I just wanted to EXpress how important it is to keep your mind as well as your hands occupied when your mind is racing in all directions whether you are thinking about a cigarette or a health issue or whatever, I believe getting busy with something to occupy your mind instead of dwelling on the issue is key , January has been a hard month, this past Saturday would have been my Moms 76th birthday, yesterday was 4 yrs since she died. She was in a nursing home for not quite 7 wks before she passed, my Dad and I went every day to see her, we both stayed for a few days at the end but I sent him home the night it happened, neither one of us knew that it was the night but my Dad was EXhausted and I was really worried about him and his health, he is 79 now. The last yr before my Mom died, she was on oxygen 7 /24. I would push her in the wheelchair and drag this oxygen tank along with us and I guess my point is that I couldn't get my mind off all of this stuff this morning so I just put on a batch of bread and tommorrow will be 4 yrs since her funeral so Dad and I have plans to tramp the roads tomorrow and eat out. While I was kneading my bread, I remembered that I had a smokemare around 1 am this morning plus I'm a recovering alcoholic so of course I had a drink in one hand and a lit cigarette in the other . I now remember waking up and thinking whew, it's only a dream but my friends let's continue on with our beautiful quit journey and enjoy our lives as Exers and let's remember to get busy when we get overwhelmed with a problem, let's get productive, one more thing I didn't even have a yr in from drinking when everything was happening with Mom but I stayed sober knowing that her and Dad were depending on me and after she died I wanted to be their for Dad and I feel the same way about my quit, I need it for me of course but my family and friends, especially my grandchildren are depending on me being around.
Marilyn
