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I woke up at 6 and couldn't get back to sleep so I got up, Mason is up watching Max & Ruby and I am on here with all of you my friends and fellow Exers, let's remember to have the best day possible while being on guard for any unexpected stressers because I definetly don't want another one for any of us only days WON. Keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom and if you are preparing to start your Quit you are in the right place, stay close and read everything you can about quitting smoking and remaining quit, be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful, one day at a time or if need be one second at a time, quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals and cravings to get to that good place in your quit it's definitely going to take some time but it's so worth it because anything in life worth having takes time and effort but once you get it  wow it's a great feeling! 

Marilyn 779 DOF 

My daughter called before she left for work last night and said they'd bring Mason over this morning around 8:30 because her man had a Dr's appointment before he goes to work so my little Mack Attack should be here soon, if he wants to he can just stay the night and we both can get up whenever. I wish each of you my friends and fellow Exers a wonderful relaxing smoke free day, remember to protect your quits with your lives because our lives depends on remaining smoke free. 

Marilyn 778 DOF 

I really hope that everyone will have a great day today and if you happen to be struggling know that it's not going to last forever but you must go through whatever you have to because quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely doable and absolutely worth it once you get to that good place, so don't give up, hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes and we've all been in the trenches of withdrawals, cravings and mood swings, I pray that I will N.E.F. - I Never Ever Forget those first few weeks of my quit because I never ever want to go back to day one, believe in yourself and know that you can and will succeed, just keep plowing forward because believe it or not Victory is right around the corner but you must not give up, give yourself 3 months or even 4 months which sounds like a long time but it's really not considering most of us smoked for decades upon decades so it really only stands to reason that it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch of smoking but yay it is great once you  realize how much better life is, especially each evening when getting ready for bed because yay it's another day WON, stick with your quit! 

Marilyn 777 DOF 

We had a break in the humidity yesterday which was great for baking bread because I would've had to do it anyway plus I got a little mowing done too but that's pretty much it . I want to continue to push vigilance again today, it is just as much for me as anyone else because a situation can bring up a smoking memory where you think Aaah just one won't hurt but if you are on guard then you can just give your head a shake and say No Way I don't smoke anymore and continue on with whatever you were doing, all of us Exers have worked way too hard to be smoke free so let's always remain vigilant while enjoying our freedom! 

Marilyn 776 DOF and counting 

N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because who wants another day one when we can smile at another day WON! 

I believe in positive thinking, I wake up thankful for another day to be alive and be able to get around even if some mornings are harder than others ,there's so many people so much worse off . I am blessed to have a roof over my head, food in the cupboards, fridge and freezer lots of wood on the property to cut a few cord for the winter, my husband has a job maybe it doesn't pay the best but at least he has a job so I think life is good, especially since I wised up and took back my life from the clutches of the nicotine poison, life is way, way too short to knowingly screw up a perfectly beautiful quit to suck on a killer cigarette, so please remember to protect your quits always remain vigilant while going about your day. I rarely ever think about smoking and when I do it's like yay whew luckily I wised up and don't do that anymore, quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth it to be FREE, my life, your life all of our lives depends on quitting smoking and remaining quit because cancer, copd or another smoking related illness doesn't pick and choose who's body it attacks, I finally realized that I wasn't invincible and if I want any quality of living then I better stop playing Russian Roulette with my life which with the help of everyone in this community here I am with 775 splendiferous smoke free days and continuing on because my friends and fellow Exers there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic, if you are struggling look for the light at the end of the tunnel, even if it's just a dim Flicker keep heading for it because you can and will get through to the other side smiling because each day you get through is another day WON! 

Marilyn 

I just realized that I have been shorting myself 100 +days in my quit, whew I thought I'd share that I have 774 splendiferous DOF and heading straight for the 800 mark, wow I said this morning 670 something days so I just checked and yay it's better than I thought. Keep your quit my friends because Freedom from the clutches of the nicotine poison is definitely doable and absolutely worth it to be free!

It's really hard to believe that one wk from today is September 2nd, especially since it's going to be hotter than the hubs of HE Double Hockey Sticks again today but that's ok because Mason and I will spend the afternoon at the pool again today. I decided to keep him last night we were both really tired and Mason was overtired and quite wired, I slept in until almost 7: 30 which is great and my little Mack Attack is still sleeping so I am enjoying a little ME time with a coffee and the morning news and trying to think of something that might help someone reading this that may be struggling with their quit, all I can think of is believe in yourself, have faith that you can and will succeed and you will be successful but you can't throw your hands up in the air and head straight to the grocery store to buy a pk of the cancer sticks because then you will definitely fail and have to start at day one again someday soon so I suggest you keep moving forward and stacking up those splendiferous DOF, quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable, I smoked for 40 yrs and many other people here smoked for 45 and 50 some yrs and have several years under their belt. Playing Russian Roulette with our lives is dangerous so why not deal with the withdrawals and mood swings for a few wks and then relearn life without the crutch of cigarettes because you can do it but you must believe in yourself and you must want it and it's so worth it to be Free from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison. 

Marilyn 670 something 673 or possibly 4 or something like that. :):) :) 

I feel horrible about Betty losing her battle to cancer, RIP our friend. I am thankful that I got to know her some over the last couple of yrs, she was a kind loving lady and we'll all miss her, I know that some of you have known her for yrs and some of you had the privilege of meeting her in person I pray for her family during this time. We all need to protect our precious quits and never ever take it for granted and become complacent and lazy because relapsing isn't an option no more day one only days WON!!!!

I have been really busy watching Mason and I am very tired lately which is ok but unfortunately I haven't been answering everyone's comments or been able to read more blogs which I have always tried to comment on and it's been really hard to get to the love yourself forom and the freedom train which I haven't missed yet but if I do, I will apologize in advance, school is back in September 7th. I will be getting him off to school but then I will have my days back to hopefully get back in the  groove again but hey my friends and fellow Exers, once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings and get to a good place in your quit, no matter how tired or stressed out you get as long as we remain vigilant and apply N.O.P.E to our lives on a daily basis because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, I am so very thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away because I know that there's life after the yakies and it's great no matter what! 

It's amazing how sometimes when I wake up that I feel like I have been on a three day bender and am totally hungover but I haven't had a drink in over five and a half yrs but thankfully I don't drink anymore and I most definitely don't smoke anymore with over two years under my belt. Life is way too short to knowingly continue to slowly kill ourselves either with alcohol or smoking so I decided to stop playing Russian Roulette with both and I am so thankful that I did and if you are struggling hang on tight and continue to choose Freedom because it's right there within your grasp, don't let go hang on tight because victory is right around the corner even though you may think that I am nuts and maybe I am but I went through some hair pulling times in the beginning of my quit but I made it through and so will you but you must go through whatever cravings and urges and whatever else to get to a good place in your quit because relapsing would jeopardize your health and well being so stay the course, N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever will give you a beautiful smoke free life but you must go through the hard times first because anything worth having takes time and effort but wow my friends and fellow Exers it's certainly worth it! 

Marilyn 672 or something like that DOF! 

I hope everyone is saying this evening YAY another day WON, I am keeping Mason overnight so I should get him to brush his teeth and I believe I am headed off to La la land , sleep well my friends and fellow Exers. 

Marilyn 

Mason woke right up for me this morning and we were back here by quarter to 7, two wks from today is the first day of school so I will be driving over to his place to get him ready and probably drive him to school each day but once it is too dark in the morning I won't be able to because I haven't driven at night for 2 or 3 yrs now, my eyes water to the point of running down my cheeks and down my throat and that's without another vehicle coming towards me, then I'm totally blind so as much as I would love to continue to help my daughter unless her man brings Mason to me I just won't be able to. But smoking isn't an issue anymore even though every once in awhile I'll have a memory of smoking a cigarette that makes me think hummmmm and then reality sets in and I remember how much I wanted to quit because especially in the mornings trying to suck on a cigarette that I coughed and choked and thought that I was going to hork up a lung or maybe both, no way no how will I let my guard down because I am finally free of the slavery of cigarettes after 40 yrs of smoking and several wks of withdrawal symptoms and cravings plus mood swings so why in the world would I or any of you want to go back to that? Let's be EXtra vigilant especially with the change in the season coming up which could cause smoking memories but just be sure to remember the reasons why you quit in the first place! 

Marilyn 671 DOF 

I try to wake up with a positive attitude some days are easier than others but I am the type of person that tries to look at the good even in a bad situation because if I look hard enough I usually find something good in the bad, when I was quitting smoking after 40 yrs it  was beyond a shadow of a doubt the hardest thing that I have ever done but I knew even when I was going through some horrendous cravings that they were going to pass that it was going to get easier and believe me when I say there was times that I wanted to throw my hands up in the air and head straight to the grocery store and buy a carton of cigarettes instead of just a pk but I didn't because no matter how rotton a day I was having with the cravings  I read enough here including Dales page on NML that I was prepared to handle whatever came my way. I am not saying it was easy it most certainly wasn't, there was days that if you looked at me, I would've ripped off your face or I might have started blatting like a baby,I had so many emotions that I didn't know what to do with but I also knew from all of my reading that I would come out the other side smiling and also I promised myself the night before I quit smoking that I would never pick up another cigarette as long asI live and I don't break promises to anyone including myself so yay here I am with 670 splendiferous DOF and still counting,if I can do it anybody can so please keep moving forward and stacking up those precious smoke free days because each evening when you're getting ready for bed you can hold your head up high and smile because you have made it through another day WON!!!!!!!

Marilyn 

I am trying to answer comments but my eyes are heavy so I probably won't get too many answered, I apologize for that .I have been very busy this summer watching my seven year old grandson Mason Tuesdays through Fridays but I usually keep him overnight at least once a week plus there's everyday living and things that need done, I visited my Dad for awhile this morning and then mowed the lawn with a push gas mower for a couple of hrs this afternoon but the good news is that I have been quit for over two yrs now and smoking isn't even a blimp on my radar, yesterday was a hectic day getting Mason picked up at my daughters, I thought I had brake problems with my car but hubby put in some brake fluid and all is well but we'll keep an eye on the level for a bit. Mason's mom, my daughter smokes and so does her man and there was a couple pks of cigarettes on her table yesterday but I don't care because I don't smoke anymore and that's a wonderful feeling to be free from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison but I don't take my quit for granted and I never will, that's why I push vigilance it's for me as well as you, I never want to become complacent and lazy because relapsing isn't an option for me or for you either so let's always remain on guard while enjoying our smoke free living. 

Being on guard for anything unexpected that could screw up our quits is vital to our health and well being but we also want to embrace and enjoy our Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks. Quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely doable but you don't have to believe me, stick with your quit and prove it for yourself because you will be so glad that you did. Life is way too short to knowingly continue to smoke so hang on tight and keep moving forward and stacking up those splendiferous DOF. 

Marilyn 768 

I was up quarter to 6 even though I didn't want to be and a warning light kept flashing on and off but I was almost at my daughters so I kept going so Masons Dad could go to work. I read in the owners manual that the light was for the brakes so I called Mark to bring over some brake fluid on his way to work which he did and hopefully that was it because it never came back on bringing Mason over here but my luck it's probably a leaky brake line, I decided to bake bread this morning where the humidity is down.  Tommorow and Sunday is supposed to be stifling hot and humid again and I will make sure my oven temperature is correct this morning so I don't ruin 5 loaves of bread again, it would've been great to have a break from baking bread this wk but no matter what is happening in life I will not smoke, my daughter had 2 and a half pks of cigarettes on her table when I went over this morning but I didn't care because I have no desire to suck on a killer cancer stick, I would probably hork on a lung or possibly both. I feel rotton enough lately that I really don't need to knowingly screw up my perfectly beautiful quit to most likely end up with a smoking related illness that's most likely going to cause me to die a slow painful death. So my friends let's all of us Exers remain Exers the rest of our lives because life is short so let's always remain vigilant and protect our precious ongoing beautiful splendiferous forever quit N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever works when we apply it on a daily basis! 

Marilyn 767 DOF 

I got Mason all settled in for the night and crawled in myself around 9:30, we always chit chat for a bit then he said that he was starving to death even though he had a big snack about 8 o'clock, this was probably a stalling tactic. I tried to talk him into just going to sleep but he said Gram, you wouldn't let me starve to death would you??? - - and he promised to brush his teeth again so up we got he is still sleeping, I told my husband Mark this morning and we both laughed about it because Mason has me wrapped right around his little finger. I am really tired but I also am very happy that I can watch him for my daughter too and the best part of it is that I don't smoke anymore that I don't have be stuck outside in the rain or sun, snow storms or the wind to suck on a killer cancer stick. I remember when I still smoked and Mason or Adam would come out while I had one of the yakies ( cigarettes ) in my hand or mouth asking me when I could come back in to do something for them, of course I would say in a few minutes and I know those few minutes were more likely 15 or twenty minutes allI can say is yay for the freedom to do whatever I want whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a disgusting cigarette. I said goodbye to 40 yrs of smoking 766 stupendous days ago and it's the best decision that I have ever made in my life, it was also the hardest thing that I ever did especially in the first few days and weeks of quitting but quitting smoking is absolutely doable and as long as we remain vigilant while enjoying our smoke free lives then I say yay because this evening will be another day WON. 

I got Mason all bathed up and his teeth are brushed and he's in bed watching TV, I've been trying to answer comments from my morning blog but I am too tired to this evening so I doubt that I will get to them but I really appreciate each comment more than you know so thank you my friends and fellow Exers, it's only 9: 30 but feels like 11:30 or even later so I wish everyone a peaceful and relaxing evening or at least what's left of it, smoke free of course. :) 

Yikes August is zipping right along but that's ok, Mason is busy doing crafts right now so I thought I'd check in with you my friends and fellow Exers. I know that I push vigilance pretty much every day but I also do it myself as well as you because becoming complacent and lazy in our quits could cause a moment of Aaah just one would be ok but YIKES we know that's definitely a lie, I have a sister who quit smoking for 7 years and decided that a couple of cigarettes would be ok and it was 20 some yrs later that she decided to quit but she still isn't actually quit because she told me recently that she has the odd one every so often. I don't see her because she lives in another province, but as Dale and other long time quitters say, IF YOU HAVE QUIT AND ARE STILL SMOKING THEN YOU ARE DOING IT WRONG. I know for a fact that if I was to have just one cigarette that I would be royally screwed, so I live by N.O.P.E. - Not One Puff Ever will give us a beautiful life of freedom from the dreaded nicotine poison because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance is key along with being willing,determined and totally committed to succeed let's N.E.F- Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because I never want to go back to day one, I only want to continue to move forward and at the end of each day smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON, quitting smoking is absolutely doable but you must believe in yourself and bite the bullet and quit playing Russian Roulette with your life because your life needs you to quit and remain quit!!!

Marilyn 764 DOF 

Keep moving forwardin your quit because there's not a blessed thing to go backwards for, except pain and suffering if you decide to relapse, so don't do it, smokingis a choice so why not choose life by keeping your quit, it's definitely uncomfortable and hair pulling at times but if you keep moving forward it will definitely get easier and easier so stick with it because there's absolutely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic! 

Marilyn 764 DOF 

I am going to repeat these mantras that I have learned here because I know that there's probably a few Exers here that may be struggling or maybe just beginning their quit so let's be sure to plow through each day because there's definitely life after cigarettes, here goes - N.O.P.E- Not One Puff Ever which will give you a smoke free life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option and if you have been quit awhile - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of your quit, stay focused on why you are quitting smoking and stick with it because there's no reason on the face of this earth that's good enough to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so let's always remain vigilant and guard it with our lives because our lives depends on remaining smoke free. I also like this one which I have been using for many yrs, I find this one hard but it can be a big trigger so try to follow it which should help your quit to go smoother - H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, loneliness and being tired. Remember to that anything in life worth having takes time and effort but wow my friends and fellow Exers believe me when I say that it's so worth it!

Marilyn 763 DOF 

I slept in until almost 7 o'clock but I went to bed shortly after 9 so I got a pretty good sleep. I've been really busy this summer with my little buddy Mason who I have always called my Mack Attack , I will continue to watch him for awhile after School starts September 7th, I will get him off in the mornings. I  have been so tired that I don't believe I have been answering everyone's comments and I may not get around to answering them but please know how much I care and how much I want each of you that hasn't quit yet to please do so, read everything you can about quitting smoking and remaining quit and bite the bullet and do it, it's time to quit playing Russian Roulette with your life and if you are struggling hang on tight because there's definitely life after cigarettes so don't give up, keep moving forward and stacking up your precious smoke free days. Yesterday was a rough day for me, I screwed up the first 5 loaves of bread I baked and had to throw them out, I had the oven on 425 instead of 325 so of course it was almost burnt on the outside and not cooked on the inside, but the other 9 loaves were perfect but I am far enough along in my quit that smoking isn't even a blimp on my radar but things like this happened in the first few days, weeks and months of my quit and I made it through because I promised myself the night before I quit that no matter what I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I don't break promises to anyone including myself so please if you haven't quit yet now is the time and if you are struggling stick with your quit, promise yourself that you will never smoke again and stick with it because victory is right around the corner. 

I was hoping to sleep in this morning, well I didn't get up until almost 7 o'clock which is better than quarter to 6. I am not a morning person anymore but I do get up and push myself to get things done but the amazing part for me now that I am an Ex smoker is that I can get up and focus on a third cup of coffee and be awake and function, this morning 20 minutes after getting up with only a few sips of coffee I was putting on a batch of bread which got me thinking about my smoking days because I would've needed at least two coffee but most likely three and at least 5 cigarettes but probably 6 before I could get started on anything so for me quitting smoking was and is the best decision that I have ever made in my life and will be for you too, so if you haven't quit yet it's definitely time to take back your life and if you are having a rough time with your quit, please hang on tight and continue to move forward stacking up your precious days of freedom because it's going to get easier and easier as time goes on plus our lives depends on remaining smoke free, give it 3 months or even 4 months to get to that good place in your quit. We must always remember that smoking for decades means that when we quit that it only stands to reason that we need to relearn different ways of handling lifes stressers and emotions without the crutch of the dreaded cancer sticks but whew luckily quitting smoking is definitely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals, mood swings and cravings to get to that good place in your quit so stick with it and keep moving forward because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance will give you a beautiful smoke free life because quitting smoking is difficult to say the least but it's absolutely Doable! 

I honestly don't when it was that I stopped reaching for a cigarette out of sheer habit from 40 yrs of smoking of course there was no smokes around because I got rid of the Yakies ( cigarettes ) and ashtrays the night before I quit,  if we stop and think about it it stands to reason that after decades of smoking that it that it's going to take some time to break the habit of reaching out for a smoke that isn't there and instinctively wanting one when we're stressed,happy, sad, angry or whatever, stick with your precious ongoing beautiful splendiferous quit and hang on tight because victory is right around the corner even though you may be struggling, don't give up because this evening when you're getting ready for bed you can hold your head up high and smile because yay for another day WON! 

Marilyn 760 DOF 

Every once in awhile my mind wanders back to the beginning of my quit and thinking whether I could do it or not,   I lurked in the shadows here off and on for a couple of wks or so before I quit smoking and then I forgot all about it until my 18th day when I finally remembered and came on site and commented on something and thankfully someone mentioned that I should write a blog tell a little bit about myself and my quit and I did and here I am still, if you are struggling hang on tight because there's many of us Exers that have been where you are now and are enjoying our freedom and  there's many that are where you are now and as long as you keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom you can and will be successful, please hang on tight because it's definitely going to take some time but it's going to get easier and easier as time goes on and if you are lurking in the shadows reading this, come on out and let us know you are here, it's time to take back your life while you can before it's too late, there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's yours for the taking so grab on, hang on tight be willing, determined and totally committed then you can and will succeed! 

Marilyn 759 DOF 

Let's have the best day possible no matter what is happening in our lives, let's remember that we are so blessed in so many ways so let's take the best care of ourselves that we can, we must always remain vigilant and protect our precious quits. N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Vigilance will give us a beautiful life of Freedom!

Marilyn 758 DOF

I have been up since quarter to 6 and drove over to get Mason and had him back here by quarter after 7, he's had his breakfast and I have a load of laundry on and put on a crock pot of beans and done up a potato salad, now it's time for Mason to get his teeth brushed and for me to get the laundry hung out and put the dishes away but I had to take a break and come on line to say good morning to you, my friends and fellow Exers. My oldest grandson Adam did spend the night with hid Dad the other night my son Alfred , he quit smoking over  2 and a half yrs ago . I haven't talked to Adams mom since the other night which doesn't surprise me because she doesn't want Adam to be in contact with his father anymore than absolutely Nessesary, especially if Adam decides he wants to start spending nights again. I hate broken homes because it's the kids that suffer, I was a single mom for awhile until Mark came into my life but it took him 7 yrs to marry me, we've been together 27 yrs and married just a little over 20 yrs. No matter the confusion in life or the difficulties that we will face in our lives, we don't have to throw our hands up in the air and head to the grocery store to buy a pk of the cancer sticks, no way do we have to do that because we have a choice in this life of ours so choose Freedom because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option. Choose the healthier lifestyle, stop with the EXcuses because there's no EXcuse good enough to knowingly continue to slowly kill ourselves so quit playing Russian Roulette and take back your life while you can before it's too late, let's keep moving forward and stacking up our precious smoke free days. 

Marilyn 757 DOF 

I want to say thank you for your wonderful comments on my blog last evening , I really appreciate your kind words. I have been in a good place in my quit for quite some time but I'm not even sure when that was all I know is that life happens whether we smoke or not and I choose not and so can you even when you want to rip someone's face off which I felt like many times in the beginning of my quit, I remember right around the 30 day mark, my younger sister stressed me out so bad that I screamed into the phone and threw it against the wall, thankfully I didn't break it but I wanted a cigarette in the worst way but I promised myself the night before I quit smoking that I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I don't break promises to anyone including myself, so I came on site and vented instead which helped me through, this site and all of you here is what makes this awesome community work .I haven't heard from my son or Adam this morning or Adams mom but Lord willing everything went well but no matter what I can and will deal with lifes stressers on lifes terms because I don't smoke anymore and neither do any of you my friends and fellow Exers but just in case there's a few of you reading this that haven't quit yet now is the time to take back your life while you can before it's too late so come on and join us in becoming an Ex smoker, quit playing Russian Roulette with your life! 

It's been a very long day even though I fell asleep for over an hour this afternoon while my husband Mark did up pizza for my son his step son and Adam, my oldest grandson plus my sons fiance whew it's difficult trying to explain broken homes. Adams mother decided to give me a hard time about Adam staying the night with his father, my son,when I went over to get a change of clothes, they had a bad break up 10 yrs ago and still won't talk to one another, I am the mediator and this is the first time in several yrs that Adam wanted to stay overnight and she decided to gripe at me, when I was a smoker, I would've kept my mouth shut and chain smoked for the rest of the night but not anymore , we had a few heated words but I also told her that I understood how she felt that it's a mom thing, that I lived it too having to deal with my ex husband when my kids were little and I had to deal with the crap back then and I was still taking it from her and I am doing the best I can and Adam would be fine. Whew thankfully I kept my cool but I find I stand up for myself now which I believe is a good thing . I am going to soak in a lavender Epson salt bath that my daughter made up for me and destress because my friends,  I have learned how to deal with lifes stressers without the crutch of cigarettes and so can you and it's a wonderful feeling when you realize that there's life after smoking, good night all. 

Marilyn 

Yesterday was a very long but wonderful day, this old gram has been taking my seven year old grandson Mason to the public pool since the end of June, he's never taken swimming lessons which I tried to talk him into, yesterday I heard a lifeguard asking the children if anyone wanted to take the deep water test so they could go into the deep end and jump off the diving board so I asked if Mason could try to and he said yes and yay he passed flying colors and he spent the next hr and a half jumping off the diving board, maybe I was holding him back without realizing it but I never asked the rules of the pool and I'm not a strong swimmer but yay I am one proud gram,my chest is puffed right out and my daughter and her man are super happy as well. In our smoking days being happy, sad, anxious, disgusted or any other mood, we would be smoking, well yesterday the thought popped into my head remember when???? - - and I answered myself saying oh yeah and I thought of Dale's mantra, I don't do that anymore. We can talk ourselves into anything and we can certainly talk ourselves out of things just as easy!!!! - I only know a few mantras that I have learned on this precious site and they absolutely work if we apply them to our quits each and every day because our lives depends on quitting smoking and remaining quit. N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget - this is a great one if you've been quit for awhile and are struggling because do you really want to go back to day one or would you rather bite the bullet and make it through the day because you most certainly can and then this evening you hopefully will be smiling and saying YAY ANOTHER DAY WON. Quitting smoking is absolutely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely doable too and so very worth it so please stop playing Russian Roulette with your life and join the ranks of being an Exer. 

I slept in until 8:33 this morning yay that's hopefully a good omen for the day but seriously we are in control of this day so chin up for me as well as you because I choose to put on a smile and a positive attitude because life is good no matter what is happening plus life is 100 % better since quitting smoking because I'm not carrying the burden of that crutch around with me anymore. Smoking Is a choice like anything else in life while  I was waking up with my first coffee thinking about the killer cancer sticks I was also thinking about food allergies and how we have a choice there as well, say that you are allergic to peanut butter I will bet my bottom dollar that if someone asked you if you would eat a peanut butter sandwich, I'm pretty damned sure you would say NO because of the seriousness of the allergy so why not say NO to smoking because it's just as deadly it  Is a horrible addiction but you can kick the dirty little habit into oblivion and choose Freedom because smoking is a choice and we all have the same opportunity whether we smoke or not please choose not! 

Marilyn 768 DOF 

I believe most of us in the first few days of quitting smoking never thought that we could actually quit and remain quit but hey if you are new here and struggling to be free from the clutches of the dreaded cancer sticks, you can be free too, be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful but you must believe in yourself and you must want it more than anything else in life and your life depends on you because we all know the dangers of continuing to smoke, yes it's horribly addictive and yes it's EXtremely difficult to relearn life without the crutch but it's also very doable. Everyone's quit is different but we all had our roller coaster ups and downs and mood swings , I smoked for 40 yrs and thought I was invincible to the health issues of smoking but I was wrong and after finding out I have copd I decided to stop playing Russian Roulette with my life, I found this site and did alot of reading here, picked a quit date and wasn't ready so I reset it and totally forgot about it until my 18th day of my quit. I felt like I was crawling out of my skin when I remembered and came on line, I had been lurking in the shadows but I finally commented on someone's blog and I believe it was Moody that suggested that I write a blog and whew luckily I did because I really don't know if I would've made it through the day but this quit was and still is the most important thing in my life because I want to be around for awhile and I want my quality of life to be the best it can be and quitting smoking is one way to try and ensure that I hopefully will be around for quite some time and going to bed each evening smiling because  (Yay another day is WON)

Marilyn 753 DOF  

Marilyn.H.July.14.14.

Morning :)

Posted by Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Aug 4, 2016

I slept in until 20 to 7 this morning but I could've slept longer but my almost 13 yr old dog Samantha Digger Jane Hartley  (Sam) for short was circling around my bed with her toenails clinging on the floor until I finally got up and let her out, time to clip her toenails today. Mason is still sleeping and it's almost 8:30 now, the humidity has been back since yesterday and my daughter Mandy, Mason and I are supposed to go to the fair this afternoon but the weather is calling for thunderstorms, I hope not because Mason is EXcited to go, I'm not but I want to enjoy him as much as I can plus it's not very often that I get time with my daughter. What I really like about being an Ex Smoker is no matter what I do or where I go or even being around a smoker like my daughter which I'm hoping that someday soon she'll quit but I don't want or need a cigarette to enjoy the day because I know that I will never smoke again,  this site really educated me on the lies of the nicotine poison, smoking kills, smoking is the cause of so many ailments including of course copd, thankfully I finally wised up and quit smoking with the humidity breathing is hard work but since quitting smoking, I at least don't choke and cough trying to suck on a killer cancer stick and nearly horking up a lung so if I can quit after 40 yrs and many others on this site and throughout the world that's smoked 50 yrs or more so can you. If you are willing, determined and totally committed to succeed then you can and will be successful, you have to want it more than anything else in this world and your health, family and even your wallet will thank you. 

Marilyn 753 DOF 

I really hope that anyone that may be struggling with their quits will hang on tight and continue to choose Freedom because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, not if you want to live a healthier lifestyle, think of all the reasons why you quit in the first place, don't go backwards to the slavery of the dreaded cancer sticks. Continue on the life saving journey of quitting smoking and believe me it will get easier but unfortunately you must go through whatever ups and downs there is but it's absolutely worth it and definitely doable, I am heading to La la land very soon, I brought Mason over this morning and we went to the public pool this afternoon and brought my other grandson Adam home with us, he's 12 and Mason's 7 and boy oh boy they are definitely first cousins, they picked at each other most of the afternoon. I got them both supper, my husband Mark puttered around, so I took the boys to evening swim then took Adam home around 8 o'clock, I had a shower, fixed Mason a snack, we got our teeth brushed, he had a bath, now he's watching TV in the bedroom and it's almost 10 pm, I won't be answering comments tonight, sorry about that but if you are struggling please hang tough and know in your heart and soul that you are going to get through these rough patches and be successful and soon you will be smiling and reaping the benefits of living a life of freedom. N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever works when we apply it on a daily basis but you hang on tight because life will get better without the crutch! 

Marilyn 

I thought I'd remind everyone including myself for us to make sure we don't become complacent and lazy in our quits because our quits are vital to our quality of life, so let's enjoy another beautiful smoke free day and if you are struggling and think that there's no way that you will enjoy the day because the cravings are strong, well be sure to deep breathe and do whatever it takes to get through this day and everyday until it gets better and believe me it will but obviously it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch because most of us smoked for 30 and 40 yrs and a few of us 50 or more so it stands to reason that we have to go through whatever ups and downs of mood swings before our lives feel somewhat normal again. I felt like I was in a fog the first few weeks of my quit and many days I felt like I was crawling out of mmy skin but I made it through and so will you, so keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom!

Marilyn 751 DOF 

I was up at 8 o'clock but I'm just coasting along this morning, my daughter had the night off so I haven't got Mason again today, I'll either pick him up tonight or in the morning, whatever he would like. Anyway my friends and fellow Exers, be sure to remain vigilant today while enjoying another precious day of freedom from the dreaded cancer sticks, if you are having a rough patch, be sure to plow through the day and this evening you will be glad you did because you will be smiling and saying YAY ANOTHER DAY WON. Quitting smoking  is  difficult to say the least but it's absolutely doable and vital to our health and well being. 

Marilyn 750 DOF 

It's been a very busy day and I don't think I will answer all of the comments on my blog so I will just say thank you and I hope each of you know how much I appreciate you, I hope everyone will enjoy a peaceful and relaxing evening or at least what's left of it , and when you are getting ready to head off to La la land, you can say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON, there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic so keep moving forward and stacking up those splendiferous DOF! 

Marilyn 

It's August 1st already and only 47 degrees this morning but it's warming up beautifully ,the humidity is gone for now at least, so I am feeling quite a bit better. The lawn needs mowed which I plan on doing, it's a paid holiday day today for hubby and he plans on staining the shingles on another wall of the house or at least part of the wall and smoking isn't an issue anymore in anything that I do and for anyone here that's having a rough time with your quit, it's definitely going to get better but you probably have smoked for a few decades, so everything revolved around smoking so it's going to take time to relearn life without cigarettes but it's absolutely worth it when you realize that there really is life after the crutch but you must believe in yourself and keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom, stick with your quit because relapsing would jeopardize your health, smoking kills and quitting can save you from a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related so hang on tight and each evening you can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

Marilyn 749 DOF