be sure to keep your best gift of all in tact which is your precious, stupendous, splendiferous, fantastic, fabulous, amazing, delightful, beautiful, marvelous, awesome, humongous, ginormous, wonderful, glorious and spectacular ongoing quit because this evening we all will look in the mirror and smile for another day WON! 

Hee, hee, I am tired but it's a great tired with having my family in today, I don't know when I will get on tommorrow but I will at some point. We're having Church service in the morning plus we are going to my mother in laws too plus she's coming up for Christmas dinner but all is good, the nurses are saying my sister Marion is doing ok but I will feel much better when I see her on Monday, love, hugs and Christmas Blessings to each of you my friends and fellow Exers. ☆♡☆♡☆

Marilyn 

A very good morning to each of you and thank you all for your comments on my blog last night, my husband and I are having the family coming in awhile to do a gift exchange between us .I think Mason is the most EXcited, we're going to have Pizza and garlic fingers from Pizza Delight so that's easy? Mason and I did make shortbread cookies yesterday in the shape of stars, let's have a wonderful smoke free Christmas Eve and by living by N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - which will give us a beautiful life of Freedom from the dreaded cancer sticks and once we realize that S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - then we realize just how much better life is without the crutch and if we do have a rough day it's good to think this -N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because another day ONE would suck big time but another day WON is super fantastic and H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, lonely, tired - let's take EXtra good care of ourselves so we can protect the best Christmas present we can give ourselves and our families which is our Freedom!

Marilyn 894 splendiferous DOF -days of freedom and counting! 

My sister Marion had her surgery at 12:10 last night which is the 23rd so she had her first neck surgery exactly 20 yrs ago on the same date, I just talked to her nurse and she's doing ok but I will be glad to see her for myself on the 26th, her daughter and family are going down on Christmas Day. Have a relaxing evening my friends and fellow Exers and when we're all getting ready for bed tonight we can look in the mirror and smile because we made it through another day WON, no matter what is happening in our lives we must realize that we can handle whatever comes our way much better without the crutch, it took me along time to figure that out but I don't need to be chain smoking and giving myself a migraine and choking and coughing and still have the stresser, smoke free is much easier to deal with life on lifes terms! 

I haven't felt like doing much this past week as far as baking goes but maybe when Mason gets here at noon, we will make some shortbread cookies and he can cut them out in Christmas shapes and frosting them, we'll see. It's been 20 yrs today since my sister's first neck surgery and only seven months since her last one, I pray that she'll finally get operated on today, tomorrow we are having my kids, their better halves and all of the grandchildren in and we'll open gifts from each other and have a big feed from pizza Delight, on Christmas Day we will have my mother in law in for Christmas dinner after the service at church and on Boxing Day the 26th we will pick up my Dad and drive the three hrs to the hospital to visit my sister and Lord willing she'll be recouping from surgery and none of this includes the cancer sticks because I don't do that anymore, please protect your quits with your lives because our lives depends on remaining smoke free, wishing each of you a blessed day today and hopefully hassle free but no matter what is happening hang on tight to your quit! 

My sister's hardware for her neck surgery didn't arrive in time for her to have the surgery today so Lord willing tommorrow, she's on the cancelation list to get it done, tommorrow is 20 yrs since her first neck surgery. My husband Mark and I are planning on taking my Dad and going to visit her on the 26th, it's a three hour drive but the weather is supposed to be good and thankfully smoking is not an issue for me but I will remain vigilant each and every day because I don't ever want to become complacent and lazy in my quit and let my guard down, I love the Freedom to be able to go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however I want and I don't ever want to go back to day ONE because I really like getting ready for bed in the evening and being able to smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

Marilyn 

Whew it's quite the chore getting Mason ready for school but I have him on a time schedule when he's here it's always close but he hasn't been late yet. Gramp drops him off to school on his way to work, now I have a little quiet Time before I start my day my sister Marion is supposed to be operated on this afternoon, the surgeon wanted to do it yesterday but didn't have all the hardware he needed so it will be here today. Lord willing I will know more this evening all I can say about quitting smoking is that I don't have a major headache from chain smoking and being more stressed because of how many cigarettes I was smoking plus freezing my hands and butt so for me I am really thankful that I don't need a smoke to get through the stressers instead I have lots to do inside to keep busy. N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance will give us a beautiful smoke free so let's keep moving forward and stacking up those splendiferous DOF -days of Freedom! 

Mason is asleep and I think I am going to head off to La la land myself sleep tight everyone and wake up to another day of smoke free living! ☆

I hope that vigilance will continue on especially throughout the holidays, I know that I sound like a broken record and possibly maybe even annoy a few people but I want everyone including myself to enjoy Christmas with the best gift of all intact which is our precious quits by protecting it and remaining smoke free then that's the best gift we can give ourselves and our families. With the hustle and bustle of the Christmas Season and the stress of trying to get everything done like the wrapping  the baking and making sure that all the gifts are purchased and so on and so on, so let's always remain on guard while enjoying our Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks and each evening we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

I called the hospital a little while ago and talked to my sisters nurse, she definitely needs surgery on her neck, it's a spinal cord compression above the previous level of surgery she had last May. The surgery will happen very soon, most likely before Christmas. Please keep the prayers going, I told my husband we are going to get down to see her right quick but most likely it will be after Christmas since it's quite a drive plus I have Mason but I did get to talk to Marion on her cell, they have her on morphine for the pain. Thank goodness for N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever -because it really works when applied daily and once you get to that good place in your quit like I am now it's not even an issue because I have no desire to smoke but I still remain vigilant just in case I ever had the urge because I never ever want to screw up my perfectly beautiful quit so my friends and Fellow Exers protect your quits with your lives because your lives depends on remaining smoke free plus Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks is totally awesome and S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option because smoke free is the only way to be for you and for me and all of us Exers, so if you are reading this and haven't quit yet now is the time to join the ranks of an Ex smoker! 

It's the day before Hump Day and only five days till Christmas morning, we get Mason tommorrow, Thursday and Friday I think but Gramp and I are really looking forward to having him because his age makes Christmas so much more enjoyable. It's -25. celius or - 13 ° F brrrrrrr, I feel bad for the kids waiting for the school bus and anyone that's standing outside trying to smoke! I am so glad that I don't do that anymore. Even with all of the worries and stress with my sister, I will not relapse because the Freedom I have to go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however would be gone and I won't give that up, even in the first few months of quitting my older sister found out she has breast cancer and she lives in another province so I could only talk to her on the phone, thank goodness she's still in remission but I didn't relapse but I had all of you to help distress me when I felt like throwing my hands up in the air and giving up plus the night before I quit smoking I promised myself that I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I don't break promises to anyone including myself. Finding this site and reading everything I could before actually quitting and educating myself really strengthened my resolve to quit and remain quit with the right mindset which is being willing, determined and totally committed then being successful and living that life of Freedom is yours for the taking so grab on tight and don't let go because Freedom is super fantastic! Yes it takes time to get through the roller coaster ups and downs and relearn life without the crutch but it's absolutely doable and absolutely worth it to be Free so hang tough and know that there's life after cigarettes! 

I would love to comment individually and say thanks for your prayers but it's been a long day and I am going to head off to La la land very soon so thank you all. I don't know anything yet about my sister Marion but I should hear something tommorrow, she has me down for her next of kin, I called the hospital this afternoon so I know she made It but the Dr hadn't got into see her yet but she's where she needs to be and smoking is the last thing on my mind, I prefer a clear head instead of a horrid smokers cough so let's continue stacking up those precious smoke free days and each evening we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON instead of BOO ANOTHER DAY ONE BECAUSE THAT WOULD REALLY SUCK BIG TIME!!!! 

I know that we all have things happening in our lives and sometimes it can feel overpowering but in just about anything in life we do have a choice in how we handle situations and it definitely applies to our quits, whether we are on day one or day 101 or day 500 or 1000 days or 3 yrs or more we must have the right mindset and stick to our quits no matter what because there's no EXcuse good enough to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit, like everyone I am going through some worries and stress about my younger sister and my own stressers with my own health and feeling like I'm failing my family some days but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that smoking isn't an option and I will protect my quit with my life so I can be here the best I can, I wish that I could do more but I can only do what I can do and I need to realize that but at least I know staying smoke free is key so vigilance it is! So don't give up because victory is right around the corner so hang on tight and stick with your quit and continue to plow forward until you reach that good place in your quit then you will see for yourself how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes and you can help someone else that may be struggling to remain smoke free! 

We never lost power which is great my daughter had to work yesterday with the snow and the wind, of course I worry about her traveling and she worked today with the freezing rain and my husband went to a wake today for a friend of his that died of cancer at the age of 58, the roads were treacherous but my daughter got home and so did hubby. Some of you may remember my 52 yr old sister going through neck surgery this past May, actually it will be 7 months tommorrow but she started losing the use of her hands and legs again, she's been in a wheelchair since before the surgery but with pysio she's been doing really well up until last week, her Red Cross worker got an ambulance for her this morning to the hospital in my region but tomorrow morning an ambulance will be taking her three hours away to the hospital that did the surgery, I am scared for her but I won't smoke over it, I wish I was in better health myself so I could help her more, life can be so frustrating at times. 

With the right mindset we can do just about anything we put our minds to and that includes quitting smoking because if we want it bad enough then we can keep at it for as long as we need to until that day that we realize that life is so much better without the crutch so hang on tight and stick with N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, lonely, tired and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because another day WON is super fantastic but Boo on another day ONE. Life happens whether we smoke or not and believe it or not it's much easier to deal with lifes stressers without having to go outside every half hour or so, keep moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days and know that quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable and so very worth it to be Free! 

It's starting to warm up nicely in the the house, it was 51 degrees inside but -5 ° F outside so I am very thankful to have a roof over my head especially with the crazy weather coming through over the next 36 hrs or so. If anyone is having a rough time with your quit especially during this holiday season and if you are living in a snow belt and the long winter gets you feeling depressed, just remember to keep your chin up and be EXtra careful to protect your precious ongoing splendiferous quit because I promise winter will end eventually, I live in a snow belt and usually get the seasonal effective disorder, if that's what it's called but I do get depressed but I must and you must get busy with something, anything but you must have faith in yourself and faith that Spring will come and stay smoke free because smoke free is the only life for you and for me and all of us Exers and if you are still sucking on a disgusting cancer stick please come join the ranks of being an Exer, read everything you can about quitting smoking and remaining quit because there's a wealth of information here so give yourself the best Christmas present you can for yourself and your family which is the gift of Life! 

I know there's many regions waking up to a deep freeze outside and it was pretty cold inside here with only wood heat, I am so thankful that hubby isn't working away this winter - 22° celius or -10 ° F isn't it great that we're not standing outside freezing our butts off as well as our fingers sucking on a stupid cancer stick especially with the wind factoring in at - 36 brrrrrrr. I am so thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic so stick with your quit and prove it for yourself how much better life is without the crutch and let's realize just how blessed we are to have a roof over our heads, food in the cupboard and a warm place to lay our head down at night because there's so many people that isn't as fortunate as we are that haven't even got the basic needs, I send my prayers out to these people especially during this season! Keep your quits because it's doable , difficult yes but doable! ! and if there's anyone reading this hiding in the shadows please pick a quit date and come join the ranks of an Ex smoker because there's a wealth of information here to strengthen your resolve to quit smoking and remain quit !

Marilyn 889 DOF and counting 

My daughter and I enjoyed the Christmas Concert yesterday afternoon and Mason's smile was totally heartwarming when he noticed us, I am so thankful that he doesn't take after me when it comes to singing because I sound horrid but at least in church it's A OK because I can make a joyful noise unto the Lord but anywhere else people would probably up and leave with a dreadful headache, hee, hee but Mason can carry a tune and has a beautiful singing voice. My Dad plays guitar and sings  my mom bless her soul sang and so does both my sisters and my daughter whew so she passed on her good genes to Mason, my step grandaughter Emma who is 14 did move in with my daughter and her Dad last night her mother has 2 other children, Emma 's half sisters one is 5 and in kindergarten and the other is 7 in grade 2 their mother from what I understand punched the 7 yr old in the face for whatever reason I don't know and Emma tried to stop her so her mother turned a ring around and punched Emma in the face which left little scratches in her face from the ring long story short Emma is talking to social services and her sisters shouldn't be their long. The girls father is 3000 miles away in Western Canada but hopefully will come back and get involved here. Lots happening here and so close to Christmas but no matter what is happening in life for any of us Smoking won't help one ioda so we must under all circumstances protect our quits so we can be vertical to help our families in situations like this and not outside smoking our brains out and possibly horking up a lung or maybe both, so my friends and fellow Exers, let's continue on with our precious journey and keep plowing forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days and be their for our family if and when they need us and by the way Mason is really happy that his half sister Emma is moving in and hopefully everyone will be ok! 

Marilyn 886  DOF 

Yikes , I can't believe that this year is closing in on us but it certainly is so let's end it by continuing our Freedom and by protecting our hard earned quits , life will get easier without the crutch of cigarettes but we all have to go through the rough patches and struggles to before we can begin to reap the benefits of an Ex smoker but it's worth everything that we have to go through to get to that good place in your quit . I believe I was around the 3 and the Half month mark when I realized that after 40 yrs of slavery to the dreaded cancer sticks that I was really Free and that life was so much better , everyone is different maybe it's sooner for some people or a little longer for others but don't throw your hands up in the air and give up,  if you keep moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days one day soon you'll realize for yourself how much better life is without the crutch and the best part of all will be that you will be smiling and still vertical and I say yay for each one of us Exers and if someone is reading this that hasn't quit yet come on over and join the ranks of being an Ex Smoker because I am here to tell you that there's life after cigarettes it definitely takes time and effort to get to a place where you can smile and laugh and realize that life is so very much nicer without sucking on a disgusting cancer stick but once you do , there's no going back because once you get the taste of Freedom going back and playing Russian Roulette with your life won't be appealing but each evening each great to be able to say yay another day WON !

Marilyn 884 884 DOF and counting 

I answered a few comments but I am going to head off to La la land , Mason's Dad picked him up about 7:30 and I fixed him some homemade Chilli I made today and some homemade bread and fixed Mason a snack and got him to brush his teeth and he had his bath earlier in the evening and put on his fuzzy pajamas , my daughter , Mason's mom has tommorrow off so we'll be going to the school Christmas concert which will be alot of fun and smoking isn't an issue for me anymore but I will still keep my guard up just the same , my daughter smokes along with a few other people that's around every so often so vigilance is always a good idea for all of us , no matter how much time we have under our belts being vigilant while enjoying our Freedom is key to our success to be living a life without the crutch !

Marilyn 

Whew , I got my little Mack Attack Mason ready for school and out the door with my husband who takes him to school on his way to work and let me tell you that this old gram at the age of 57 feels 97 trying to get this precious 7 yr old ready in the morning but yay I did it and it feels really good to sit down with all of you my friends and fellow Exers and finally enjoy my coffee because hee , hee , I am pooped . I am so thankful that I don't smoke anymore because I don't know if I could get him out the door on time but yay thankfully I don't have to worry about it , be sure to be EXtra careful and EXtra vigilant and don't allow yourselves or myself for that matter to become complacent and lazy with our quits because we all know that it only takes a split second to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so being EXtra cautious especially during the upcoming holidays is key to our life of Freedom from the clutches of the nicotine poison so N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option is key to never ever relapsing so let's N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because another day WON is super fantastic but another day ONE would totally suck big time ! H.A.L.T - hunger , anger , lonely , tired, we need to look after ourselves so we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON not BOO ANOTHER DAY ONE ! 

Marilyn 883 DOF 

My daughters new job has different hrs and shifts that she works and it's on Sundays that she finds out what she works the following week , so I will have Mason this afternoon and overnight tonight and get him off to school tommorrow .She's supposed to be working 4 on and 3 off but she's been working more on than off , anyway I'm there for her and Mason , her man works alot of hrs too so I am helping with Mason's homework and trying to do what I can to make it easier for them . My daughter told me this morning that her step daughter Emma who's 14 wants to move in with her  whew that could be tricky because Emma's Mother has two younger half sisters to Emma and their mother has a lot of issues so prayers would be great to help get this situation resolved in God's will and his time . We all have health issues , family issues and other problems that we have to deal with, life happens whether we smoke or not and once we realize that than and only then can we start reaping the benefits of living a life of Freedom . I know that it's difficult because I had half a dozen or so failed quits until I found out that I have mild copd and that's probably the best thing that ever happened to me because it scared the crap out of me so I found this site and read everything I could find about quitting smoking and remaining quit set a quit date but wasn't ready when it came around so I reset for a week later . The night before my quit I smoked my brains out , cleaned up all the ashtrays and everything and promised myself that no matter what I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I don't break promises to anyone including myself , I had 18 days in with my quit and I had forgotten about this site and I was having a rough time and wanted a cigarette so bad that I wanted to throw my hands up in the air and head straight to the grocery store to buy a carton of cigarettes instead of just a pk but thankfully I remembered this site and got on line and at that point I hadn't blogged or anything , I was only a lurker but I finally commented on something and thankfully someone mentioned that I should write a blog and tell them a little bit about myself so I did and here I am 882 days later and I am so thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) ) was it easy! HELL NO ! but was it worth it ? HELL YES ! Anything in this life worth having takes time and effort but wow my friends and fellow Exers , Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks is definitely doable and absolutely worth it all to be FREE ! 

I feel semi rested this very cold morning of + 2 ° F brrrrrrr , I am so thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away because I definetly wouldn't want to be standing outside freezing my butt off sucking on a disgusting cigarette and nearly horking up a lung by trying to take a drag in the freezing temps nearly choking to death , whew I bet that sounds quite familiar to many of you . Thankfully we Decided to take back our lives and we bit the bullet and decided to stop playing Russian Roulette with our lives but by chance that there's anyone reading this that hasn't quit yet well come join the ranks of being an Ex Smoker because once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings and come out the other side smiling and reaping the benefits of an Exer which is definitely going to take some time but it's so worth it to be Free , read everything you can about quitting and remaining quit because there's a wealth of information here to strengthen your resolve to stack up those precious smoke free days and at the end of each one you can look in the mirror and say yay another day WON ! 

Marilyn 881 DOF or something like that and counting :)

I need to take my own advice this morning and put on that positive attitude , it's been an EXtremely busy wk and I was really hoping to sleep in until at least 7 this morning but of course I woke up before 6 , I did doze on and off until I got up just before 7, Mark helped me put on a batch of bread and I have to do up something for the Christmas yakie swap this evening . It's pairs and spares pot luck supper through the church , anyway I wish life would slow down just a little but not too much , I guess my internal clock is still used to me getting up at 5:40 all summer and with the time change a few wks ago I'm having a hard time trying to sleep in but I will retrain myself to get that EXtra sleep just like quitting smoking I had to relearn life without the cigarettes and I did and so did so many of you and if you are reading this and haven't quit yet now is the time to take back your life because your life literally depends on it and if you are struggling hang on tight because victory is right around the corner even though you may think that I am nuts  all I can say is if you don't believe me then you must stick with your quit and prove it for yourself because once you realize how much better life is without the crutch then you won't want to go back but only forwards stacking up those precious smoke free days ! One day at a time or one hour , one minute or even one second at a time will give you a beautiful life of Freedom ! 

Marilyn 880 DOF 

I was trying to answer comments from my morning blog but I am tired , Mason has gone home and My hubby Mark is making himself a pizza but I am going to wait until Sunday to enjoy one , it would be 9 o'clock before the pizza is done and that's too late for me to be eating , I am wishing each of you my friends and fellow Exers a good nights sleep tonight and a wonderful day tomorrow , we're going into some frigid temps over the next few days but it is mid December so I better suck it up and get used to it because there's nothing I can do about it and smoking isn't even a blimp on my radar because I really love the Freedom to do whatever I want whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cigarette!

I know that Mark , Mason and myself are so glad that it's Friday , it was quite a challenge getting Mason ready for school this morning and out the door with my husband Mark but yay everything got done including him having breakfast and his teeth getting brushed , whew . I think we're passing this horrid cough back and forth between us ugh ! The house is quiet with Mark off to work and Mason in school :) :) , I have a dentist appointment today 40 minutes away but it's early enough that I will be back for Mason's bus . A couple of you asked how I made out with the Dr , thanks for asking I'm waiting on getting MRI's done and other tests but after 14 months I am finally going to see a neurologist on February 28th which is 2 hrs away but I am finally getting in I'm not worried about that appt but I have to go through the process of whatever which is like quitting smoking we must go through whatever to get to a place where we are feeling better and enjoying life so hang on tight to your quits and know that quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely doable and absolutely worth everything to be Free from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks!

Marilyn 878 DOF or something like that :)

Mason is in the tub and getting ready for bed soon , so I thought I'd get on line and wish everyone a relaxing evening and a decent nights sleep . I am very tired but thankfully smoking isn't an issue anymore and if any of you are struggling hang on tight and continue stacking up those precious smoke free days and before too long life should be getting easier without the crutch and you will realize how much better life is as an Exer ! 

I really don't have much time this morning , I'm taking my mother in law to the Dr , we both have the same one and she has to go once a month she's going to be 90 next month , he wants me to go in every month too but I wouldn't bother but I go for her to drive if need be but she doesn't know that . Anyway with Christmas right around the corner whether your quit is 6 months or a yr or even 5 or 10 yrs since quitting smoking , please don't take your quit for granted because we all know that it only takes a split second to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so let's always remain on guard and protect our precious quits with our lives because our lives literally depends on remaining smoke free so let's go about our day enjoying the Freedom to do whatever we want and to go anywhere , anytime whenever , wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cancer stick , chin up and hang on tight to the best decision that anyone of us will make which is quitting smoking !

Marilyn 879 DOF 

Mason's Dad  finally picked him up shortly after 7 last night , I had Mason all bathed up and ready for bed all his father had to do was give him a snack if he wanted one and get his teeth brushed . My daughter is hoping that this Tuesday to Thursday shift from 1 to 11 pm will only be every three wks and I hope it is too , I have an appointment today at 1:15 a half hour away and I'm praying that I don't have to wait too long because I need to be here for 2:50 when Mason gets off the bus , I did ask my sister in law if she could be here just in case but I want to be here myself . Every Thursday I will keep Mason overnight and my husband will take him to school on his way to work . I remember breaking up with my first husband when my son was 6 and my daughter 9 and working and juggling my time with the kids and my mother nor my ex mother in law never helped me one little bit so I try to do the opposite . I made so many mistakes as a mother , especially after meeting Mark the man that I am married to now , we have been together 27 yrs and married for 20 but that's when my drinking started but thankfully I have been sober for nearly 6 yrs and I am so happy that I kicked that addiction to the curb because it was killing me , ulcers and a Alcohol induced heart attack my cardiologist figured because my heart seems to have healed itself so 27 months ago I decided to kick cigarettes to the curb , was it easy? HELL NO!  but was it worth it ? HELL YES! Addictions are real and they definitely have a strong hold and grip on our lives but we don't have to reach rock bottom or wait for a death sentence or a horrible health issue before quitting, bite the bullet my friends and stop playing Russian Roulette, if we want something bad enough then reach out and grab it and hold on tight because it's yours for the taking!  I want all of us to have a wonderful smoke Free Christmas and go into the new year Smoke Free ! doesn't that sound awesome ? 

Marilyn 877 DOF 

My 7 yr old grandson Mason will be getting off the bus and staying here until around 7 o'clock tonight and tomorrow so I will feed him supper and get him all bathed up for his father to pick him up . My daughter is working 1 till 11 pm, 4 days on  and 3 off so I will keep him overnight Thursday and get him off to school Friday , actually hubby will take him to school on Fridays and hopefully Mason's Dad will get him Friday evening before 8 o'clock but I really don't think he's in a big hurry to get him , this Sunday we have Adam our 12 yr old grandson for the day whew that tired me out writing this down , hee , hee but I am so thankful to be able to help out even though it really does tire me out but I have to admit that I do sleep a little better but the best part is that since I quit smoking I actually have more quality time with the grandchildren because I'm not stuck outside freezing my butt off sucking on a cancer stick while the children are waiting for me to come in to do something for them or with them.Get yourself into the right mindset and believe that life happens whether you smoke or not and believe that life is going to get easier because it's going to but of course it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch because once you think about how many decades that you smoked then it makes sense , anything and everything we did involved smoking . I know for me in the first few weeks and even the first couple of months or so I would involuntarily reach out for a cigarette that wasn't there and I would have to give my head a shake and remind myself that oh yeah I don't smoke anymore but boy oh boy believe me when I say there's life after cigarettes , I smoked for 40 yrs and I am Free and let me say Freedom is EXhilarating ! Stick with your quit and prove it for yourself because you won't ever want to go back to day ONE, only days WON !:)

Marilyn 876 DOF 

I am sooooooo very thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away because I can't imagine standing outside freezing my butt off trying to smoke with my teeth chattering and shaking from the cold trying to drink my coffee , wow I can't believe I ever did that and these temps are extremely mild to what's coming but yay for quitting smoking.You may have a 101 reasons why you think you can't quit smoking , I know that I did but the bottom line is that you can quit if you really are willing , determined and totally committed to succeed , there's a wealth of information here to help you strengthen your resolve to quit smoking and remain quit , I quit when I found out that I have mild copd because it scared the crap out of me , I didn't want to end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related and leave my family especially the grandkids to wonder why I didn't quit smoking before it was too late . life is way too short to knowingly continue to slowly kill yourself stop playing Russian Roulette with your life and bite the bullet because you are sooooooo worth taking back your life and once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings to get to that good place in your quit which is definitely going to take some time to relearn life without the crutch of cigarettes but once you do you can start reaping the benefits of an Ex smoker because there's definitely life after cigarettes and Freedom is awesome ! If you live by N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - you can and will enjoy a smoke free life and each day you get through is another day WON ! 

Marilyn 875 DOF :)

I am in total amazement at how fast this year has been going by but here we are again fortunate enough to be blessed with another day to do as we please and hopefully today will be another day WON come this evening or maybe it will be your first day WON in your new quit or maybe you are reading this and getting ready to set your quit date but I know from my own quit journey after 40 yrs of smoking that life happens whether we smoke or not and that quitting is difficult but absolutely doable and vital to our health and quality of living so quit if you haven't already and if you have then keep plowing forward because as long as you remain willing , determined and totally committed and you go by N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - then you can and will be successful and live a life Free from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks ! 

Marilyn 874 DOF 

I woke up and looked at the clock at 6 o'clock and thought no way not yet so I rolled over and eventually fell back asleep until almost 8 . I realize how lucky I am in a way that I'm not working so I can sleep in but in another way if my body parts didn't start falling apart in my mid 40's then I could still be working and still bringing in a pay check to help my husband pay off the bills but unfortunately other than helping him keep the house in order and watching the grandchildren , I really can't do all that much but I can bake , clean , put on a smile , shovel snow carefully and do things that need done the best that I can . I am feeling a little blue today but I will not smoke over my mood because I worked way to hard to get to get to this place that when I do think of a cigarette even when I am really stressed out , I think wow I am so thankful that I don't smoke anymore . Feelings and emotions happen whether we smoke or not so get that right mindset in your quit and realize that no matter what is going on in your life that smoking isn't going to help but it will actually make things so much worse and then you will end up right back to Day One and that would really suck big , quitting smoking is  absolutely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely doable and absolutely worth and it's vital for our health and quality of life . Anything worth having in life takes time and effort and I think our quits are the most important thing in our lives so let's protect it with everything in us because believe it or not , there's definitely life after cigarettes so if you are struggling hang on tight and continue plowing forward! 

Marilyn 873 DOF and counting 

I got our little Mack Attack Mason off to school with a full belly , teeth brushed , snowpants , book bag,  lunch bucket , so and so, Mark took him to school on his way to work otherwise I would want to wait for the bus with him because we're so far off the road that I wouldn't be able to see him and where he's only in grade 2 this old gram would be nervous , anyway all is good , he's getting off the bus this afternoon then his Dad will pick him up after supper sometime, then I will kick back and relax for a couple of hours . I hope everyone will enjoy this day and will enjoy this upcoming weekend , I know that I must sound like a broken record but with the holidays coming upon us and all of the hustle and bustle trying to get ready for Christmas , it's very important not to put your quit on the back burner be sure to keep it front and center because it needs to be your # 1 priority , There's no better gift this Christmas than to protect and nurture the most important thing for you , your health and family plus having EXtra money in your wallet is definitely a huge bonus so keep moving forward and stacking up your precious smoke free days ! ☆

Marilyn 871 DOF 

I am tired , it's  been a very long day but a good one , my daughter made it to work safely after dropping Mason off here at noon . We built a small snowman with rocks for eyes and a twig for the mouth and part of a frozen carrot from my freezer for the nose , Mason was more interested in climbing on the snow banks and sliding down than helping with the snowman but as long as he was enjoying himself that's all that mattered and I needed to get some shoveling done too , the snow was very ***** and heavy but I wanted to clean it up before it froze and the best part of the day was smoking wasn't even a blimp on my radar anymore so continue to stick with your quits because life just keeps getting better and better without the crutch of smoking , there really is life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic but youmust get through the rough patches and come out the other side but it does take time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch but once you do you will be smiling and then you can start to reap the benefits of an Exer ! 

We woke up to a winter wonderland yesterday morning with 10 1/2 inches of snow down and a snow day for the kids well we're waking up to another snow day with 12 to 14 inches predicted by the end of the day but we're used to this even though I detest winter . Hubby headed off to work , my daughter switched jobs last week so she'll be dropping Mason off around noon to stay the night and I'll get him off to school tommorrow, there should be school surely! as long as we don't lose power I was watching the news on TV and just shut it off because the satellite is screwed up ugh . I used to travel in all of this weather but not anymore so now I worry about hubby but his job is less than 10 minutes away but my daughter and her man works 40 minutes away so I worry and this morning on the highway it's 110 kms an hr normally but the news broadcast is saying that the traffic is going at a snails pace at 50 kms an hr but I won't smoke over it or anything else because it's out of my control so I will pray for traveling safety for everyone and get on with my day and hopefully keep my power . we all have stressers and situations that we could use for an EXcuse to put off quitting smoking if you haven't yet quit you might just as well read everything you can about quitting and remaining quit , there's a wealth of information here to help strengthen your resolve to do so because there's never ever going to be a good time to quit so why not bite the bullet and set up a quit date and take back your life while you are still vertical and if you have quit and are struggling , don't give up and relapse because it'not going to solve anything and it's probably going to make you miserable and dang it all , you'd have to start back to day ONE , instead choose life ,chin up and make the right choice , choose another day WON instead because whether or not we smoke life happens and to me smoking only adds to whatever is happening so choose to remain smoke free ! - N.E.F. - Never Ever Forget -  I remember my early days and wks of quitting and I never want to go back EVER ,nobody needs to see a day ONE again only days WON! 

Marilyn 871 DOF