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Wow, Tommorrow is July 1st and it's Canada Day as well, plus my neice on my husbands side of the family is getting married tomorrow in the most expensive place in NB in the most expensive hotel on the busiest day of all days it being Canada Day but it's her day. She lives with her future husband in Vancouver over four thousand miles away and his family is flying in from England so everyone is traveling but it's going to be quite a celebration indeed. The Whole wedding is circled around alcohol, drinks before the wedding which isn't until 6:15 pm, drinks after the wedding, drinks before the luncheon, drinks during the luncheon, drinks on the roof top then lip syncing, then the dance and all of this is written down on the invitation cards and it's great for them and my husband won't mind the alcohol because he still drinks but I will be extra vigilant with alcoholic beverages as well as smoking, I am a recovering alcoholic with over 5 yrs sober and on the 14th of July I will be 2 yrs smoke free, so I plan on carrying a bottle of water around with me so I don't pick up a glass and possibly take a sip of alcohol as far as cigarettes go I will be EXtra careful there as well but I don't think they'll be too many smokers plus I'm around people who smoke most days anyway. I may or may not be back on before Saturday but  I probably will be but just in case have a wonderful day today and tommorrow too, be EXtra vigilant with your spectacular quits, let's not become complacent and lazy because relapsing would really suck, going back to day one instead of another day WON isn't an option so smile and realize how blessed we are for taking back our lives from the dreaded cancer sticks so chin up and enjoy the day. 

Marilyn 717 DOF 

Morning everyone, Mason is watching sesame Street so I thought I'd wish you a pleasant day and a smoke free one too so be sure to remain on guard for anything unexpected while enjoying the day because life without the crutch is definitely the healthier lifestyle and so worth any rough patches to be free of the slavery of the nicotine poison. 

Marilyn 716 DOF

I was up and out of the house by 6:10 this morning and back with Mason by quarter after 7 gave him breakfast and he got cleaned up and dressed, I guess he still has to brush his teeth but right now he's in my room relaxing and watching cartoons. I got the dishes done and a load of laundry on so I thought I'd get on site for a few minutes and wish you all a wonderful smoke free day because life is so much better without the crutch of smoking and now I can actually function on a few sips of coffee instead of three cups and 5 or 6 cigarettes later and nearly horking up a lung or both and an hour later with another coffee and a cigarette in hand then jump in the car still half a sleep sucking on a disgusting cancer stick. I am sooooooo very happy that I am nearly two years smoke free and loving it, if I can quit after 40 yrs and there's quite a few on this site that have 45 and 50 yrs of smoking that are enjoying their forever quits N.O.P.E works when we apply it on a daily basis and reaping the benefits is awesome, be willing, determined and totally committed to quit and remain quit and once you get through the roller coaster ups and downs of withdrawals and mood swings to get to that good place in your quit, you will never want to go back to the slavery of cigarettes ,smoking kills and quitting can save you from dying a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related so let's always remain vigilant and protect our beautiful quits while enjoying our freedom. 

Marilyn 715 DOF 

I probably won't be around in the mornings starting tomorrow since I will be getting up about 5: 30 Tuesdays thru Fridays throughout the summer to watch my grandson Mason, so his Dad can go to work since my daughter works straight nights. I will probably wake him up around 7 or so and bring him over here, I expect to take him swimming each day at the public pool, there's a splash pad and park as well, I took him there when I watched him last summer for a couple of days a week. I will try to get on sometime throughout the afternoon or evenings but my friends and fellow Exers believe me when I say that my quit is safe and secure because I protect it with my life because my life is depending on me remaining vigilant each and every day which I am because I love my freedom from the dreaded cancer sticks, so always remain vigilant in your quits my fellow Exers ● 

N.O.P.E - means Not One Puff Ever - I thought I should explain this mantra just in case someone is hiding in the shadows reading this and wondering what it means and if you are out there and are thinking about quitting smoking, you are in the right place because there's a wealth of information here to help you quit and to remain quit, read everything you can because quitting smoking is definitely difficult but absolutely doable and absolutely worth it to be free. In the first few weeks and months of my quit I blogged at least twice a day and there was always someone here to help me through the rough patches and I also read jonescarps aka dales page concerning the first 4 months of a quit which really helped me understand what to expect to get through the roller coaster ups and downs and yay it's so worth it and another thing that worked for me that a couple of elders suggested was laughter, watching comedy on you tube or TV which I did alot which is a great way to get the dopamine naturally through laughing  so quit if you haven't yet or keep moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom if you're struggling because it's going to get easier and easier as time goes on. 

Marilyn 714 Days of freedom 

I slept in this sunshiny morning and am sipping on my second coffee getting ready for the oldest grandson Adam, my hubby said he'd pick him up for me so I will get woke up and cook him a half lb of bacon and a couple of eggs and some homemade toast and later on this morning we'll take him over to my daughters for the rest of the day. Let's remember to protect our precious quits while enjoying the day today even if you woke up feeling off, take a deep breath and know that you will get through this day and this evening you can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON. 

Marilyn 713 DOF 

Marilyn.H.July.14.14.

Morning!

Posted by Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Jun 25, 2016

It's going to get into the low 90's here in Eastern Canada which is super fantastic because once it gets that hot I plan on relaxing in my patio area on my swing and possibly barbecue some pork chops and have a toss salad and once I shut down my tablet, I'm going to do up a potato salad as well and doing these kind of things almost two years ago would mean smoke breaks every half hour or so just because of habit mostly, definitely addiction but it was habit too .I got thinking about my smoking days and am so thankful that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies ( cigarettes ) away and if you haven't quit yet now is the time or if you are struggling hang on tight because relapsing isn't an option, your health, family and even your wallet need for you to plow through the rough patches because believe it or not , your quit is going to get easier each day but you must remember that smoking for decades upon decades with the highly addictive nicotine poison and all those yrs of habitually lighting up whenever and wherever and however we wanted now you must relearn life on lifes terms without the crutch, it's definitely uncomfortable and hair pulling at times but it's so worth it to be free, I smoked for 40 yrs and I am almost to the 2 yr milestone and until I was willing, determined and totally committed to quitting I never lasted for more than a couple of months but when I found out that I have copd then I made the plan and found this site with all of you and put my heart and soul into this quit so quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals and roller coaster ups and downs. If I can succeed and so many others in this Ex community have successfully quit so can you, Victory is yours, hang tough .

Marilyn712 DOF

Starting on Tuesday, I will be getting up no later than 5:40 Tuesday thru Friday to drive over to my daughters so her man can go to work because she works straight nights, he leaves at 6:30 and she doesn't get home until 8:30 so I'll probably wake Mason up around 8 and bring him over here. So I might not get on site every morning Like I have been but I will try to get on sometime throughout the day but I can guarantee you that smoking isn't even a blimp on my radar because I don't do that anymore and I value my quit more than life itself and the reality is that my life depends on me remaining smoke free, this site has taught me how to live without the crutch of cigarettes and I hope everyone in the shadows reading this will pick a quit date and read everything you can about quitting smoking and stop playing Russian Roulette with your life, these mantras that I have learned here works N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever will give you a beautiful smoke free life - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and if you have been quit awhile - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of your quit because day one again wwould really suck so instead keep moving forward and at the end of each day smile because another day has been WON, so keep them away from your face because quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals and roller coaster ups and downs to keep you from dying a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related, I have been a Happy quitter for quite some time and it's wonderful to be free after 40 yrs of slavery to the dreaded cancer sticks!  

Marilyn 711 DOF 

I remember back in the first few months of my quit how lifes stressers was really difficult to get through without thinking about having just one cigarette but thankfully I never had that one because if I did I doubt that I would be here right now because one probably would have screwed me up for quite some time. Believe it or not, it takes time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch of smoking but it's absolutely wonderful when it does . Thank you everyone for your prayers for my daughter and her man and their son my little Mason, my Mack Attack, they're back together and they are ok, I never asked what happened and it doesn't matter as long as they're all ok, Mason said awhile ago on the phone that he really missed his Dad, I talked to Jason and my daughter Mandy and told them all how much I love them. I am to a point in my quit that no matter what I will not screw up my quit and smoking never entered my mind other than thinking about how happy I am that I don't smoke anymore and each one of you here that's struggling please know that it's going to get easier and easier as time goes by, read jonescarps aka dales page concerning the first 4 months of your quit , I read Dales page many times when I was having rough times and wanted to scream or rip your face off or tear my hair out by the roots and some days I might blog 2 or 3 times a day and there was always someone here to help me through ,stay close and know that quitting smoking and remaining quit is absolutely doable and absolutely worth it to be FREE! 

Marilyn 710 DOF 

Once we realize that things whether they're good or bad  happen to non smokers as well as smokers and people like us that have quit, so relapsing isn't even an option to me . Dealing with lifes stressers without the crutch definitely takes time but we must know that smoking only adds to the situation, last night at quarter to 10 my daughter called her and her man got in a huge fight he left and she had to go to work ,my poor grandson Mason who is 7 yrs old was hysterical in the background so I drove over to pick him up, my daughter smokes but cigarettes was the farthest thing on my mind so I got there and hugged Mandy and gathered up Mason . Once I got back here and snuggled with my little buddy and got him settled, I was thinking that no matter what is happening that I have learned how to deal with life on lifes terms and so can you. In the first couple of months of my quit so much sh#t happened including a very good friend that died of cancer and half a dozen people smoking outside the funeral home and I knew these people so I stopped and talked a minute, what I really wanted to do was bum a smoke but I chose not to because my quit was and still is the most important thing in my life because I want to be around for awhile for my family especially my grandchildren. Mason is still sleeping, I figured he needed his sleep more than going to school today besides tommorrow is the last day. I pray that my daughter and her man Jason will patch things up but when Mandy called a few minutes ago she didn't know but my friends and fellow Exers life is what it is and you and I have a choice in what we do in all situations and I will always remain vigilant and continue to choose not to smoke because smoking is off the table I am an Ex smoker and I have figured out how much better life is without the horrid cancer sticks so please keep on stacking up your precious days of freedom. 

Marilyn 710 DOF 

My husband reminds me every Wednesday that it's another Hump Day at noon, especially in the Spring and Summer because he loves yard work and gardening, doing outside projects so he is ready to tackle the wk end. So I'm hoping that each of you will enjoy the day and if you are having a rough one please hang on tight, find something to distract yourself, if you are able get out for a walk, keep your mind as well as your hands occupied, do whatever it takes but keep moving forward and stacking up your precious smoke free days because relapsing isn't an option because your health will suffer because smoking literally takes your breath away and eventually your life, N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever - really works when we apply it on a daily basis because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - so let's - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of our quits because there's no reason on the face of this earth that's good enough to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit so let's always remain vigilant while living a life of freedom from the horrid cancer sticks and this let's smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON. ☆

Marilyn 709 DOF 

I am quite late getting on site this morning, I never thought to mention yesterday that I had a 12 hr fast to get blood work this morning. I was out of the house at 6 : 40 am with a thermos of coffee and my Tim Hortons cup ready to pour myself a coffee afterwards and then I stopped into my Dad's on my way home. I found for me that around the 6 month mark of quitting that I could function after a few sips of coffee and take a drive or do whatever in 15 minutes of waking up instead of 5 or 6 cigarettes and three coffees later finally dragging myself coughing and gagging to go and do whatever. There's so many positives to quitting smoking but each one of us must get to the point that we know that we're not invincible and that it's time to quit playing Russian Roulette with our lives, I quit for health reasons after 40 yrs of smoking, cold turkey was my preference and thankfully I had all of you here on this site to help me through the roller coaster ups and downs but yay when I finally reached that good place in my quit because there's no going back because relapsing is definitely not an option. 

Marilyn 708 DOF 

We made it clear up to 87 degrees here yesterday and will again today, so I'm going to get outside early and get a couple of hrs of mowing in right quick. Schools are out here at noon on Friday and next Monday for the summer at least I will be getting up at 5 : 30 to drive over to my daughters to watch Mason so his Dad can go to work, my daughter works the graveyard shift 11 to 7 : 30 so I will bring Mason over here for the day and take him back home around 4. He is pretty happy about that, I am a little nervous about getting up that early because I sleep like crap most nights and usually am more tired when I wake up then when I go to bed but I want to be able to do this so my fingers and toes are crossed so Lord willing this old broad will be able to watch my little Mack Attack. Thankfully I don't need an hour to get woke up anymore, 6 cigs later and 3 coffee and maybe just maybe I would be able to function, now that I am an Exer I can function after 15 minutes which is super fantastic ,that's just one plus of being smoke free and if you stop and think about it everything is a major plus, there's not one negative thing about quitting everything is positive, if you haven't been quit long enough to reap all of the positives and you think I'm nuts, please keep moving forward in your quit, give it 3 or even 4 months to realize how much better life is without the crutch of smoking.

Marilyn 707 DOF 

Our administrater's enginer found my missing blog from the other day, I just happened to notice it last night that was in tact and I am happy to report that I finally figured out how to copy and paste yay for me, many of you have tried to help me but this blog fr the 17th really frustrated me and Giulia's comment got me trying again so thank you, no matter how stressed or frustrated we get over things, remember that smoking is absolutely the last thing that we need to reach for because once we quit - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - after decades of smoking we relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch. it definitely takes time but anything worth having in life takes time so continue moving forward and stacking up your precious days of freedom, give your quit your all and start living a life of freedom, I know that today is bitter sweet for some of you without your Dad's, it was hard for me on Mother's day but I am fortunate enough to still have my Dad and he is very happy that I am heading for two years of smoke free living in July and I know that Mom would be very proud of me too, beating this addiction is doable and getting rid of the habit is also very doable but it's absolutely worth it to be free from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison. 

Marilyn 706 DOF 

We are finally going to have gorgeous wk end weather, in the mid 70's today which for me is perfect and the mid 80's tomorrow for Father's Day, I took my Dad out on Thursday and we had a wonderful day, I bought him lunch at a great restaurant we both like, then we enjoyed sundaes at Dairy Queen, so tomorrow I will pamper my husband, he's not the father of my children, anyone can father a child but he is their Dad and a great one at that and both my daughter and son love him and will be here. Enough of my rambling, time to quit smoking if you haven't yet or if you are struggling hang on tight and keep moving forward because quitting smoking is definitely difficult to say the least but it's also absolutely doable, so give your quit your all and if you do give it everything that you have then you will succeed in living a wonderful smoke free life. I know that sounds really simple reading it but by the third or fourth week of quitting smoking, hopefully by then you should be realizing that quitting smoking was and is the best decision that you have ever made for yourself, your health, family and even your wallet will all reap the benefits of your precious quit. I don't know if this blog makes any sense to you, but the bottom line is this quit smoking now before a doctor says it's too late ........

Marilyn 705 DOF 

Boys that's EXtremely frustrating when you put lots of thought and effort into a blog and the stupid thing doesn't post and this morning only three words of the tag line posted, yikes that really po'd me this morning but I promise that I won't smoke over it or anything else that's happening, anyway I totally lost my train of thought this morning other than this, give your quit your all, how can you fail if you give it everything that you have ,if you want something bad enough and you're willing, determined and totally committed then go for it because you can and will be successful, so give your quit your all. N.O.P.E - means Not One Puff Ever - S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and if you have been done smoking for awhile - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of your quit, get ready for bed tonight smiling because another day has been WON,

Marilyn 704 DOF 

It's Father's Day weekend already, I spent the day with my Dad yesterday and took him out for a Father's Day lunch and we decided to have dessert at Dairy Queen, so we each enjoyed a Sunday on a Thursday, ha, ha, I know for some of you Father's Day is bitter sweet because your Dad's aren't here anymore. I lost my Mom four and a half yrs ago and I find Mom's Day hard with lots of memories good and bad but through it all protecting our quits is vital and I know that my mom would be very proud of me and my quit, so my friends and fellow Exers, if you are having a rough time with cravings and urges, keep moving forward and keep your mind as well as your hands occupied and know that you will get through the day , one minute or even one second at a time but you can and will be successful, give your quit your all, how can you fail if you give it everything that you have, you can do this. N.O.P.E - means Not One Puff Ever - because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - and if you have been done smoking for awhile - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early days of your quit, I know for me I will never ever, ever go back to day one, no way no how but at the end of each day you and I can smile and say YAY ANOTHER DAY WON.  Quitting smoking is difficult to say the least but I really don't want to see anyone suffering from health issues, cancer or having to breathe by an oxygen machine. Quitting smoking won't kill you, it's definitely uncomfortable or downright miserable the first few weeks but it's absolutely worth it, continuing to smoke is basically suicidal. Please quit playing Russian Roulette, it's time to take back your life while you canand live a life without the crutch. 

Marilyn 704 DOF 

Whew, I've been up since before 7 o'clock and it's going on 10 now. My phone has been ringing most of the morning but finally I think I can do a short blog, now as always if you're struggling with your quit, chin up, hang on tight and get through the rough patches because N.O.P.E - Not One Puff Ever will give you a beautiful smoke free life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, life is just way too short to slowly kill ourselves sucking on a disgusting cancer stick so know that it's going to take some time to relearn different ways of handling situations without the crutch and tonight when you're getting ready for bed, you can say YAY another day WON. 

Marilyn 703 DOF 

The sun is supposed to peek through today which will be a shock since we haven't really seen it in the last couple of wks or so but over the next few days it's going to get warmer and warmer and downright hot by Father's Day, yay because I want to get outside and enjoy some summer but I have learned here and have EXperienced it myself so I am on guard because after all of this dark dreary weather I may or may not EXperience a moment of Aaah just one would be really nice sitting here in the patio area on the swing because the sun is shining so come on just one!!!!! ----- I know because thankfully this site has warned me that my mind will play tricks to get me to have one but I know that one single Puff would royally screw up my perfectly beautiful quit so let's always remain vigilant because we all know smoking kills and it only takes a split second to relapse and relapsing is a choice so complacency is not an option but Freedom from the horrid cancer sticks is definitely what we're going to keep because this evening will be another day WON! 

Marilyn 702 DOF 

Today is 23 months since quitting smoking, for anyone reading this don't you think it's about time to make this your precious forever quit while you are still vertical, I honestly look back at my life the last couple of yrs while I was still smoking and can see the signs of copd, but in my stupidity thinking I was fine and was totally invincible that smoking problems happen to other people but not me, talk about being in denial. Thank goodness that my husband Mark saw his doctor and had chest xrays and a wk later was called to have another one with the markers on the nipples to avoid any shadows, so we were told but we were getting nervous because my hubby coughed and hacked so bad at night that I would lay awake making sure he caught his breath, anyway we got another call for him to have a cat scan by the time he saw the doctor he was quit for a month and found out he had the beginning of emphysema whoo Hoo, now he's been done for over two yrs, quitting is difficult but anything worth having in life is very doable. Me in my stupidity kept on smoking outside of course because neither of us smoked inside for well over 10 yrs maybe longer, thankfully I had an appointment with a specialist that didn't like the sound of my lungs and set up a breathing test which showed mild Copd which shocked me and scared me into realizing that I wasn't invincible, my husband smoked 42 yrs, I smoked for 40, many people here have smoked for 50 or more and the one thing that we all have in common is we have quit smoking and remain vigilant while enjoying our freedom, if we can do it anybody can and it's so worth it, so now is the time to take back your life because your life is literally is in your hands. 

Marilyn 701 DOF 

I hope that everyone had a decent wk end but most of all, If you were struggling with your quit that you stuck with it and are still with us this morning because life is way too short to knowingly, slowly killing ourselves sucking on the disgusting cancer sticks. We all know people that haven't quit and it's too late for them, so if you haven't made the decision to do so, maybe the time is now.Within the next few weeks or months I will be going to another funeral that nicotine had a huge hand in. We're not invincible and our lives matter so toss the sickening yakies  (cigarettes) away because there's definitely life after them and I know for me I will have 23 months in tommorrow and this site has been a huge part of my success, I really don't know if I would've made it through if it wasn't for all of you so THANK YOU MY FRIENDS AND FELLOW EXERS ● 

Marilyn 700 precious days of freedom and counting ●

We have no control over what's happening in the world like the tragedy in Orlando but we have complete control over our lives!!!

Yesterday was a beautiful sunny day with temps reaching the low seventies which was perfect for the hr and a half drive my Dad and I took to visit my sister at the rehabilitation hospital, she's doing great for everything she's gone through but she's a tough 52 yr old broad. She quit smoking 5 yrs ago on the 13th of February and smoking has not even entered her mind because as she said. she's doesn't need anymore problems in her life and thankfully she is an Ex smoker that just had  spinal cord surgery because I  bet the healing process was so much better especially for emergency surgery. If you haven't already quit make a decision and pick a quit date and read everything you can about quitting smoking and remaining quit, there's a wealth of information here to strengthen your resolve to take back your life while you can and if you have quit, hang on tight because the roller coaster ride will come to an end and you will realize how much better life is without the crutch. 

Marilyn 699 DOF 

I know that quitting smoking is doable but before I had my health scare back in the middle of June /14, I never thought that I could quit, I don't really think I really wanted to or I would've succeeded in one of the many attempts that I half heartedly tried and since then I've learned trying won't work but doing does .Once I learned I have copd, that scared me into reality because I realized that I'm not invincible, that if I didn't quit smoking, I most likely would end up on oxygen or worse Cancer either way would be a horrible death and I wasn't going to put my family through that so I got on my tablet looking for sites that could help me and I found this site, picked a quit date, read some blogs and never got back on until the date a couple of wks later but I wasn't ready so I reset it for the 14th of July /14, and again I never got back on until 18 days into my quit, I was ready to relapse or rip my hair or possibly rip someone's face off, then I remembered this site and thank goodness I did. I was reading and decided to comment on a blog and I believe it was Moody that suggested I write a blog and tell them a little bit about myself so I did and here I am 698 splendiferous smoke free days later and still counting, so I know after 40 yrs of smoking that quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals, mood swings and the roller coaster ups and downs because every bit of it only lasts for a few wks and the freedom we get will last for the rest of our lives, breathing is essential to living so hang on tight to your quit because Victory is right around the corner. 

Marilyn 

I was up before 6 this morning so I could get hubby to stir up a batch of bread for me, my hands especially my thumbs and pointer fingers  are right full of osteoarthritis. I could and do stir  it myself if we're right out of bread but I prefer not to, my Dad and I are going to visit my sister tommorrow at the rehabilitation hospital an hr and a half away and Sunday the oldest grandson Adam will be here. I mowed the lawn for almost 2 hrs yesterday afternoon so my husband Mark could do other things this wk end. Speaking of the wk end my friends and fellow Exers, let's be EXtra careful not to become complacent and lazy in our quits, we all know that it only takes a split second to screw up a perfectly beautiful forever quit N.O.P.E works when we apply it to each and every day because S.I.N.A.O - we must Never Ever Forget the early days and wks of our quits because there's no reason on the face of this earth that's good enough to ever have to go back to day one instead each evening when we are getting ready for bed let's smile and say another day WON, smoking kills in the most painful and agonizing way so let's be smart and hang on tight because it's so very doable and freedom is awesome, Have a great day.......

Marilyn 697 DOF 

Thanks for the comments on this mornings blog, a big part of the problem with the shortage of Dr's here in my region of New Brunswick is many of them are at retirement age and most of the younger docs aren't interested in settling down in the rural areas, plus there's not much here and alot of people have left for Western Canada, mind you alot have come back because of the wild fires especially the one that was in Fort McMurray, thankfully that is under control but I love my life in my little neck of the woods especially since quitting smoking. I found out today that the questions I had to answer about having the MRI on my back aren't standard and I may not be able to even have an MRI because I have a face full of titanium metal from jaw surgery back in 2001, I have 8 screws 4 plates and a hook and an eye in my jaw, I had my jaw broke in 6 different places and screwed back together and was wired shut for 2 wks. The surgery was for several reasons but yay it worked it, but being a dunce I waited for the alotted time that I shouldn't smoke and went right back to smoking until I finally wised up nearly 23 months ago,if you haven't quit yet now is the time to take back your life while you can and if you are struggling hang tough and hang on tight because it's definitely going to take some time but it's going to get easier as time goes on so keep stacking up your precious days of freedom. N.O.P.E - NOT One Puff Ever will give you a beautiful smoke free life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option. 

Marilyn 

It is 48 ° F now at almost 8 am, my husband started a small fire when he got up at 5 o'clock the temp was 39 brrrrrrr, I have a doctors appointment at 10 and I really hope that the wait won't be 2 and a half hrs or longer this morning. I would cancel but with so many Dr's leaving the province, he has taken on so many more patient's that he forgot to put in my blood work when I saw him May 6th which wasn't a big deal but I have two bulging disc's in my lumbar area L4 and L5 which showed up on my cat scan back in March for my stomach but also shows my spine and he didn't even mention that in April another doc mentioned it in April which when he told me I was surprised because I was seeing him for the diverticulosis and itis and seeing about the colonoscopy which I'm still waiting for, my doc along with many others are way overworked. We just don't have enough of them, mine told me that he sees between 40 and 50 patients a day which is way too many in my opinion, if he's screwing up with me then he is probably screwing up with other patients,he's been my doctor for well over 20 yrs so I thought I'd let him know that on the 25th of May I finally reached his office because I knew for sure that he didn't put in for the blood work or for the MRI, one secretary said that they couldn't put in for the MRI until a few questions were answered so finally June 3rd , I got the call so maybe in 9 or 10 months I will be lucky enough to get that done. I just wanted to tell my doctor about this because I doubt he even knows that he forgot, whew enough of my rambling on but you know I will not smoke over this or the weather because it's another dank, dreary, drab, dismal drisslie day but hey I'm alive and enjoying my coffee and rambling on to you my friends and fellow Exers so life is grand without a cigarette in hand. 

Marilyn 696 DOF 

IIt's another dark, dank, dreary, drab, dismal day here in the Maritimes but hey on the bright side we are getting the much needed rain that we've been whining about and on another good note it's not snow, plus on Saturday the sun might shine which is great because I plan on going to see my sister Marion at the rehabilitation hospital an hr and a half away with my Dad so no matter the weather or anything else that's happening in our lives, let's be sure to remain vigilant each and every day because our health is so much more important than the nicotine poison, quitting smoking is absolutely doable and absolutely worth all of the withdrawals and roller coaster ups and downs of mood swings to get over the Hump and into a much better place in our quits so keep moving forward, believe in yourself continue to be willing, determined and totally committed to succeed and you can and will be successful in your precious quit there's a wealth of information here so if you are struggling, get on here and blog help before you head out to the grocery store to buy a pk of the you know what? -  read, read and read some more, go to jonescarps aka dales page concerning what to expect from the first four months of your quit, there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic, you can and will be an Ex Smoker, keep stacking up your precious days of freedom - N.O.P.E - NOT One Puff Ever will give you a beautiful smoke free life .

Marilyn 695D

Whether we smoke or not, life happens so in order to protect our precious quits we must remember why we quit smoking in the first place. I know that for me, my health is extremely important to me so knowing that I have copd the Last thing I want to do is suck on a killer cancer stick knowing that this addiction is sooooooo powerful that just one would have me smoking on a daily basis again and before long I would probably be on an oxygen machine and planning my funeral but that's not going to happen to me because I will always remain vigilant and protect my quit with my life because my life is depending on me and so is my family and friends but most of all my grandchildren wants Gram to be around for awhile, so NO day ONE again ONLY DAYS WON.  So if you are struggling hang tough and hang on tight because it's definitely going to take some time but it's going to get easier, there's always going to be problems and stress in our lives and to relapse would be EXtremely stressful let alone EXpensive. N.E.F - Never Ever Forget your first few days and weeks of your quit and please know that S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option - Smoking kills and quitting can save you from a slow painful death that's most likely smoking related, keep moving forward In your quits because there's nothing but pain and anguish by going backwards to the slavery of cigarettes. 

Marilyn 694 DOF 

Well another week end has gone by and a new one has begun, I believe that the last couple of wk ends my husband Mark has worked harder here planting our garden then he does at his job all week .  We garden for the winter, everything from the potatoes that we keep in the cold room will last up until April as long as we look after them now and keep the potato bugs at bay and we don't get blight from too much rain, we pressure cook, carrots and yellow and green beens for the winter usually 36 pints each, cook and freeze the squash, turnip goes in the cold room and so on and so on. We put up 30 medium freezer bags of fiddleheads that we blanched plus we do up our own green tomato chow and lady ashburnam pickles and we make our own bread,we don't buy any store bought bread because Mark won't eat it. We or I should say mostly hubby works very hard now and we'll both make sure and weed and nurture the garden until fall and begin the work again processing everything but the hard work will pay off this winter at mealtimes and our grocery bill will also be a lot less because of the garden, it's kind of like quitting smoking, put in the effort and the time to get to that good place in your quit and reap the benefits of an Exer, your health, family and wallet will thank you.

The sun is shining today, my headache has eased up some and I am just so thankful that I don't smoke anymore because If I was still smoking, I know that I would be sucking on a disgusting cancer stick no matter how rotton I felt so I am so happy that I finally wised up and tossed the yakies away and took back my life after 40 yrs slowly trying to kill myself with the nicotine poison, remain willing, determined and totally committed to quit because you can succeed and be successful but it's going to take some time to relearn life without the crutch, believe me when I say there's life after cigarettes and it's super fantastic but if you don't believe me , please prove it for yourself but you must give it 3 months, 4 would be perfect by then you should be realizing how much better life is being an Exer because you can do anything go anywhere, anytime whenever, and however without worrying about where to find a corner somewhere outside to suck on a killer cancer stick so quit if you haven't already and if you are struggling hang on tight because you can get through this and come out the other side smiling because once you get to that good place you will never want to go back to the slavery of cigarettes. 

Marilyn 692 DOF 

I really have a horrible headache again this morning even my eyes are pulsating due to allergies which I know many of you can relate to. The only reason I mention it is to prove a point or at least it was true for me, when I smoked whether I had a terrible headache the flu or even strep throat, I would still try to smoke and most of the time succeed in sucking on the cancer stick, I find it amazing to look back and see just how powerful the addiction was and still is, I have no desire to smoke another disgusting cigarette as long as I live but I also know that I need to be on guard and remain vigilant while enjoying life without the crutch. it only takes the blink of an eye to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit, this addiction is powerful but us Exers were and are more powerful and on a daily basis let's always remember to continue to be willing, determined and totally committed to live our lives free from the slavery of the yakies  (cigarettes) - N.O.P.E works when we apply it, if you are lurking in the shadows reading this, come on out let us know that you are here, it's time to take back your life while you can and if you are struggling hang on tight because victory is right around the corner. 

Marilyn 691 DOF 

Wow, I am on 690 days of smoke free living and enjoying life which I never thought possible because I just had to have my cigarettes to wake up with in the mornings with my coffee, talking on the phone, going for a drive, on happy occasions, stressful occasions and especially the death of someone dear but thankfully I have learned that life happens whether we smoke or not and I have figured out how much better I can handle life on lifes terms without the crutch of smoking. After 40 yrs of smoking I can honestly say that I am really happy that I had my health scare finding out that I have copd otherwise I would probably be still sucking on a disgusting cancer stick not realizing that quitting smoking is definitely doable and absolutely worth it to get rid of the Yakies ( cigarettes ) come on and take the plunge and become an EX SMOKER if you haven't tried yet it's definitely difficult but very doable, if you are struggling hang on tight because victory is right around the corner I still have my days that I think, wouldn't a smoke be nice right about now? or I am so stressed maybe just one wouldn't hurt, that's when I give my head a shake and say that I don't do that anymore and continue on with whatever I am doing because just one would definitely screw up my perfectly splendiferous ongoing quit, so let's always remain vigilant and guard it with our lives because our lives depends on remaining smoke free this is our forever quits N.O.P.E works when we apply it. 

Marilyn 690 DOF 

I am wishing everyone a wonderful day today, life is good especially considering the alternative. If you are having a rough patch with your quit it's going to take some time to relearn life without the crutch of smoking but it's sooooooo very worth it to be free of the slavery of cigarettes. Many of us Exers have smoked for many decades before we wised up and decided to take back our lives while we still could, I smoked for 40 yrs and never thought in a million years that I could quit but finding out that I have copd was enough to scare the crap out of me so I found this site did some reading, picked a quit date but wasn't ready so I reset the date for a week later July 14th / 14 so on the 13th getting ready for bed I promised myself that no matter what I would never pick up another cigarette as long as I live, it wasn't easy by no means there were days that if you looked at me the wrong way I might blat like a baby or maybe I could've ripped off your face or I might want to scream and tear my hair my hair out. In the first few weeks of my quit I didn't have hardly any company because nobody wanted to be around me and most people didn't think I could quit but here I am with 689 precious smoke free days and heading straight for the two year milestone. I got busy in the beginning and forgot about this site after setting up the quit clock and on my 18th day, I didn't know if I would be able to make it through the day without a cigarette but then I remembered this site and figured out how to comment and thankfully someone mentioned that I should write a blog and tell them a little bit about myself so I did and here I am, if I can quit smoking and remain quit so can you, it's time for your forever quit N.O.P.E - NOT One Puff Ever - N.E.F - Never Ever Forget the early weeks of quitting because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, smoking kills and quitting can save you a world of pain and suffering caused by the dreaded cancer sticks. 

Marilyn 689 DOF 

Another month is upon us and another season is fast approaching and one of the things that I have learned here at Ex is to be vigilant and the change of seasons can trigger strong thoughts and memories of smoking but we must remember if these thoughts and memories seems to appear to be something that we think that just one won't hurt  (((let's be sure to give our heads a shake, No,No, No))) - our minds can play tricks on us because we all know smoking kills and quitting can save us from dying a slow painful death so therefore we must always remain steadfast in our precious hard earned quits because N.O.P.E - NOT One Puff Ever means EXactly that in order to live a beautiful smoke free life because S.I.N.A.O - Smoking Is Not An Option, Happy June everyone and happy Hump Day my friends and fellow Exers.☆

Marilyn 688 DOF ☆