I got Mason all settled in for the night and crawled in myself around 9:30, we always chit chat for a bit then he said that he was starving to death even though he had a big snack about 8 o'clock, this was probably a stalling tactic. I tried to talk him into just going to sleep but he said Gram, you wouldn't let me starve to death would you??? - - and he promised to brush his teeth again so up we got he is still sleeping, I told my husband Mark this morning and we both laughed about it because Mason has me wrapped right around his little finger. I am really tired but I also am very happy that I can watch him for my daughter too and the best part of it is that I don't smoke anymore that I don't have be stuck outside in the rain or sun, snow storms or the wind to suck on a killer cancer stick. I remember when I still smoked and Mason or Adam would come out while I had one of the yakies ( cigarettes ) in my hand or mouth asking me when I could come back in to do something for them, of course I would say in a few minutes and I know those few minutes were more likely 15 or twenty minutes allI can say is yay for the freedom to do whatever I want whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a disgusting cigarette. I said goodbye to 40 yrs of smoking 766 stupendous days ago and it's the best decision that I have ever made in my life, it was also the hardest thing that I ever did especially in the first few days and weeks of quitting but quitting smoking is absolutely doable and as long as we remain vigilant while enjoying our smoke free lives then I say yay because this evening will be another day WON.
