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I find the site is EXtra slow this morning and I clean the cache, history and cookies every day, oh well I won't smoke over it or anything else that's happening because yay I don't do that anymore but I make sure to not get complacent and lazy because relapsing isn't an option so each morning I wake up thankful and promise that I will be vigilant throughout the day and at night I say thank you for another day WON, stick with your quit and continue stacking up your precious days of freedom because life is so much better without the crutch ,stick with it because your health, family and even your wallet is depending on you and a super yay for me because I had a half decent nights sleep and feel alot better than yesterday. 

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I have been in a real funk lately and I think it's partly to do with the humidity and I haven't been sleeping well but that's ok because I look for the positives in life and even feeling exhausted most days, my seven year old grandson Mason brightens up my days, no matter how rotton I might be feeling. We all need a purpose in life and bettering our lifes is so important, so quitting smoking and remaining quit should be our top priority, I used to think that I was invincible and that other people got cancer or emphysema from smoking but not me but I certainly was wrong and after 40 yrs of smoking, I found out through a spirometry test that I have mild copd, whew, for me that was enough to scare the crap out of me because breathing is essential to living. We all know what happens when we quit breathing  Quit playing Russian Roulette with your life, quitting smoking is definitely doable and remaining quit is also absolutely doable but anything worth having in life takes time and effort but wow my friends and fellow Exers, once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs and mood swings and you get to that point in your quit that you don't want to rip someone's face off or scream , then you are probably getting to that good place in your quit, you can and will enjoy a life without cigarettes, believe in yourself, continue to be willing, determined and totally committed which will give you a beautiful smoke free life! 

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It's New Brunswick day on Monday and it's a statutory holiday too, whoo Hoo but also Boo because summer is going way too fast for all of us but especially us that live in the snow belt regions but oh well, that's ok because there's not a blessed thing that we can do about it. So I am really hoping for the humidity to break for us that's having to endure it and the thunderstorms will go away and I know that I am asking way too much but if the temps could be in the low to mid 70's for the month of August that would be heavenly but I know that's not going to happen so I will enjoy whatever the weather because life is good especially considering the alternative, so let's always look for the positives in life because if we look hard enough we will always find it and when looking at our quits, whether we're at day 1 or day 101 or day 1000 or whether we're struggling as long as we continue moving forward in this journey of quitting smoking, everything will become positive, I look back at my smoking days and can't believe how many decades of my life I wasted on the cancer sticks but whew luckily I wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away. I had many failed attempts in the past but not this time, because with my willingness to succeed and with all of you my friends and fellow Exers, my commitment and determination to be successful worked and as long as I remain vigilant and the same goes for each and everyone of you as long as we protect our precious quits while enjoying our freedom then life is positive and believe me when I say that the first few weeks and months of my quit wasn't easy by no means, I had days that I blatted like a baby or maybe I could've ripped off your face if you happened to look at me the wrong way, I didn't have a lot of company those first couple of months of my quit because nobody wanted to be around me and most people didn't think I could quit but here I am and if I can do it after 40 yrs of smoking and I know that there's quite a few here that's smoked 45 or 50 yrs or more that's been quit for 3 or 4 yrs or longer, so make up your mind to never ever smoke again and stick to it because there's definitely life after cigarettes and Freedom is yours for the taking and it is EXhilarating!

Marilyn 746 DOF 

When I took Mason home after swimming  I asked him if he wanted to come back and spend the night and he said yes, so I called around 7 seven last night and checked with my daughter to make sure it was ok, she works straight nights anyway, 11 to 7 shift and her man straight days. I went over about 8:30 and he was already to go with me, it's a good feeling that he wants to stay with gram and I see my other grandson Adam at the pool most days, he's 12 and loves me but of course at his age doesn't want to hang out with me or his little cousin but he always smiles and says hi to me, my son and his mother and my son split when Adam was 2 yrs old but I am so thankful to be in his life. Well it's definitely going to be another afternoon at the public pool as long as we don't get the thunderstorms that's predicted, anyway Mason is still sleeping and I thought maybe I would share three mantras that I learned on this site, just in case there's a few people hiding in the shadows reading this. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's absolutely doable, be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful, N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever will give you a beautiful smoke free life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and if you have been quit for awhile and are struggling then please, N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of your quit and I got this somewhere and it's also a good one, H.A.L.T - hunger, anger, loneliness and being tired.

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I know many of you are dealing with a lot higher temps and humidity than I am here in NB but it's certainly beginning to take its toll on me, my husband doesn't like air conditioning he says it bothers his eyes but the fans aren't doing it for me but I need to stop complaining because this isn't going to last and yikes one wk from today is August 3rd already. I will stop my griping and get on with the day, Mason will want breakfast soon and hopefully we'll get to go swimming this afternoon and the great thing about whatever my mood may be that I have relearned ways to deal with lifes issues on lifes terms without the crutch so if you have a hard time dealing with things and still thinking that one won't hurt and you are struggling please hang tough because it's going to take some time but you will also get to that place where you are thankful that you don't need a cancer stick to deal with lifes emotions and situations and it's a wonderful feeling when you realize that your life is 100 % better without the cancer sticks. Mason is waiting for Breakfast so I better get off for now, then I will swing on over to the love yourself forom and say hello, if you have a few minutes drop over to say hello. 

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My daughter Mandy didn't go to work last night, so she could go to a funeral today without being exhausted from working all. Mason will be here around noon and spend the night, I'll take him home around three or so tommorrow, then set the alarm clock for the rest of the week. I slept in until almost 8: 30 this morning, I guess I needed the extra sleep. I can't think of much to say other than chin up take each day as it comes and let's be thankful for everything that we have, there's so much in our lives that we have no control over but we do have complete control over whether we smoke or relapse and in my opinion at least in my life  right from the night before I actually quit to right now over two years later, I said to myself, right out loud that I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live and I never have and Lord willing never will, this my friends works or at least it does for me, I struggled just like anyone else in the first few months but I am really stubborn when I set my mind to something and I wanted to be done with the cancer sticks and I finally wised up and realized that I wasn't invincible and I know that everyone dies at some point but I had and have complete control over whether I smoke or not and I choose not and hopefully now I have a chance of not dying a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related hooked up to an oxygen machine, breathing is essential to living ,there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic so keep stacking up your precious smoke free days because believe it or not it's definitely worth it and life does get better and better without the crutch but it takes time. 

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Today is also my husband's Mark and my 20th wedding anniversary, we've been together 27 yrs, through thick and thin. Both of us were married once before, I was 16 and not pregnant the first time I got married, my mom signed so I could marry. I thought that life would be so much better but was I ever wrong but 13 yrs later and two kids, I ended the marriage, life was way too short to be scared all of the time of saying something wrong and being beat around or having your furniture smashed, our daughter missed alot of this where she was in school, she was 8 at the time but our son was only 4 so he saw more than any child should see, plus his father worked away alot and when he was home, he treated our daughter beautifully and our son like crap so I decided to take back my life which certainly wasn't easy by no means but I was at the end of my rope, that's how it was when I quit drinking 5 and a half yrs ago, I had enough and the same with smoking, enough was enough. I wish that with each situation that I would've acted sooner and saved a bunch of heartache but at least I can say that I am happier in my second marriage, nothing is perfect in this life but he treats me like a Queen even if I don't deserve it sometimes and I try my best to treat him like a King because he's a good man and as far as drinking and smoking goes, I waited until I had health issues before I brightened but I did, I can't go backwards and beat myself up because I should have quit them both earlier but I can be thankful that I am now a living a much healthier lifestyle. There's been another death by cancer this wk end that brought back alot of memories from my first marriage, alot of people that I haven't seen in yrs that my first husband and I used to chum with, these are memories I don't let come to the surface very often because I don't like to go back to that time but the good news is that I won't smoke over it or anything else because I will protect my quit with my life because my life depends on it, so my friends and fellow Exers please remain vigilant each and every day and protect your quits while enjoying your precious freedom, we can't go back and fix anything but we sure as hell can go forward and have the best life possible, so keep on stacking up your smoke free daysand if you haven't quit yet maybe it's time to take back your life while you can before it's too late! 

Marilyn 742 DOF 

I hope that each of you will enjoy this last week of July and that your quits are going well, if by chance you might be struggling and having cravings and mood swings along with roller coaster ups and downs, please hang on tight because this will end but every urge and crave that we get through makes us stronger and the more we get through proves to us that quitting might be EXtemely difficult but it's also absolutely doable so keep moving forward and stacking up your precious smoke free days because there's definitely life after cigarettes and I for one am so thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away and plowed through those horrid hair pulling early weeks and months of my quit to get to where I am today, we have all been in that place of struggling and wondering if we would ever get to that good place and yay we did and so will you but most of us smoked for decades upon decades and made it through and so will you, chin up and hang on tight and ccontinue being willing, determined and totally committed because you are an Exer and if by chance you are reading this and haven't quit yet, stop playing Russian Roulette and join us in becoming an Ex smoker because it's time to take back your life while you are still vertical! 

Marilyn 741 DOF 

It was 66 outside at a little after six this morning and 73 in the house and I am making bread, ugh on heat but I love to make my husband Mark happy and the grandkids, with Mason being here four days a week we're going through at least a loaf and a half a day but Mark won't eat store bought bread but thankfully I make 13 loaves and usually 10 rolls every wk or so . The temps are supposed to reach 87 degrees again today and the house will probably reach the low 90's and we don't have air conditioning because hubby don't like it but we do here fans in every room which helps but I shouldn't complain because winter will be here soon enough, so let's have another smoke free day and be positive even if we'd rather be negative because we are all blessed with so much so let's enjoy the freedom of living without the crutch and if you are still struggling with your quit hang on tight because it's definitely going to take some time but life is going to get easier and easier, remain willing, determined and totally committed and you can and will be successful. I need to go turn the oven on so chin up and hang tough because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic,rremember N.O.P.E- Not One Puff Ever which will give you a beautiful life of freedom 

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I hope everyone had a decent nights sleep and will enjoy a hassle free, smoke free day  if you are hiding in the shadows reading this please let us know you are here ,maybe it's time to stop playing Russian Roulette with your life and come join the ranks of being an EX SMOKER. Quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable and vital to our health and well being, so maybe tell us a little about yourself so possibly we could help you get started on the journey to Freedom, if you happen to be struggling hang on tight and keep moving forward because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option as long as we stand by N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever and also - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of our quits - then we can smile at the end of each day and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON because relapsing isn't an option, Freedom from the dreaded cancer sticks is super fantastic, always remember H.A.L.T -hunger, anger, loneliness ,tired, feed our belly, be slow to anger, talk to someone to avoid loneliness and rest when you can, now if I could only listen to my own advice, have a great Friday. :)

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Summer is moving right along so I plan on enjoying every moment of it so off to the public pool again today with Mason and I plan on getting in since it's supposed to get into the mid to high 80s. Being an Ex Smoker is all positive once you get to that good place in your quit, it certainly seems like you're never going to get through the roller coaster ups and downs but you will, we have all been there but each quit is different but you will get through and come out the other side smiling and once you get there, there's no going back that's where vigilance comes in so we never get complacent and lazy and think just one won't hurt because that's a lie which we all know so be sure to be on guard for any unexpected situations while enjoying your precious freedom so at the end of each day you can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON. 

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Mason and I went to the public pool again today, I didn't get in but probably will tommorrow because it's supposed to be quite a bit warmer than today, the temp was 48 degrees first thing this morning brrrrrrr, it did warm up to 72 by the afternoon. I'm keeping him overnight tonight and will take him home tommorrow afternoon after swimming and a snack then pick him up Friday morning then a break for my little Mack Attack and me until Tuesday , I am tired but it's a good tired and smoking isn't even a blimp on my radar because I am an Exer and my life is so much better without the crutch of cigarettes so if you are struggling hang on tight because the roller coaster ups and downs will subside but we must remember how many decades we smoked and then we'll realize that it takes time to relearn different ways of handling lifes situations but it will get easier as time goes on so chin up and keep on moving forward stacking up your precious days of freedom. I am too tired to answer comments this evening but thank you for commenting and I wish all of you a relaxing evening and I will see you sometime tomorrow morning, good night my friends and fellow Exers, it's not even 9 o'clock but I gotta get Masons teeth brushed and get him settled in for the night. 

Marilyn 

I was up at twenty to 6 but I didn't want to be,Mason didn't want to get up either and I let him sleep until quarter after 7 but he got up in a great mood with a big smile for Gram which as tired as I am makes me very happy because I know that before long he won't want to hang out with the old fogies so right now he's only 7 so I will enjoy every minute I can. The other two grandchildren are 12 and 13, we see them every couple of weeks but after a few minutes they're bored and only want to be around us if we're driving all over creation and spending money we don't have but we love them just as much but it's more tiring trying to keep them entertained but happy, sad, frustrated, stressed or any other mood or emotion doesn't involve smoking because I don't do that anymore, so please remember to blog if you are struggling with your quit all you have to do is say help and someone will be along to help you through the rough patch, I know because whenever I was having a tough time in the beginning of my quit I came here and always got the help I needed, plus it's a wonder I didn't wear Dales page out concerning the first 4 months of quitting. Hang on tight, remain willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful, remember the reasons why you quit in the first place, for me, it's my health, family and even my wallet but being around especially for the grandchildren is definitely at the top of my list, please believe me when I say there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic and so worth everything that I went through to get here today

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I didn't want to get up this morning at 5:40 only because I haven't done it for several years since retiring but I am getting used to it. I had a hard time driving over to my daughters with the sun glaring in my eyes but I got there and drank a couple of coffee and let Mason sleep for awhile, now he's had his breakfast and is watching Max and Ruby, the humidity finally broke so the air mass feels much better  off to the park later and possibly swimming if Mason wants to, if anyone is struggling with your quit, stay willing, determined and totally committed to be successful and you will be. Freedom is EXhilarating because once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings , you start to realize how great it is to be able to go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cancer stick. So chin up and hang on tight because victory is right around the corner, keep moving forward and stacking up your precious smoke free days and give yourself the time needed to get to that good place. 

Marilyn 736 DOF 

I stayed up until 11 o'clock last night chatting with a couple of friends and fellow Exers on this site which I enjoyed, this old broad is usually in bed by 10:30, anyway once I got under the covers I realized that I have an appointment at 9 o'clock . My first thought was crap because I was really hoping for a day to just enjoy a break ,oh well as the old saying goes, that's the way the cookie crumbles, that's life and I better get my butt in gear soon because it's after 8 now and I need to be out of here in about 20 minutes because it's a half hour drive. Life is what we make it and I choose to have a great day even though I would much rather stay home today because the rest of the week I have to get up shortly after 5:30 and I'm not a morning person anymore , I am done whining now, so I plan on a wonderful day which is super fantastic because I don't smoke anymore and neither do you my friends and fellow Exers and if by chance, there's someone here in the shadows reading this please let us know you are here, come join the ranks of living a life of freedom from the horrid cancer sticks because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's great but you must get through the roller coaster ups anddowns first but quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable, at the end of each day we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON.

Marilyn 735 DOF  

We had thunderstorms all around us yesterday but we didn't even get a sprinkle, plus I got a batch of bread made which I was nervous about because of the thunderstorm threat and power outage but thankfully no problem here. I know that there's folks on this site that are early in their quits that are struggling, but please don't get frustrated and throw your precious ongoing beautiful quit away because you decided to quit smoking for a reason, whether it's for your health, family, finances or something else, believe in your heart and soul that you can be successful and you can and will be, remember to remain willing, determined and totally committed and tell yourself as many times as you need to that you don't smoke anymore and that you are going to live the rest of your life in Freedom, it's a journey but it's also a journey that's so worth taking. Quitting is probably the hardest thing that I have ever done in my life but it's also the smartest thing that I have ever done too because I know now that I'm not invincible , finding out that I have copd was the wake up call I needed because it scared the crap out of me and made me realize that I needed to take back my life from the horrid cancer sticks so I did and so can you, remember nothing in this life worth having is easy but it's so very doable and so worth it and this evening you will be smiling and saying YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

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Yesterday was going to be a great day to take a break and do a little shopping and have lunch out with the husband but ditzy me wore a new pair of sandels which was utterly stupid because I hadn't broken them in yet, so my feet, legs and back started to pain plus I never go to this Walmart very often so I am tramping around not knowing where anything is. My husband felt really bad for me but it was my own thought for not thinking so he finished up and we just came home and ate, it was very humid yesterday but we had a breeze, after resting up for a bit I put on my steel toed sneakers and mowed the lawn with a push gas mower for two hrs with several breaks in between. I guess what I am trying to say is with anything in life whether it be a new pair of sandels or even our quits, if we stop and think first we can save a lot of pain and anguish, if I had of used my brain yesterday I wouldn't have gotten so frustrated and cried for most of the half hour drive home but thankfully the last thing I wanted was a cigarette and I am thankful that my husband is a patient man and that my feet, legs and back just needed different shoes plus the mowing got done while my husband was staining the shingles on the house, life is good especially without the crutch of smoking, hang on tight if you are struggling with your quit because life will get easier as time goes on plus our health, family and even our wallets will be happy that we are protecting our hard earned precious quits. 

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My husband and I are going to get away from the house for a few hrs and take a break from gardening and yard work, I should make bread today plus I should do some mowing and Mark never stops working but today I want to do a little shopping in town and maybe have a lunch out,  life is to be treasured because we're not on this earth for a long time so we should embrace every day to the fullest, I tell my husband that on our death bed, I really don't think that either one of us will be saying that we should of worked more at least I certainly won't be saying that. Work is important but enjoying life is also important, especially since taking back our lives from the horrid cancer sticks because now we can go anywhere, anytime whenever, wherever and however without worrying about where to sneak off to suck on a killer cigarette, remember that we must  always remain vigilant and guard our hard earned freedom because at the end of each day we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON not BOO ANOTHER DAY ONE, chin up my friends and fellow Exers because quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely doable and absolutely worth it. 

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I appreciate each and everyone of you my friends and fellow Exers, there's just no words to EXpress how happy and thankful I am that I found this site and got to be part of this wonderful community, quitting smoking was the most ddifficult thing I've ever done in my life but it is also the smartest decision that I have ever made also because once I found out I had copd, I knew that it was time to stop playing Russian Roulette with my health and even more importantly my life. Staying willing, determined and totally committed can and will give you a beautiful life of freedom from the horrid cancer sticks,chin up and hang on tight because quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth it. 

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Two years ago today, I woke up to my day one determined to quit smoking and praying with all of my might that God would give me the strength to get through the day and he did. I checked this site out in June of 2014 and did alot of reading ,I also set up a quit date for the 7th of July but when that date came, I wasn't ready so I reset it to the 14th, so on the 13th I cleaned up all the ashtrays to prepare myself. I never came back here until my 18th day when I was having a rough time with cravings and all I wanted was a cigarette, I was so stressed out and could've ripped off your face or I might have started blatting like a baby but thankfully I remembered this site so I started reading, then I commented on something that I read and then someone asked me to write a little bit about myself so I did and here I am celebrating my two year milestone. I am so very thankful that I remembered this site on that day other wise I really don't know if I would've made it through without heading to the grocery store and buying a pk of those disgusting cancer sticks but whew luckily I'll never have to find out, never, ever, give up your precious quit because Freedom is EXhilarating! Plus going back to day one would really suck big time so instead at the end of each day we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON! 

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A very good morning to each of you, I hope that today is EXtra good for all of us. I decided to bring Mason back over to the spend the night again last night which he wanted to do and he's still sleeping at 8 o'clock, it's going to be another scorcher here so we'll go to the public pool this afternoon and cool off then I will bring him back here for dry clothes and a lunch and take him home around 3:30 or so  I'll see if he wants to come back tonight or go pick him up in the morning, whatever he wants . life is so much better now that I don't smoke anymore because I can function on a few sips of coffee , not that I really want to, hee, hee, I prefer to get up on my own without the alarm clock now that I am retired, forced to retire but never the less retired but the wonderful news is that I don't need three or four cups of coffee and a half dozen cigarettes to wake up with which is super fantastic because there's no nearly horking up a lung or both trying to suck on a killer cigarette first thing in the morning, there's just so many positives to quitting smoking so please hang on tight and keep moving forward because life is so much better without the crutch but you must give it the time to get to a good place in your quit. 

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I asked my daughter if maybe Mason would like to come and spend the night last night ,he said yes so I went and got him, he's still sleeping and it's almost 8 o'clock, I slept in till 20 to 7 which gave me an extra hrs sleep. I wish each of you a great day and I pray that whoever is struggling with your quit that you know that things are going to get easier but unfortunately it does take time to get off the roller coaster of ups and downs but it is going to happen ,life happens whether we smoke or not but I know how difficult and stressful it is relearning life without the crutch. Chin up and hang on tight because victory is right around the corner probably not fast enough but deep breaths and keep moving forward and stacking up those precious days of freedom ,hopefully one day very soon, you will smile and say YAY, life is so much better since quitting smoking. 

Marilyn 729 DOF 

In the last two weeks, we've lost three people to different types of cancer, one in his early 60's, one at the age of 34 and a 13 yr old girl, I didn't know any of them but I know some of the people left behind to grieve, life is short enough, don't you think? Without relapsing or maybe you haven't quit yet but don't you want to have the best life possible? To be able to breathe without an oxygen machine breathing for you . I know that quitting smoking is absolutely the hardest thing in the world to do, the addiction is sooooooo powerful and the habit EXtremely difficult to relearn life without the crutch but our lives and our families lives are worth the hair pulling, mood swings and cravings and anything else we have to go through to get to the place where you never want to go back to the slavery of cigarettes, give yourself the 3 or 4 months needed to be Free. Most of us smoked for decades upon decades and are now reaping the benefits of Ex smokers, come join us because as long as you are willing, determined and totally committed to be successful then you can and will be. N.O.P.E - means Not One Puff Ever - because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and if you are struggling hang on tight and N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of your quit because each day you get through is another day WON. ☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆S

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It's going to be another busy day with the oldest grandson Adam coming in about a half hour, he will have a half lb of bacon and probably three eggs and some homemade toast with a tall glass of either apple juice or chocolate milk, his choice. We'll take him to my daughters hopefully before church and after lunch is another wedding shower and after Adam goes home it's me time but busy or not it's a great feeling when smoking isn't even a passing thought but like me and most likely everyone that is in a good place now had to go through the roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings and cravings of the withdrawals and relearning life without cigarettes takes quite a bit of time but it's all worth it to get rid of the crutch of smoking so keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom, stay off the merry go round because we're not invincible and our lives matter, N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - really works when applied on a daily basis, keep saying No, No, No and mean it and before long you should be saying yes, yes and yes because you are an Exer and enjoying Freedom. 

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After smoking for 40 yrs and thinking that I could never quit I realize now thatwwas the addiction talking because once I found out about having copd, I realized that it was time to stop playing Russian Roulette andI  needed to take back my life, smoking is a vicious cycle and if you really want to quit you can but you must  be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful, it's time to get off the merry go round because we're not invincible but we are in control of our own destiny. I went to a 70th birthday celebration today for a friend that is dying from cancer, he was outside smoking along with his daughter, son and three other people they were all sucking on a cigarette  I never said anything but talked with them but I realized how sincerely thankful that I finally wised up and quit, thanks be to God and all of you my friends and fellow Exers because this community is absolutely a life saver as long as we pay attention and live by N.O.P.E because applied on a daily basis it works. 

I could actually sleep in this morning but I woke up at 5 o'clock and couldn't get back to sleep so I finally just got up shortly after 6. Most of you probably remember that my husband Mark switched jobs back in November working for a company named small town fuels, he does all the deliveries of the oils and transmission fluids and all of that kind of stuff and he pours it all over from these huge drums into mostly 5 gallon pails so he's breathing this crap into his lungs which is really getting his smokers cough going again so he has to get out of there because of the emphysema. I have been telling him for quite some time but now he realizes too his life is in jeopardy, he has over 2 yrs in since quitting smoking, his job that he left is trying to get him back but they treated him like crap so alot of things would have to be different plus he would be gone again for over half the year but he's also nearly 59 yrs old and alot of companies would rather hire someone in their 20's ,30's or 40's instead of his age so I guess we'll see what happens, anyway thankfully smoking isn't an issue because smoking is the reason for his emphysema and my copd so no way no how will we go backwards, we need to get him out of there and into a healthier job site. I hope nobody minds me getting my thoughts out there about my worries and concerns but I feel better just writing it down, we have updated resumes done up so Mark can pass them out  remember to remain vigilant and guard your precious quit while enjoying the day. 

Marilyn 726 DOF 

Morning, it's going to be a very busy weekend, another wedding shower tommorrow for another neice but this one is nearby and on Sunday is a 70th birthday get together for a friend that is dying from cancer with only a short time left and a good friends son in law just passed away from brain cancer he was only 34, it's just so sad but it also makes me even more determined to enjoy life to the fullest while I am able to do so. Quitting smoking was the smartest thing that I have ever done the only thing I regret is that I didn't realize much sooner that quitting was very doable or maybe just maybe I would've quit decades sooner but I can't go backwards but I can continue to move forward and be thankful that I finally wised up and took back my life from the dreaded cancer sticks, so let's always remember that N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever will give us a beautiful life of freedom because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because we don't ever want to go back to day one again but at the end of each day we can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON, there's life after cigarettes but hey you don't have to believe me hang on tight and give yourself three months actually four would be even better, by then you should realize how much better life is without the crutch of cigarettes and you can enjoy reaping the benefits of an Exer. 

Marilyn 725 DOF 

Keep moving forward in your quits and look forward to the day which shouldn't be too far off that you will be smiling and thinking wow why did it take so long to realize all of the benefits of quitting smoking. I know that's how I felt when I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away and plowed through the first couple of months or longer barely treading water because I was battling remaining smoke free, nobody wanted to be around me because I was on a roller coaster of ups and downs and nasty as hell at least that's what I'm told and it's probably true. The only people I wasn't grumpy with were the grandchildren because they still wanted to come over which actually made me feel good about me by quitting smoking I was hoping to be around to watch them grow up and with the copd, I knew I had to take back my life, I didn't want to end up on oxygen 7 / 24 or even worse die a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related, I didn't want to do that to my family especially the grandkids. I wanted to be around to watch Adam, Emma and Mason grow up, a week from today I will be smiling from ear to ear and reaping the benefits of 2 yrs of being an Ex smoker so continue on the journey of life because there's definitely life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic , as long as we apply N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever which will give us a beautiful life of freedom because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, let's - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of our quits because there's nothing worth smoking over ,let's protect our quits because our lives depends on remaining smoke free. 

Marilyn 724 DOF 

Quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's very doable and sometimes when we're going along and everything is great and we haven't given smoking a thought for quite some time, then BAM, an overpowering wave of thoughts creep into your head, well that's where being on guard and vigilance comes in to protect your precious hard earned quit. I haven't had one of those horrendous thoughts for quite some time but I am prepared to give my head a shake and say no way no how because I don't smoke anymore and going back to day one isn't ever going to happen, I prefer smiling at the end of each day and say yay another day WON,  keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom because life is so much better without the crutch of the dreaded cancer sticks. 

Marilyn 723 DOF

I really hope that everyone had a wonderful 4th of July wk end and that you are still stacking up your precious smoke free days while enjoying life without the crutch, sometimes it takes awhile to actually enjoy being an Ex Smoker but someday soon you should be able to smile and reap all of the benefits. My husband should be home for lunch soon so I better heat him up some lunch and Mason doesn't like what gramps having so I will fix him something different then gramp will go back to work and once I get the dishes done Mason and I will head to town to the public pool for a couple of hrs and I have to say that I am sooooooo very thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away because I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic, if you haven't got to this good place yet, you will soon enough, have a wonderful smoke free day my friends and fellow Exers. 

Marilyn 722 DOF 

I just wanted to let you know that I may or may not get on site in the morning, It depends on what I'm doing with my seven year old grandson Mason. I am still getting used to getting up at 5: 45, it's been a few yrs since I had to get up, plus I don't ssleep well with sleep apnea and I have tried the machine for about a month and slept even less, I wanted to throw the machine against the wall and the darn thing cost over  $2500.00 dollars so I just gave it back because I was trying it out for the month and couldn't stand it. Anyway I will see you sometime tomorrow and for anyone struggling hang tough, chin up and hang on tight and know that it will get easier but most of us smoked decades upon decades so it stands to reason that it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch of cigarettes but it is so worth it to be free. 

Marilyn 

My husband and I had a wonderful Canada Day wk end at St Andrews, we enjoyed our neices wedding and the fireworks on the rooftop of the hotel and the best part of it all was smoking wasn't an issue because I an Exer and heading straight for the two year milestone and you my friends and fellow Exers are a huge part of my success, I had many hair pulling EXPeriences where I just wanted to say screw it and drive to the store and buy a pk of the cancer sticks but I would get on site instead and read Dales page concerning the first 4 months of quitting and then I would usually write a blog about my stress level and thankfully there was always someone here to help me through the rough patches, stick with your quit if you are struggling hang tough and hang on tight because victory is right around the corner even though you may not believe me, chin up and keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom from the dreaded nicotine poison, relapsing isn't an option, not if you want freedom and a healthier lifestyle, think about all the reasons why you are here and know in your heart and soul that you will be successful in this your precious ongoing beautiful quit,  continuing to be willing, determined and totally committed will give you a beautiful life of freedom but you must believe in yourself and at the end of each day you can smile and say another day WON. 

Marilyn 721 DOF 

My son looked after our nearly 13 yr old dog, Samantha Digger Jane Hartley who was really happy to see us yesterday afternoon. We were pretty happy to see her as well and it was great to sleep in our own bed, the fireworks on the rooftop at the hotel we stayed in for Canada Day was the best that I have ever seen and maybe that's because I was sober and really enjoyed them without the crutch of alcohol or cigarettes  so I wish each of you the best 4th of July ever and most of you should enjoy tommorrow off as well. Remember N.O.P.E - NOT One Puff Ever - really works when applied on a daily basis because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option especially if we have been quit awhile because we must N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of our quits because we never, ever, ever want to go back to day one but at the end of each day we need to smile and say another day WON, no matter how rough some days are to get through and believe me when I say we have had many rough patches in the beginning of our quits but we made it through to the other side and so will you, keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom because life is so much better without the crutch. 

Marilyn 720 DOF and counting 

TThe wedding was absolutely amazing and my neice and her groom paid for everything, the buffet last night and the open bar and brunch this morning, we paid for the hotel room and the gas to get there and that's all. We had lobster rolls, shrimp and bacon wrapped scallops along with veggie trays, crackers and cheese and the dessert table was heavenly, I had a bit of a rough time last evening for a bit not so much with the smoking but even with over 5 yrs sober, I found it very hard at first with the open bar with over 60 people there drinking and I know almost half of them, I just felt out of place and I have to admit that I really wanted a drink. No smoking was allowed on the rooftop where we were so anyone that wanted a cigarette had to go downstairs and outside which would be a pain in the butt so I was and am thankful for being an Exer, once I found the dessert table last night and ate some of the delicious cheesecakes and other scrumptious desserts then I didn't want any alcohol either, my husband and most everyone else there got pretty loaded including the bride and groom. I am really tired but I'm not used to staying up until 1 am but I am very happythat we went and the weather was perfect, life is so much better without the crutch so if you are having a rough time, chin up and hang on tight and please keep moving forward and stacking up your precious smoke free days because it will get better but it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without smoking, most of us smoked for decades so it only stands to reason that it's going to take awhile to figure out how to deal with life on lifes terms but it's absolutely worth it. 

Marilyn 719 DOF, I think 

I love the word Ginormous especially since my youngest grandson Mason is the one that got me using it, he got it off a mario game on his DS and this old gram has been using it now for several months. We're never too old to learn new things or we're certainly never too old to start living a healthier lifestyle which means if you haven't quit smoking yet it's definitely time to do so while you are still vertical, if you have been going through the roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings that you think will never end, please hang on tight because victory is right around the corner even though you might think  I'm nuts, but I Know that I am right because I have been where you are now and I got through it and came out the other side smiling and so will you! All of us that are in a good place now had to go through the rough patches but it's absolutely worth it. It's Canada Day and it's a beautiful sunny day for a nice scenic drive to go to a wedding which my husband and I are getting ready to head out soon to St Andrews by the sea and be a part of our niece saying her nuptials, lots of stuff happening tonight and smoking isn't a part of any of it which makes me EXtremely thankful that I'm an Exer. So I will see all of you sometime tommorrow afternoon or evening, as Dale says keep them away from your face! -this evening we can say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON. :)

Marilyn 718 DOF