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Marilyn.H.July.14.14. Blog

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It's definetly going to be a different 4th of July then previous years it was a different Canada Day for us here in Canada on the 1st of July BUT hopefully Lord willing life will get back to normal whatever normal is supposed to be! Anyway whatever life is tossing our way we can and must make the choice to stick with N.O.P.E ~ Not One Puff Ever & vigilance N.M.W ~ No Matter What ~ because thankfully we do have that choice to remain Smokefree or relapse back into the slavery of the damned Cancer Sticks WHEW not anymore because we don't do that anymore right!!!! Committment and perseverance works when applied on a daily basis....

Let's destress and relax a bit I'm getting on a little late this morning I was talking to my sister Cheryl in the next Province over in Nova Scotia, Mark and I were contemplating taking a 4 or 5 day vacation into N.S because we've got a Province bubble that opened up today between the 4 Maritime Provinces N.B, NS, PEI AND NFLD but hummmmm I'm not sure if I'm ready yet and she's nervous for me so I think I'll talk to Mark and stay within NB, it's just too screwy with questionnaires and proof of this and proof of that whew enough of that sorry. Pull up a chair and enjoy a virtual coffee and an all day breakfast plus a small lunch buffet, let's just kick back and take a few deep breaths and enjoy each other on this July 3rd Friday let's CELEBRATE our Freedom from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison whether you're on day one or three thousand and one as long as we choose to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W then we'll remain Smokefree....

I'm just beside myself with what's happening around the world with the surge of Covid 19 cases in certain areas it's heartbreaking BUT unfortunately it's completely out of my hands other than doing the things I need to here in NB to hopefully keep the surge away by washing my hands, wearing a mask if I can't social distance whether I'm outside or inside to protect the people around me and I must WE must nurture and protect our quits because the last thing we need is to throw our hands up in the air and screw up our precious quits we must choose to remain Smokefree because Relapsing just isn't the answer NOT when our lives literally depends on us because breathing is essential to living and thankfully with vigilance we can and will remain Smokefree N.M.W....

This is most definetly a different kind of Canada Day than usual and it's definetly going to be a different kind of July 4th for you in the States BUT we can still CELEBRATE it's just going to be EXtremely different BUT we can handle different AND we can AND will perservere through these unprecedented times PLUS we will continue stacking up our precious DOF ~ Days Of Freedom so each evening we can look ourselves in the mirror and say YAY for another Day WON besides relapsing isn't an option anymore anyway right! By sticking with our precious quits ~ N.M.W ~ No Matter What ~ there's absolutely no way any of will FAIL......

Happy Canada Day to my Canadian friends here at Ex.

Choosing to stick with our precious quits will keep us Free....

I've said many times before and I'll say it again that the older I get the faster time goes I'd really like it to slow down just a little bit in the Spring, Summer and Fall  and Speed up in the Winter especially for us folks that live in the snowbelts BUT I know realistically that's not going to happen anymore than my age is going to stand still or better yet go backwards several years when I was much healthier LOL I know that ain't happening either BUT at least we've got complete control over whether we smoke or NOT! We've got the CHOICE to either quit smoking NOW while the CHOICE is still ours and NOT by a Dr telling us to go home and get get our affairs in order that there's nothing that can be done all because we waited too long to quit smoking WHEW thankfully that doesn't need to happen because we've got the CHOICE to quit and remain quit it's definetly a journey that we all must take AND I want us all to take it while we're still on this side of the grass! The best part of quitting smoking is as horrid it can be in those early weeks  it's also very DOABLE If you were to ask me if quitting smoking was easy? I'll be saying HELL NO!!!! BUT if you asked me if quitting smoking was worth it? I'll be saying HELL YES with a huge smile on my face because I know how much better life is without the damned Cancer Sticks......

N.O.P.E ~ Not One Puff Ever & Vigilance N.M.W ~ No Matter What ~ is key to remaining Smokefree & besides relapsing isn't an option anymore anyway right

I'm weary today so I'm taking a much needed ME day....

I know that when you're in the throes of horrendous cravings and moodswings and lack of sleep that you may want to throw your hands up in the air and say the HELL with your quit!!!! BUT with commitment and perseverance you can and will get through whatever comes your way, I've been there, we've all been there where you want to scream, cry, yell tear your hair out or maybe you want to rip someones face off because they looked at you the wrong way! Oh my gosh I felt like it many times in my early weeks, no one wanted to be around ME not even my grown children BUT my grandchildren were safe with ME they were and still are my main incentive to remain Smokefree because I wanted AND still want the best quality of LIFE possible to enjoy the little things in LIFE that's actually the the big things in LIFE, you may NOT believe what I'm telling you BUT if you stick with your quit journey AND don't give in to the craves THEN you'll get through the roller coaster ups and downs and you'll see for yourself JUST how much better life is as an EX Smoker Non Smoker or EXer it doesn't matter what you call it as long as you are remain Smokefree.....

It was my daughter Mandy's 42nd birthday yesterday so I spent the day with her and Mason knowing that I'd be hanging out with Mason at a place that has a huge pool and a hot tub while Mandy took a friend of hers shopping anyway to make a long story short Mandy hardly ever drinks and thankfully she doesn't drink and drive asked me to be her designated driver so I was, anyway they both smoked and drank beer while Mason was having a blast in the pool. I know how much Mandy appreciated me doing that for her by the way the friend she took shopping lost his license due to impaired driving almost a year ago anyway I'm so thankful that I am a recovering alcoholic heading for 10 years of Sobriety in February and I'm very close to my 6 years of Smobriety in July, I have to admit that it was awkward being around the alcohol and cigarettes BUT no way am I ever going backwards because LIFE really is Grand without an alcoholic drink or one of those cigarettes in Hand there's absolutely no reason on the face of this earth that's good enough to screw up a perfectly beautiful quit! Our lives are worth so much more than relapsing back into the slavery of addiction that we've worked so hard to break VIGILANCE IS KEY TO REMAINING SMOKEFREE..... And also for ME ALCOHOL FREE .....

As long as we continue to choose to stick with N.O.P.E ~ Not One Puff Ever and vigilance N.M.W ~ No Matter What then we'll continue to live a Smokefree Life as difficult  as it is in those early weeks of quitting smoking it's absolutely worth it all to be able to go anywhere anytime whenever wherever and however without wondering where to sneak off to suck on a damned Cancer Stick!

Once we bite that bullet and take back our lives from the clutches of the dreaded nicotine poison we must choose to stick with N.O.P.E ~ Not One Puff Ever and vigilance N.M.W ~ No Matter What ~ because there's just no other way to remain Smokefree, it's definetly the best choice any of us will ever make in our lifetime and it's absolutely the best gift that any of us will ever give ourselves which is the  GIFT OF LIFE....

It feels like I just posted a blog that said it was the last Hump Day of May hummmm! YIKES well LIFE is zooming right along and our friend our Hump Day Camel George and I want to wish each of you reading this a Stressfree hasslefree BUT most importantly a Smokefree Day because our QUITS are VITAL to our quality of LIFE breathing is essential to LIVING and as long as we choose to stick with N.O.P.E and vigilance N.M.W then there's absolutely no way any of will FAIL let's always remember and N.E.F~Never Ever Forget those horrid smoking days UGH I remember sitting outside in all kinds of weather especially the frigid temps of Winter trying to suck on a damned Cancer Stick coughing and choking and nearly horking up a lung or possibly even both BUT thankfully not anymore because I don't do that anymore and neither do any of you RIGHT! 

The light may only be a flicker BUT it's there, keep following it because it's going to get brighter BUT if you're in the early days and weeks of quitting smoking it's probably going to take some time BUT it's going to be worth all of the withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep BUT once you get through the roller coaster of ups and downs you'll realize for yourself JUST how much better life is so hang on tight to the best gift that you'll ever give yourself which is the gift of LIFE.....

No matter how tough things get, no matter how much you want to scream or tear your hair out or no matter how badly you want to rip someone's face off or you think that you might crawl out of your skin all of these things will pass although you may NOT feel like it will at the moment! Don't take my word for it JUST hang on tight to your quit and don't let go of the BEST GIFT that you'll ever give yourself which is the gift of LIFE believe it or NOT the longer you're quit the easier it will get and once you get to that good place in your quit you'll be so glad that you stuck with your precious quit journey......

My hubby Mark and I got together just before my son turned 6, he's now 37 and my daughter was 9, she'll be 42 next Friday  I was 29 and Mark was 31 when we started dating it was 7 years before we finally got married he also was married once before he hasn't any biological children BUT he's a wonderful father and grandfather, he's been there through all of the bad times as well as the good and the kids & grandkids will be here today to celebrate Mark PLUS they'll see there bio Dad as well, I was 16 the first time I got married which was pretty young BUT I stuck with it for 13 years anyway that's enough rambling this morning, let's CELEBRATE Freedom and let's CELEBRATE living a Smokefree Life because as long as we choose to stick with N.O.P.E ~ Not One Puff Ever  and vigilance N.M.W ~ No Matter What ~THEN we'll continue to reap the benefits of LIFE without the damned Cancer Sticks it's the BEST GIFT that we'll ever give ourselves which is the GIFT OF LIFE.....

I'm very blessed to still have my Dad to visit and to enjoy quality time together I took this pic about a month ago he's a pretty handsome 83 year old.  

Here's a pic of Mark and I yesterday afternoon.....

Keep moving forward stacking up those precious DOF~Days Of Freedom so each evening you can say YAY for another Day WON.....

Anything in this life worth having takes committment, perseverance lots of time effort and a ton of patience and I believe that quitting smoking is 101 % worth every bit of the withdrawals and moodswings and lack of sleep that I went through and that any of us will go through to get to that good place in our quit where we realize just how much better my life was and is BUT for ME it took a  half dozen half assed attempts at quitting smoking and thinking that I probably would never quit and just couldn't quit, little did I realize that finding out that I have mild copd would be EXactly what I needed to wise up AND realize that I wasn't invincible that I could end up on oxygen 7/24 AND possibly die a slow painful death that most likely would be smoking related so I got on line and found this site AND to make a very long story shorter here I am headed for 6 splendiferous Smokefree years on the 14th of July, if you ask me if quitting smoking was easy? I'll be saying HELL NO!!!! BUT if you ask me if quitting smoking was worth it? I'll be saying HELL YES!!!!! Isn't our lives worth a few weeks of feeling like your crawling out of your skin knowing that it's going to get easier and easier with time under your belt? Once I stopped to think about how decades I smoked which for me was 40 years  of smoking roughly 30 a day THEN it made perfect sense that it was bound to take time to relearn life without the smokes because every blessed thing we did was wrapped around them as long as you keep moving forward stacking up those precious Days Of Freedom there's absolutely no way any of will FAIL.....It sure as HELL wasn't easy at times BUT it sure is worth it to be Free.....

Well gosh golly.....