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For any of you that read my blog the other day about Adam, he's back in school today after a meeting yesterday with several stipulations in place so Lord willing everything will fall into place, he'll  be here on Sunday for the day, we get him every other weekend. If any of you are dealing with stress and are having a difficult time with your quit, please remember that whether or not we smoke things happen whether it's good or bad just like the weather and the changes in the seasons there's not much we can do about it and for me , I'm at a place in my quit that smoking isn't even a blimp on my radar because I know in the bottom of my soul that my health would suffer and I won't play Russian Roulette with my life anymore Adam, Emma and Mason need their old gram in their lives or maybe it's me that needs them. Yesterday morning after taking Mason to schoo it was too early to know about Adam so instead of stressing I got busy just like I did in the early days and wks of quitting smoking so I put on a batch of bread, made a batch of cookies, finished cleaning out my bedroom closet which kept my mind as well as my hands occupied so I wasn't stressing about it and there were times in my quit that I didn't feel like baking or cleaning so I would watch comedy TV or pop in a funny dvd which was suggested by someone on this site because laughter is the best medicine and it certainly takes your mind off of a cancer stick at least it worked for me so do whatever is nessesary to remain quit because as long asyou are willing, determined and totally committed and remain vigilant each and every day then you can keep stacking up those precious days of smoke free living and know that life does get easier and easier as time goes on! 

Marilyn 808 DOF 

I miss Nancy, she always posts my Hump Day camel for me every Wednesday but she's on a wonderful vacation with her daughter in Europe and I know that our thoughts are with her and thanks to Dales blogs, we're all having a glimpse of the beauty of what's she's seeing and just the photos are breathtaking so actually being there must be overwhelming! Anyway my friends and fellow Exers, tommorrow is the last day of September and Saturday is October 1st, wow! !  Let's be EXtra careful not to become complacent and lazy in our quits, With Fall in the air it would be quite easy to think about just ONE but thankfully we know better so being EXtra vigilant is good because it only takes a split second to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so let's keep stacking up those precious smoke free days and at the end of each evening we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

I didn't have to get Mason off to school this morning because my daughter didn't work last night so I slept in until 7 but I slept like crap because I couldn't shut my mind off. My 12 yrold grandson Adam is with his mother and step father, my son and her split when Adam was 2 yrs old, he's been having a hard time in school and he biked here after school yesterday vibrating and very upset, he didn't want to talk about it which was ok. I told him I had to call his mom so of course she came and was upset, yelling at him and so on. I guess he's expelled for the rest of the week, I hope that she will let me know what's going on this afternoon, life happens whether we smoke or not and yesterday afternoon was really hard because my heart went out to Adam but I couldn't help him and his mother said he threatened suicide. I told her to take him serious so he isn't another statistic, all of that was going through my head trying to go to sleep and the only thought about smoking was and is how thankful I am that I finally wised up and quit smoking because it wouldn't of helped one bit but most likely would've made things worse, I need to keep my quit and be here for Adam in case he needs me and not be outside sucking on a stupid cigarette but thankfully I don't have to worry about anymore and thank God for that . We all have our stressers and problems but you can get through them so much better without the crutch and once you realize that I can tell you from experience how the weight comes off your shoulders because you know that you can and are dealing with life on lifes terms and it's a great feeling so keep moving forward in your quit and if you aren't yet then you should be soon  reaping the benefits of an Ex smoker! 

Marilyn 806 DOF 

A very good morning to each of you, it's a dark dreary, drab, dismal drisslie dank day but at least it's not snowing but that's going to happen soon enough, well we're into Fall already, let's all of us Exers embrace our precious ongoing beautiful splendiferous quits and not let ourselves become complacent and lazy but protect it and nurture it because our health and lives are depending on remaining smoke free, like most things in life smoking is a consious choice so when waking up each morning smile and say yay today will be another day WON! 

Marilyn 806 DOF 

I never crawled out of bed until almost 8:30 which was great, I was exhausted last night even though I had a great wk end busy but good. I have a hard time with H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, lonely, tired - -  I didn't eat supper last night which is a bad habit. I had what is called here a smokemare instead of a nightmare either way is spooky, this is only my third in over a 26 month period and was so real, I was trying to get a hold of the person that I gave my cigarette roller too because I always rolled, I didn't see myself smoking but I could smell the smoke and then my husband has been quit for 29 months and I saw him smoking then I woke up in a cold sweat, WHEW. I need to live what I preach because H.A.L.T - is looking after ourselves because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance is key to our success, N.E.F. - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because relapsing isn't an option,  slipping in my opinion is the wrong word for heading to the grocery store to buy a pk of the cancer sticks, if we slip we can get up dust ourselves off and continue to move forward because smoking is a consious choice not a slip and relapsing isn't even a blimp on my radar because I plan on going to my grave an Ex smoker, kick smoking to the curb and live a life of Freedom it's not easy to get to that good place in your quit but anything in life worth having takes time and effort but wow my friends and fellow Exers a life without the crutch is super fantastic because you can go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cigarette, life is grand without a cigarette in hand! 

Marilyn 805 DOF 

It's going to be another busy day but it's going to be a great one, I slept in until almost 7:30, I was stretching and looked over at Mason smiling and saying good morning, I have a single bed in my room for when he spends the night, what a wonderful way to wake up with a smiling face looking at you and being an Exer means no more sitting outside especially on this frosty morning drinking coffee and nearly horking up a lung or maybe even both trying to suck on a killer cancer stick and worst of all, I'd be ignoring my presious 7 yr old grandson all for the dreaded nicotine poison but yay not anymore because I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away and so can you, we all know smoking is a horrid addiction but with determination, being willing and 100 % committed you can and will be successful, it's within your grasp reach out and hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's yours for the taking! 

Marilyn 804 DOF 

I want to say thank you for the sleep well wishes last night, I did actually sleep pretty good and I hope each of you did too. :)

I am weary again this evening but I just might be able to get a decent nights sleep tonight, Masons got his teeth brushed and is in his pj's watchingTV in my room, lights out soon for him and I probably won't be far behind him. Sleep well my friends and fellow Exers..........

Wow I can't believe that one week from today is October 1st, Mason wants Gramp and I to go out with him on Halloween and last week he was singing Jingle Bells and is EXcited for Christmas, he's coming over to spend the night later this morning which is my idea because Gramp hasn't seen much of him and I only see him in the mornings getting him ready for school so he called me at 8 o'clock and said that I could go get him, ha, ha, I was still in bed just waking up, his father was still sleeping and his Mom was just getting home from her work while we were still talking, he told me to go get a coffee and I told him I would wait for his mom  ( my daughter ) to call me then he could come right over. Finding out that I have mild copd was the reason for finding this site and quitting smoking because I want to enjoy life and be here for my family, especially the grandchildren Emma is 14, Adam is 12 and I love them dearly but they want to be on the go constantly or be somewhere with their friends not hanging out with the old fogies but Mason is 7 and still wants to be here and now thankfully he doesn't need to be waiting for me to come in from outside stinking like an ashtray and me taking off every 25 or 30 minutes sucking on a disgusting cancer stick with him opening the door ever couple of minutes wondering if I'm almost done. Wow just writing that down makes me remember doing that to him and the other grandchildren, well no more and now I am enjoying every blessed minute that I can to enjoy life without that crutch. I did it after 40 yrs of smoking and so has so many others here and many of them smoked even longer, some 45, 50 or more and we're reaping the benefits of an Ex smoker and so can any of you that may be reading this that hasn't quit yet now is the time to take back your life while you are still vertical and if you are struggling hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes, it's within your grasp reach out and hold on tight, stick around, blog help before you head out to the grocery store, remember DAY WON not DAY ONE. 

Marilyn 803 Blessed DOF and counting. :)

I got Mason off to school again this morning, came home turned my tablet on and took the cover off my travel mug and realized that I forgot to log out of FB last night and oops I went to take a big drink of my coffee and realized that I also forgot about taking the cover off the travel mug, crap so I had to change my shirt because I got soaked but on a good note the coffee wasn't overly hot so I never got scalded. I miss our friend Nancy but I bet her and her daughter are having a wonderful time. So protect your quits this wk end, be sure to make it your #1 priority, so if anyone of you do not feel secure in your quit, then please be smart and refrain from drinking alcohol because as Nancy would say you don't know the tipping point of your thinking getting out of wack. I don't drink alcohol anymore anyway but I like this little saying  so here goes --------I DO NOT THINK THAT I SHOULD DRINK, FOR IF I DRINK, I DO NOT THINK!!!

I've been reading comments and trying to answer a few but my eyes are too heavy and I am am going to head off to La la land very soon, Iit's been a very busy day and I am getting Mason off to school again in the morning so I really hope that everyone will be smiling this evening because you have another day WON, whether it's just day one won or whatever your number, as long as you keep moving forward and stacking up those splendiferous DOF then at the end of each day you are Free and Freedom is EXhilarating because life is so much better without the crutch, stick with your quit and the longer you remain quit the easier life gets! 

Thanks everyone for the the congrats on my 800 DOF yesterday, now I am on 801, still counting and smiling. I read some of my early blogs last week and I said that I smoked for 38 yrs not 40 but it wasn't until I was here for awhile that I realized that I didn't need to be a full fledged smoker on a daily basis because I actually started smoking at least two yrs earlier. I was 12 when my older sister and I would sneak our mom's tobacco and rolling papers and learned how to roll a smoke and by the time I was 13, we smoked off and on 2 or 3 days a week and by 14 even more by 16 I was married and smoking 25 and 30 a day and some days probably more like 40 but now after over 26 months of Freedom, I can tell anybody thinking of quitting smoking that it's time to get off the fence and bite the bullet and take back your life while you can before it's too late. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable and vital to your health, smoking literally takes our breath away and can and will slowly kill us and by quitting smoking Lord willing in time you can start reaping the benefits of an Ex smoker and I can tell you how much better life is without the crutch and if you have quit and are struggling hang tough, hang on tight because the roller coaster ride will subside but you must get through the ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings first, don't forget how many decades that you smoked so it stands to reason that it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch, so give it time, stick with your quit and this evening you can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON which is a heck of a lot better than saying another day ONE!

Marilyn 801 DOF 

I spent most of the evening with my 89 yr old Mother in law, she drove over to town yesterday afternoon and was going into a store and stubbed her toe and tripped and her face smashed up against the building, she's ok but the poor soul has 5 stitches above one eye and is quite sore. I would guess she's got a black eye, I'm going down after I finish this blog to take her to get a tetna shot and maybe even get her checked out again. Once you get used to dealing with life on lifes terms without the crutch of smoking you realize just how much easier it really is so stick with your quit, give it 3 or even 4 months to relearn different ways of handling situations because I am telling you that it's a hell of alot better than fidgeting at the hospital as an example wanting a stupid cigarette or at a concert or whatever really not enjoying yourself because you want a cancer stick, whew I don't miss those days a all and neither will you once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings and cravings because as I keep saying there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic but you must believe in yourself and keep moving forward because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance will give you a beautiful smoke free life because N.O.P.E - NOT One Puff Ever will give you a wonderful life of freedom, don't throw your hands up in despair, victory is yours for the taking so grab on, hang tough and know that quitting smoking is absolutely doable! and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of your quit because relapsing isn't an option, it's wonderful to get ready for bed at the end of each day because you can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON, not BOO ANOTHER DAY ONE! 

Marilyn 800 DOF and smiling 

My daughter called last night and wasn't going in to work so yay, I didn't have to get up at 5:40 this morning so I slept in until 7:30 which was great, life is good especially since quitting smoking. I know for anyone getting ready to quit or for anyone that's struggling to remain quit that it's hard for you to believe that you can do it but you must believe in yourself and be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and then you will be successful, read everything you can find on this site about quitting and remaining quit, That's what I did, I read blogs, comments, pages anything and everything about quitting and it really helped strengthen my resolve to do it because it helped educate me about this horrid addiction and I realized after 40 yrs of smoking that quitting was going to be difficult to say the least but as long as I remained willing that it was doable definitely not easy by no means but so very worth it, so stick close to this site, chin up, deep breaths and keep moving forward because there's absolutely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic! 

Marilyn 799 DOF and counting 

I am going to enjoy a day of relaxation and do as little as possible, my cold is pretty much over now thank goodness. It was a head cold which traveled into my chest and held on for six days, I remember my smoking days and how I would still go outside and light one of those cancer sticks up coughing, choking and nearly horking up a lung or maybe even both but that's the horrid addiction. I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away after 40 yrs of slavery to the dreaded nicotine poison once I found out that I have mild copd and realized that I'm not invincible that if I didn't brighten up I was probably going to end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a horrible death that's most likely smoking related, quitting smoking is absolutely difficult to say the least but it's also very doable but you must believe in yourself, be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful, I tried quitting many, many times but I know now that those attempts were only half hearted and only lasted a few months at best but once I got serious and found this site and read everything I could find I  found a wealth of information that helped strengthen my resolve to quit and remain quit and decided to stop playing Russian Roulette with my life, there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's within your grasp so hang on tight and continue to choose Freedom! 

Marilyn 798 DOF 

I'm really busy today making bread and green tomato chow pickles, my husband picked up our oldest grandson Adam for the day and was kind enough to cook him bacon and eggs for breakfast, hubbys going to church . Being busy is a good thing but especially in the early days and wks of our quits, keeping our minds as well as our hands occupied helps to keep our minds off of the yakies ( cigarettes ) plus we get lots of things accomplished which is great too, stick with your precious ongoing beautiful splendiferous quit because life without the crutch of smoking is definitely worth it to be FREE! 

Marilyn 797 DOF 

I know that quitting smoking can and definitely is difficult to say the least, especially in the first few days and weeks because I remember only too well how hard it was for me, they're were days in and around the 30 day period that sticks out where I wanted to rip my hair out and a little later in the same day  if someone said something that stressed me, I wanted to tear their face off and an hour later I would start blatting like a baby . Many times I wanted to throw my hands up in the air and head straight to the grocery store to buy a pk of those cancer sticks but whew luckily I also remembered the promise I made myself the night before I quit smoking that no matter what I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I don't break promises to anyone including myself so I held on tight and blogged as many times as nessesary to get help from this wonderful community of people, sometimes I got tough love but I always felt better after coming here. I drank a lot of water, kept a bag of sugar free mints around in case of a really bad crave plus I tried to keep my mind as well as my hands occupied, I kept an extra clean house and did a lot of extra baking and tried to hang around my non smoking family which was hard at times because Mason's mom and dad both smoke and my daughter Mandy is Mason's mother but I was willing determined and totally committed to succeed so my mild copd wouldn't get worse by continuing to smoke knowing that I would most likely end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related, I kept all of that in my mind while I kept moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days knowing that I would eventually get to that good place in my quit and I did and you can too, if you are struggling hang on tight because victory is around the corner, there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic but hey if you don't believe me, please prove it for yourself give it 3 months or even 4 which is even better and once you realize how much better life is without the crutch, you should never want to go back but only forwards .

Marilyn 796 DOF 

I shared this on the love yourself forom a few months ago but alot of you may not have seen it and I thought I'd put it in my blog this morning. We're all getting older but we can take better care of ourselves by eating right, exercise some, watching our alcohol intake which is something that I don't have to worry about because I quit drinking and it's best not to drink anyway so you can protect your quit and keep it your number one priority, quitting smoking can hopefully give us a much better quality of life, so now I will write this out for you to read, I hope you like it. 

                                             Not getting old 

You tell me that I'm getting old; I tell you that's not so. The " house " I live in is worn out, and that of course, I know it's been in use a long, long while; it's weathered many a gale, I'm really not surprised you think it is getting somewhat frail. The color's changing on the roof; the windows getting dim,the walls a bit transparent and looking rather thin. The foundation's not so steady as it used to be, my "house " is getting shaky, but my house isn't me, my few short years can't make me old; I feel I'm in my youth. Eternity lies just ahead, a life of joy and truth. I'm going to live forever there; love will go on -- it's grand. You tell me that I'm getting old? You just don't understand. The dweller in my little " house " is young and bright and gay, just starting on a life to last throughout eternal day. You only see the outside, which is all that most folks see, you tell me that I'm getting old? You've mixed my " house " with me. 

I love this and quitting smoking and remaining quit should be our top priority so we can smile at the end of each day because we have another day WON and we can reap the benefits as we age hopefully gracefully and healthier, one day at a time or if need be one second at a time but quitting smoking is doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals and mood swings to get to that good place in your quit. 

Marilyn 795 DOF 

I read my first several blogs that I wrote back in August of 2014, it's been a long time since I've done that. I think that it was good for me to remind myself I never ever, ever want to go back because I enjoy the benefits of being an Ex smoker so I will continue the journey forward for the rest of my life so let's always remain vigilant and not become complacent and lazy because relapsing isn't an option but stacking up those precious smoke free days and reaping the benefits is critical to our health and well being. We must remember that life happens whether we smoke or not ,it definitely takes time to deal with life without the crutch but once you do learn how that's when you realize how much better life is without the clutches of the nicotine poison! 

Marilyn 794 DOF, I think!

I got Mason off to school this morning even though I would've preferred to stay in bed longer, oh well I'm up wishing each of you my friends and fellow Exers a wonderful day and if by chance any of you are struggling to hang on to your quit, stick with it, deep breaths and do whatever you need to do because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option so chin up and hang tough, continuing to move forward is key to success, we all know how difficult it is in the first few weeks and sometimes even the first few months but once you realize how many decades that you smoked then you begin to understand why this addiction is sooooooo powerful but quitting is definitely doable difficult yes but doable and absolutely worth it to be FREE from the CLUTCHES of the dreaded CANCER STICKS. Your life, my life, everyone's lives deserves to enjoy the FREEDOM of a smoke free life and this evening you can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

Marilyn 793 DOF 

I talked to my daughter last night to see if she still wanted me to get Mason off to school this morning where I'm sick with this head and chest cold, she said they were sick too but her man could go in late for work and get him to school. I slept like crap and didn't get up until 7:30 and my plan is to do as little as possible. I came across this saying which I thought I'd share with you, I think that it fits into our quits quite well. (Ability is what you're capable of doing, motivation determines what you do, attitude determines how well you do it.) - stick with your quit because relapsing would suck big time and jeopardize your health and well being, I know how difficult it is in the first few weeks and months of quitting but for me my quit was and still is my #1 priority, I wake up thankful every day and go to bed each night thankful for another day WON. N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever works when we apply it on a daily basis because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance will give you a beautiful life of Freedom.

Marilyn 792 DOF or something like that. :)

I came down with a head cold from somewhere probably from my little Mack Attack Mason because on Friday he wasn't feeling a hundred percent with cold symptoms but at least I'm not  making myself feel even worse by smoking, if anyone is struggling with your quit be sure to plow through the roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings, stick with it because there's no EXcuse good enough to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit, life is way too short to knowingly continue to slowly kill ourselves so hang tough because it's going to get easier but unfortunately you must go through the rough patches and struggles first to eventually get to that good place in your quit but it's absolutely worth it when you finally  realize how much better life is without the crutch! 

Marilyn 791 DOF 

((((((((((Happy Birthday hugs dear sweet Sharon)))))))))) -wishing you the best day possible. xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox ♡ xoxox 

It's a dark, dank, dreary, drab, dismal drisslie day but it's still a bright sunshiny day in my heart because we really need the rain so I look at it as a good thing. I am one of those weird people who try to see the good in everything and most of the time if I look long enough and hard enough I can usually find it, life is full of ups and downs and struggles whether we smoke or not so if you haven't relearned how to deal lifes stressers and emotions without the crutch, please give it time because after decades of smoking it only stands to reason that we have to learn how to handle life on lifes terms so give it the time needed because there's definitely life after the yakies ( cigarettes ) and it's great but you must believe in yourself and keep moving forward and stacking up those precious days of freedom! 

Marilyn 790 DOF 

I was really tired today so I lazed around some and even had a nap this afternoon which I hardly ever do and we had a potluck supper with couples club and or pares and spares which it's called through our church which meets up monthly and tonight was at my mother in laws. Anyway I went back and read a bunch of my first blogs just now which I haven't done in quite some time, my first blog struck me trying to explain my circumstances but going back and reading the early days of our quits is smart because it shows how much we really don't want another day ONE but only days WON and besides I love my FREEDOM and to be able to go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cancer stick is awesome and life is so much better without the crutch, I am off to La la land  so I will see you sometime in the morning my friends and fellow Exers. 

Marilyn 

I can't really think of too much to say this morning other than, if you are in a rough patch in your quit take as many deep breaths as you need to but keep moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days, withdrawals and mood swings won't kill us but relapsing just might so hang tough reach out and blog about it, read everything you can to strengthen your resolve to quit but don't give up because quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the rollercoaster ups and downs to be FREE from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks. There's way too many people suffering from smoking related illnesses, friends on this site and people right here where I live smoking is a vicious cycle but we have a choice whether we smoke or not so choose NOT! 

Marilyn 789 DOF 

The older I get the more I realize that all I want is to embrace this life and the people I love and enjoy what hopefully will be many years of healthier living since quitting smoking over two yrs ago. At least I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away, I never thought in a million years that I could quit smoking but if only I realized decades sooner maybe I would've of quit instead of waiting 40 yrs but you know, I probably wouldn't of because I used to think that everyone else got sick with smoking related illnesses and died from emphysema and cancer but not me. What a crazy powerful addiction smoking is, it certainly warped my thinking, I must have thought that I was invincible, I am thankful for finding out I have mild copd because it was the push I needed to quit smoking because I realized that I was playing Russian Roulette with my life and I could end up on oxygen 7 / 24 if I didn't brighten up and take back my life from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks, thanks to this community of wonderful people that helped me through some major rough patches many times in the first few weeks and months of my quit, it certainly wasn't easy by no means but I chose life instead of continuing to slowly kill myself. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable and absolutely worth it to be FREE! Believe in yourself have faith that you will be successful because there's life after cigarettes and it's great! 

Marilyn 787 precious DOF and counting 

I am getting Mason up and out the door for school each day except for Mondays, I could've thumped Mason's Dad because he had a dentist appt this morning and didn't have to leave his place until after 7, I could have slept for an extra half hr, he said he didn't think of it to let me know, these young people just don't think sometimes but that's ok, Mason is really happy and that's what matters. I can get moving in the mornings even though I'm not a morning person at all but since quitting smoking I can function on less than half a cup of coffee and I can drive, when I smoked it took at least three cups and maybe four along with five cigarettes and most likely it was six to get moving, I still have brain fog, hee, hee but it's not from smoking because I don't do that anymore and I am one very happy person and you can be too, so never give up on your quit because there's absolutely life after cigarettes but you must believe in yourself and keep moving forward and stacking up those precious days of freedom from the horrid cancer sticks, hang on tight because victory is right around the corner and if you don't believe me, then Keep your quit and prove it for yourself, it may take three months oh what the heck give it four months because you should be realizing by then how much better life is without the crutch, you should never want to go backwards but only forwards as an Exer! 

Marilyn 776 DOF + 10 = 786 DOF, I'll have to quit counting days unless I double check myself before posting! 

Masons first day of school went well, he's in grade 2 now, wow Adam is in grade 7 and Emma grade 8, they're all growing up and yikes I am getting older but yay at least I don't smoke anymore and that's super fantastic and maybe I might even live a few extra yrs with a much better quality of living because I took back my life from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks after 40 yrs of slavery now I am free and that's an awesome feeling. Oh by the way I won't have time to get on line in the morning with getting Mason off to school and then I have an appointment at 9 o'clock which will be a long wait I'm sure, then I plan on visiting my son on my way home, then hopefully I can check in with you my friends and fellow Exers before hubby comes home for lunch. Remember being smoke free is the only life for you and for me because once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings and get to that good place in your quit it's super fantastic so hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes! 

Marilyn 675 splendiferous DOF and counting 

It's the first day of school today and with this being a long wk end my daughter didn't have to work last night so she was able to get Mason off this morning, yay for them and yay for me because I didn't have to get up at 5 : 40 this morning. There's been alot of talk about choicesand when it comes to smoking I hope that we choose life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - not when we decide to live by N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever will give us a beautiful life of freedom from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks! - It took me 40 yrs and a health scare finding out that I have mild copd before I finally wised up and realized that I wasn't invincible that if I continued to play Russian Roulette with my life that I probably would end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related so I bit the bullet and went through some horrendous cravings and roller coaster ups and downs but none of that killed me but continuing to smoke most likely would shorten my life and most importantly my quality of life, quitting smoking is absolutely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely worth it to be FREE! 

Marilyn 785 DOF 

I am late getting on this morning, I slept in until almost 8 o'clock, yay but boo because my bread got on late but oh well that's ok. My husband Mark is home where it's a long wk end, he just went to visit his mom so I thought I'd pop on here and wish you a great day so as always let's remember to protect our precious quits while enjoying our freedom, I read alot here about each of us having a choice whether we smoke or not and I choose NOT, so if you haven't quit yet now is the time to take back your life while you are still vertical and if you have quit and you are struggling hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes but it is a one day at a time effort to get through the roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings and withdrawals but everything we have to go through is sooooooo very worth it to be free from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks. Stick with it because it's definitely going to take some time but it's going to get easier as time goes on plus your health, family and even your wallet will thank you for sticking with your quit . Relapsing is a choice so please choose to stick with your quit and this evening you will have another day WON! 

Marilyn 784 DOF 

It was a beautiful wedding yesterday afternoon and a wonderful reception with lots of food and my back felt much better as well, the weather was perfect and today is going to be too, low 70's which is what I love and being an Exer makes it even better so my wish for anyone that's in a rough patch in your quit is too continue to move forward stacking up those precious days of freedom please know that it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling lifes stressers without the crutch , so hang on tight you will get through the roller coaster ups and downs and come out the other side smiling but you must believe in yourself and remaining willing, determined and totally committed and you can get ready for bed each evening knowing that another day has been WON because another day ONE would really suck big time. The early days and wks are rough but then life begins to get easier and easier as time goes on. :) 

Marilyn 783 DOF 

I couldn't sleep in past seven this morning, my stupid back has been acting up lately, probably because of the dampness in the air or the three bulging disc's in my lumbar but that's ok because I am sitting here with all of you enjoying a coffee, plus being an Ex Smoker means I don't sit outside in the morning trying to suck on a killer cancer stick trying not to cough and choke or hork up a lung or maybe both while my back is paining and I can barely move but in my crazy addiction I thought I needed my morning cigarettes but no more because I found out that quitting smoking is absolutely doable because my life is worth protecting and being willing to go through whatever cravings and roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings in the first few wks of quitting  wouldn't kill me but continuing to smoke most likely would and dying a slow painful death and after finding out about having copd, I realized that I wasn't invincible so I am a thankful for this site and all of you my friends and fellow Exers. Playing Russian Roulette with our lives is scarey, I am so sad that we are losing some of our Exers to relapsing, especially when their days should have started to get easier but unfortunately they gave up for whatever reason but hopefully they'll be back soon while they can, let's keep moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days. N.O.P.E- means Not One Puff Ever - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, there's life after cigarettes so stick with your quit and prove it for yourself! 

Marilyn 782 DOF or something like that. :)

Mason was up when I got to his house this morning, he has a new kitten and it woke him up meowing so we got back here earlier than usual. Wishing each of you a super great day, remembering to take deep breaths and to continue to move forward in your quits will give you a precious life of freedom, having rough days that you feel like you just got to have a cigarette is the days that you scream out loud if you have to and say that you don't do that anymore and give your head a shake because having a rough day won't kill you but continuing to smoke when you know that smoking most likely will kill you is scarey to say the least so keep stacking up those precious smoke free days and know that life is going to get easier and easier as time goes on but unfortunately with decades and decades of smoking it only stands to reason that it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch but you can do it be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful because there's definitely life after cigarettes and I for one absolutely love getting ready for bed at the end of each day smiling because yay for another day WON is super fantastic after 40 yrs of smoking I am free but I also will always remain vigilant while enjoying life, life is grand without a cigarette in hand. :)

Marilyn 780 DOF 

I was trying to answer comments, I did get a few but I am really tired and my eyes are very heavy so I will opologize and thank everyone for the wonderful comments because I really appreciate all of you. Being smoke free is absolutely doable for the rest of our lives and it's definitely worth everything that we have to go through to get to that place in your quit that you realize how much better life is without the crutch. I love that I can go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cancer stick, my grandchildren don't have to ask me when I'm coming back inside to do something with them and I tell them in a few minutes and probably 20 minutes later I would come back in so if you are struggling please hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes but you must keep moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days so bite the bullet and do not play Russian Roulette with your life because smoking kills and quitting can save you a world of pain and suffering! Choose life! 

Marilyn 

Good bye to August and a big hello to September, I find positive thinking really works even when things aren't going well or going the way I think they should but I think of how fortunate I am because there's so many people so much worse off and that have alot less so I keep plowing forward and enjoying life. That's how I approached my quit with a positive attitude and alot of reading here on this site because when I found out that I have copd, I realized that I needed to quit smoking and remain quit no matter what because I didn't want to end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a horrible death that's most likely smoking related,I decided on a quit date July 7 / 14 and then I realized that I needed a little more time to prepare myself so I reset my day for July 14 /14 and I promised myself that no matter what I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I haven't and as long as I remain willing, determined and totally committed to my quit and remain vigilant then I will enjoy the rest of my life a very content and thankful Exer because this community and all of you helped me get to where I am today 780 spectacular DOF and counting!  Quitting smoking is a choice and once you decide to stop the vicious cycle of continuing to relapse when life gets too difficult so why not make the choice to quit and remain quit no matter what is happening in your life, it's definitely going to be horrid the first few days and weeks but it's doable, I had a hell of a Time in the first month of my quit and wanted to scream and head straight to the grocery store and buy a carton instead of a pk but I didn't because I promised myself that I wouldn't and I don't break promises to anyone including myself and besides all of the crap that happens is going to happen whether we smoke or not so I choose not and so can you, it's time to bite the bullet and take back your life from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks, there's life after cigarettes and it's in your power to be smoke free, it's your choice. N.O.P.E- Not One Puff Ever works when we apply it on a daily basis because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option -Vigilance will give us a beautiful life of freedom N.E.F. Let's never forget the early days and wks of our quits because we want another day WON - not another day ONE .I have a hard time with H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, lonely, tired but if we pay attention then we can make our days a little easier on us and our precious ongoing beautiful splendiferous quits. :)

Marilyn