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Ugh....so I chopped all my hair off and even quit coloring it. The new avatar pic I have was before the chop....before Covid. Back to growing out again now. Takes 2 years for me....then I'll go chop it off again, just because. So I put up my last year pic to remind me, yeah, kinda wish I didn't cut it all off...but it will grow..... I can go back to it if I choose to.

 

Got me to thinking.......Im not sure , If I was still a smoker, how I would be dealing with Covid and ciggs.  I am home alot more now. ALOT more. I have stayed fairly busy with things, sorta like when I quit smoking, Keeping my hands busy. 

I cook more these days....and change the rooms around, alot. Just because. Kinda a prank on Pete, to see if he will notice. He does.

 

He notices other things though now as well. I smell better, my truck smells better, theres no lingering aroma outside when he comes to join me on the patio. I have saved ALOT of money and even got a new Mandolin out it it and then some....I have not had bronchitis since I quit in 2014. Thats huge for me. I used to get it like clockwork every year.

 

Yes, things around me are changing, but they always were. I just am noticing it more now. Will life ever go back to how it was, will I ever smoke.???....( I hope not....as far as the smoking). Smoking is another choice I could go back to, but I choose not to.

 

 As far as life, well thats the beauty of life....Life is always changing daily, so its never going to be the 'same'. We have to learn lessons each day and be grateful for the good ones we get and quit hanging onto the memories that don't lift us up...because they are just memories after all. Smoking over them will not make them change, if you follow.

 

Its good to look back in the rearview mirror and be reminded where we were, ( Because the memories can serve as lessons) but its smarter to stay focused on the road ahead, so we don't collide with situations in life that we could avoid  or smoke over, if we just pay attention.

 

Smoking is something I used to do. I thought I was in love with it, but found out ,it was in love with me. Don't think about all the ways you miss smoking....concentrate on all the GOOD you have arrived at since you quit. When you can sincerely look back at the days you USED to smoke and recall how badly you wanted to 'quit'. This is a GOOD memory, because you have arrived, You are here. You finally found the truth....and theres this saying :

 

 The Truth Will Set You Free

I promise~it will,

Just as my hair will grow back 

 

You can't fiddle with addiction.

 

When I first practiced quitting ( because I was not really sure I wanted to or even could quit...) I had that 'Spare' hidden away where ,if all else failed....Ha...it was never enough...it seduced me and ALWAYS ruined my quit.

 

........Now ~one puff would be too much.

 

Not playing the games anymore with addiction. Not playing hide and seek anymore

N.O.P.E.  

 

You either wanna play truth or dare with Nicotine Addiction or you don't. Simple choice to make but work and commitment to put forth.

Because in the end......

 

One will never be enough and will always be too much.

 

Truth

 

 

N.0.P.E. 

                                                                               (Not One Puff Ever)

                                                                                             

Mandolinrain

Peace Challenge

Posted by Mandolinrain Jul 15, 2020

Are you restless? I have been lately. it's not daily but it is more often than not that I am just plain tired..... Tired if all the hate, the rage, the corruption, the unforgiveness, the race battles, the Covid...and well....yes life itself.

 

I am reminded of the days I was the girl who sew beads on all my jeans and shirts, painted peace signs everywhere I could....I guess I just always had this vision and wonder of " Why can't people just be nice to people, then we would all get along, after all, we all have the same God". Seriously...I said that as a young child .

So anyway, here I am now..... still feel that way. I think if I am tired of it, perhaps God is too. Okay . I said it.

 

Anyway I have certain things I do when I feel good and bad and one thing in both situations I do that brightens my spirit is to do something for someone else. Sometimes I do it anonymously. Those are the best.

 

Why am I telling you this? Because in these crazy times I think we can all use suggestions on how to lift ourselves up. I know I do. It's nobodies else's job to create our happiness, that lies in our hands. We are responsible for our own happiness.,,,and perhaps for our own misery if we allow it to consume us.

________________________PEACE CHALLENGE________________________

So I leave you today with this thought....PEACE.  I challenge you to a PEACE CHALLENGE . Heres how it works.... I wonder how many of you will do this?

1. Find one person, each day ( each day can be a different person, or even a stranger)

 

2. Do something totally unexpected for that person to make them smile, give them hope. It does not need to cost you a penny. Maybe help someone in the grocery who needs help reaching an item...or open a door for someone.....

3. Make a note each day of the peace you offered then write down each day one peaceful thing done for you by someone else.

 

Thats it. Simple. Are you game? You may be surprised how it will brighten your day. One of my friends and I are starting a community challenge called 

"Pass it to the right" . So whoever the neighbor is to your right , you basically pay it forward .

 

These days we all need a dose of peace and hope. The signs for it are held within every individual and every individual has the capacity to share this.

 

Peace to you all.

Added Bonus:

When your looking adding to Peace ~your smoking desire will decrease

 

 

 

PrimeNumberJD, I am fairly certain I got the right! Many congrats to you for an excellent quit and many more years of maintaining it in front of you!

Mandolinrain

Lemons and Lemonaide

Posted by Mandolinrain Jul 1, 2020

Some of you are aware my husbands mom passed this past Feb. It was so hard because she was an awesome woman who I had very high respect for...

 

We found out a couple hours ago now his oldest sister is not doing very well. She seems to be struggling with anorexia and is now down to 92 lbs. In a hospital and just got a pacemaker put in. 

I paint when my nerves gets to me. Its just what I do...or I write..and write and write, so forgive me for babbling.

 

Our hearts are heavy right now....so I will paint long into the night, its what I do. Hubby is asleep already. He worked from 4:30 am this morning and is whipped and now also worried about his sister.... I will stay near him and offer any support I can. He works even harden under stress.

 

One thing I know for sure I can count on prayers from all of you. Its also what we all do. Support each other. I paint. Oh man.....I am tired but I will paint. Its what I do.

 

Its a better alternative than smoking. Right now I am working on sweetplt. Its turning out fairly well I think. It keeps me mind busy. I watch a dvd sometimes as I paint or Classical music....today it was the movie WAR ROOM, which I have seen many times, Reminded me i had a WAR ROOM in the other house and perhaps its time to get one going here

 

Tomorrow. I will.

 

I should be posting complete pic of Colleen in awhile., meanwhile,....just needed to write. Not smoke.Not that I have any smokes here...I do not.. I don't plan to have any here either...but I protect my quit by coming here.

 

I highly recommend it to anyone who's feeling like life has given you a bunch of lemons. I'm trying to make lemonade but am sorta down thinking about Mary. I will be okay though. Not gonna smoke

Mandolinrain

H.A.L.T.

Posted by Mandolinrain Jul 1, 2020

Hungry-Angry-Lonley-Tired

 

Let's face it. This has been one crazy year. It has brought much stress on new quitters as well as seasoned quitters and it's not going away anytime soon.

 

Many of us have endured  personal health issues or health issues with loved ones and or friends , death of loved ones, loss of work, financial difficulties, workplace woes, anxiety, depression and the list just grows from here.

 

So I am reminding you of HALT. Because it has occurred to me that I also need it.

Yesterday I had a moment. Just a moment and I am truly fine now....really I am...but at that time I didn't see it.  Had I been new in my quit, I may have decided to throw in the towel and smoke. I didn't. I silently came here, read some posts and got a refill of sanity....and I rested.

 

The power of this site and staying active in it has rewired my brain to rethink things and bathe in the choice before I jump to conclusions. I was tired. And when this human is tired her mind floats in every direction an assumes things that are not as they are, if you follow, therefore creating in MY mind , anxious feelings of doubt and worry and wonder. Folks that is a very bad cocktail that leads to bad choices

 

So I am posting today to just remind you of HALT. Any one of these OR any combination of these, can lead to bad choices .

 

Being on this site, even if your just checking a few times a week can strengthen your amend to your victory over nicotine as well as give your the encouragement and remind you of the strength offered here, to make good choices and protect your quit.....as well as help others.

 

Yes, 2020 has been a whirlwind of a year for many of us and it's all the more reason to be on guard and rely on H.A.L.T. and this site.

 

Have a great day everyone! I know I plan too!

N.O.P.E.