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Crazy busy but not smoking!

 

Hope to have some time in near future to offer support to everyone who needs it and have more time to read blogs, meanwhile though....just popped in quick to wish everyone well , say hello and welcome all the newbies. This is a super place to be to quit and stay quit.

 

I will try to pop in when I can. This is busy summer. Stay well and protect those beautiful quits!

 

Best to all~Missy 1047 DOF

So yeah, this is the new house...still getting soaked and still awaiting a roof. Has been an extremely discouraging week and test of patience for us. We got dumped on royally today. Inside we have baby pools and buckets everywhere....thus the implication of my title...."....  choose good building supplies..." well we did but recently found out it was installed wrong....the paper stuff on the roof. Great. 

 

Same goes for you with your quit....How prepared are you? Really....did you just wake up one day or just snuff out your last smoke ,had an epiffiany and said...'I Quit'? Good luck cause many don't succeed quitting like that. Take it from an old fool like me....I choose that method way to many times. It wasn't until I smartened up and educated myself on What made the habit of smoking a habit.

 

Your best success for quitting and staying quit will rely on the effort you put into researching and truly understanding your brains receptors that have grown so attached to the smokes. Once you clearly see how the addiction developes and grows and you learn how to  gather the proper supplies and put them to use, you will be on your way to a freedom unlike one you may not have experienced in a very long time.

 

Meanwhile, lesson learned here. Roofers tacked up some more paper on roof this morning but had to stop due to storms in area. They have a plan to start the metal in the morning. Really hoping weather cooperates because we are both just sick about this. 

 

While we we don't have any control of the weather, people, places or things...

we can make better choices with our building materials....it may not take the storms away, but it just may help you get through them.

Mandolinrain

What Happens after NML

Posted by Mandolinrain Jul 7, 2017

So here you are. You have arrived. Somewhere around 130 DOF of your quit....or maybe a little sooner...or later. Your quit seems so much more manageable now. You have been through some very scary craves, moments. You have used your tools wisely and yet you have managed to stay quit.

 

AWESOME! GREAT NEWS! YOU ROCK ( really you do)! YOU HAVE DONE A TERRIFIC JOB PROTECTING YOUR QUIT! YOUR CRAVES ARE HARDLY NOTICEABLE...YOU'VE GOT THIS....RIGHT?????? Or do you........?

 

Don't cinch your saddle to tight just yet....perhaps maybe never. Never a good idea to cinch a horse to tight, they take off bucking...and so will you.

 

Keep your toolbox near you. Unexpected moments can and will still pop up. You will always need to be prepared as long as you live and breath.

 

You may feel so brave as to have an evening out with friends and share a cocktail or two or three and think to yourself that you could actually sneak a drag from your friends cigarette...I mean, after all...you are safe. You went through NML and surely one drag won't effect you.....Really????

 

NOTHING could be farther from the truth. First of all theres the shame...you had gone so far and even if you tell nobody...YOU will know.

Secondly, you just stirred the Nico~deamon. He's listening...he's waiting and now he is telling you sweet lies...." Oh come on, no one needs  know but you and I and you won't get addicted with just a few more"....Sound familiar?

 

If you have ever tried to quit before, as most of us on here have, you know what I'm talking bout. You and I are always going to be addicts to Nicotine. There is no denying it. Once we start...there we are. Square one.

 

But there is some good news after NML. I feel great. I no longer have craves....thoughts on occasion, but not really craves. I remain vigilant. I continue to protect my quit. My energy is abundant, my health improving, I can stay seated at a dinner table now with friends instead of excusing myself to go outside and freeze like an idiot just to smoke a cigarette....or anywhere for that matter. My heart is not working as hard as it once had to. I don't stink anymore. My car smells like a new car yet. Who knew??? And the list just goes on and on....

 

So what happens after NML??? You can pat yourself on the back because you have made it through the worst of the addiction and smooth sailing should prevail for the most part now. HOWEVER.....You will always need to remain vigilant. You will always need to keep a stocked toolbox and you always need to keep the light in your lighthouse lite because storms are part of life and they will come. Only now you have the experience to ride them out. You have a community here that will always care and be here for you and you have many newbies that are watching you and need your strength now.

 

Now go set sail......you have a beautiful life ahead with many many blessings just waiting to be explored as a non smoker. Your doing well my friend.

Life is good. 

 

Missy~1039 DOF

 

PS

I'd like to add, stick around and help others here as you were helped. It will continue to strengthen your quit and when your helping someone else, your own lives problems become more manageable. Blessings to you all

 

 

 

We have been SOOOOO BUSY, so I have neglected being on the site recently. I hope to get back in the loop by end of week.

 

Rain continues to dampen our house build and now the roofers are saying the metal won't be ready until Monday, UGH!!!! Very Very frustrating especially with electrical-heating-plunbing all going on. Husband is considering to shingle now just to be done with it. Needless to say, stressful times.

Im not even considering a smoke. No freakin way.

 

On the brighter side, we celebrated our grandsons first Birthday yesterday ( his birthday is really the first though). Had a great time at the lake, watched fireworks, ate to much food and boating/swimming. Cant complain and we had a wonderful day for it.

 

Then today...ugh again...AC at our currant house decided not to work. Now really I can manage, but its horrible when your trying to do packing and physical work..plus heat is not a friend to those of us with MS.

 

All said, life is good though. I am NOT smoking, so its even better. I never in a million years thought I would ever be free of the smokes...its SO worth it.

 

Happy 4th a day early and Ill stop in later this week. love and hugs to all!

~Missy

 

 

Mandolinrain

Into the Storm

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 26, 2017

We never plan to go there....but it happens.

 

This was my view out of the car window this evening as I drove home from our sons house. The closer I got to home the worse the sky was looking. I did make it home though safe and sound.

 

Storms pop in and out of our life all the time...not all weather related but still...they find a crack, a weak point to come into our life to wreak havoc.

i used to believe that smoking made those kinds of storms more manageable. Of course....it was not true. While I did get an ' instant gratification ' of relief....the storm was still ever present when I put the smoke out.

 

As you began your quit journey be ever so mindful of those storms. Realize and accept they will come, smoking or not. Imagine some storms you have already weathered and how you can place yourself differently when the next storms comes upon you because.....it is not IF the next storm comes......

Its WHEN.

 

Be safe ,mindful and take shelter as soon as you begin to feel the storm rage.

The storm, as all storms do.....will eventually pass, and so will that crave.

Take care of you.

Mandolinrain

Thought for today 6-24-17

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 24, 2017

Being PREPARED..... will make all the difference

Getting to the point now in our build where things are getting wired. Never realized how much work was involved to get to this point. Had to walk through each room with our builder and decide where to put switches, lighting, outlets, yada yada yada....and I am burnt out....thats just the tip of the iceberg of all going on.

 

In a quit there also comes a time where you will add electric so to speak. its a time when you are getting all your wires in place so that when switches get flipped, you are prepared to illuminate and not flicker or waiver. Your solid. You know why your quitting and your not allowing anything to short circuit your decision...there will be no flickering for you. It does not matter what others say, your mind is made up and no wires are crossed. 

 

Okay, so not my best analogy ,lol....I am whipped. But thought I would stop by and say hello. Between the house and grandkids and relentless weeding in the gardens, I am lucky to even watch the evening news. I will stop by when I can but I expect from now on , this is just going to be a hectic summer....BUT.....

 

I am wired with my quit. Nothings gonna short circuit that. I worked to hard to get this far.....3 years in September! So to those of you who are new here,Welcome! This is a fine place to be. 

 

 

 

 

Mandolinrain

Rage

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 16, 2017

Idiot! I was in center lane minding my own business, headed home from my son and daughter in laws after babysitting all day. They live an hour away. This jerk drives up behind me and basically is drafting me and slingshots around me forcing me to the Lane to my right, Greatfully Nobody was in it at the time. This idiot also forced the guy to my left over to the brim and drove right beteeen us! Was only by the Grace of God there was no accident, threre were three lanes. He drove right between us on the line!

 

so whats this gotta do with quitting smoking you ask? One word.

 

Rage.

 

We have all dealt at one time or another with it. That moment you want a smoke so bad you will dig out a nasty butt out of the trash ( if that's your only option) so you can get that one hit to relax you, only to find out there no butts dry enough to smoke cause you doused them in water...or smashed them to much to smoke them, but you will try anyway.

 

Thats one example. So how do you handle the rage? For me I looked at it as it was the enemy. It was pushing all my buttons just waiting for me to cave as I had so many times. It was a thief.  When i began to recognize the 'thief', my gloves went on. It was time to protect my quit. The addict wanted fed.....but not on my watch!

 

So about two. Maybe three miles down the highway today, guess who I see pulled over to the side of the road with a State Hwy.Patroller flashing his lights. Yup...the idiot. He got what was coming for his Rage. He didn't  prepare to well nor did he fix his need for speed.It fixed him! No I suspect he's even more raged at that point.....

 

..........as will you be if you give into the rage and lose your quit. The consequences of rage USUALLY don't turn out well. Today could have been tragic. Someone could have died. Same with rage from quitting smoking. It's normal and bound to happen, so be prepared. Don't let rage steal your quit.

 

Your worth more than the rage...put it in its place and walk away unscathed ..

quit intact.

Mandolinrain

For Patch users

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 14, 2017

Just a thought.....

So true. And he we are....starting to button up the roof on our new house and rain is moving in! UGH!

 

Kinda like our quits, huh? We can be so prepared...our tool box full and actually even using the tools in it...all is finally going smoothly for us then BAM!!! A strong crave hits and it came out of no where.

 

Theres little we can do prevent the storms but there plenty we can do to protect our quit. Pray to your higher power, would be my first suggestion.

MOVE would be my next. Craves really don't last long...they just need a immediate distraction. Do jumping jacks, if your able. Play music, dance drum your fingers to the beat. Get busy blogging on this site. DO SOMETHING  but don't smoke!

 

Theres also little we can do about our roof. Fact is, its gonna get wet. But we will do what we have to do to ( or rather our builder will) to make it all right again and get back on track....immediately. No waiting around or it could do more damage.

 

This goes for those of you who have relapsed....I recommend you not romance your quit date. It just gives your brain more excuses to put off your quit. If your tool box is full, get back on the quit immediately! No dilly dallying! Why feed your body more poison? The more poison you feed it the more time it will take to reverse the damage....if at all.

 

Houses are built everyday in all kinds of weather. So are quits...in all kinds of storms....Make your quit your last and your best. Prepare well so that when the storm comes you can charge past it. If you relapse....jump right back on the saddle ( oh did I mention we have a horse farm, so jumping back in the saddle is a must for this business) This applies to failed quit as well. The longer we let a horse sour the harder it is to break. I think you get now. 

Best to you all, have a great smoke free day!

Missy- 1015 DOF

Mandolinrain

Fender Bender

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 7, 2017

So yesterday, I'm behind this little green Kia at a stop sign. She starts to pull out onto the road and begins to turn right....I'm behind her and she suddenly hits here brakes....yep I hit her! The thing I notice first is the cigarette between her lips as I mouth to her " I'm so sorry", as she's glancing at me in her side mirror.

 

I first call 911 then I get out and approach her to make sure she's ok. We are both fine. It was my fault I told her cause I should have not gotten so close. She reeks of smoke...as she gets out of her smoke filled car.

 

Aside from a constant headache, and no....I did not It hit my head...I am fine and I am glad I don't stink like that anymore.

She was really nice, I was really stressed, but never wanted to smoke over it. Thank goodness. I had a carload of food to take to construction site, but it all worked out.

 

Found out today our sons wife that's having twins, is having girls!!! So excited! Due aroun Xmas. Said she will be induced a couple weeks into December. What a beautiful gift!

 

Busy week , Dr. Apps, grandkids, house build with more meetings. Our Big Mastiff showing some classic aging signs has me a bit worried....other than that, we are well. Would be nice for temps to warm up and get more sun tough.

 

I really love I don't have the slightest desire to smoke anymore...but my guard is always up....I remain vigilant.

 

Goodnight dear friends

Mandolinrain

Freedom isn't Free

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 6, 2017

You have heard it before....mostly I have always applied this thought to our Great Country and the men and woman whom serve it~Guard it-Protect it. Its comes with a cost. A risk of their health and sometimes unfortunately... their very life. So I would agree . Freedom isn't free.

 

As I meditated this morning it occurred to me that this phrase 'Freedom isn't Free' also applies directly to quitting smoking. To get to the other side we have to do our share of fighting for that freedom. We also have to guard it and Protect it. It SERVES us well to do so.

 

This particular freedom also comes with a price. More of a discount I should say. I will let you name your own advantages of the discount you get from quitting smoking....to name a few : improved health, less stink, cleaner hair-fingers-house-car....and for me anyway, it has been a growing experience learning more about me. I decided I CAN make a decision without a cigarette to my mouth or nicotine flowing through my veins.

 

Freedom isn't free when it comes to quitting smoking. You have to go through to get the breakthrough, as we all have...but I tell you the truth...it is so worth it. I love this Freedom.

 

Have a beautiful smoke free day~Missy

Mandolinrain

Framing  your house

Posted by Mandolinrain Jun 2, 2017

So just wanted to say I have an extremely busy summer and may not get to be on Ex everyday but I will check in weekly. The house build is going great but a lot of things are keeping me running around and we have he grandkids a lot.

 

 

Speaking of framing, how's yours holding up? Do you have the right braces in place so the walls stay in place! Do you have protection wrapped around your exterior walls to keep the bad weather out? The Nicodemon is not fooled by much and will get into any nook and cranny whenever he sees fit. So protect your walls. You will have a much stronger BUILD ( QUIT) if your protecting those walls!

 

Missy- 1004 DOF

Mandolinrain

FACT on New Quit...

Posted by Mandolinrain May 31, 2017

If it doesn't challenge you.....

It won't CHANGE you.

 

Quitting is hard work, no magic pills or potions to get you through it....

 

So allow the Challenges to come...and rest in them knowing YOU ARE CHANGING!!! Recognize the battle your in, the goal now is to live up to the CHALLENGE. YES YOU CAN!!! Make this your NEW GOAL...Take on the challenge to freedom. YOU are worth it!

 

 

Mandolinrain

Finally Arrived~1000 DOF

Posted by Mandolinrain May 29, 2017

Good morning! First I want to say THANK YOU to all our EX Vets who have served our fine country!  I am so grateful for you and the freedom you have given all of us. You are my REAL HEREOS and those whom have fallen.

 

I wrote a blog awhile back about building a house. Well it still continues. Houses have many rooms and the body I live in seems to also. I have a storage room where I keep all my past stuff and sometimes I look into it and say, wow you have a lot of 'stuff',lol. I remind myself I am a progress in works though. I also like to collect a few things but I also like to give things away to people as well, especially things I make.

 

We are building a new house now. It has an Open Concept which I really love. Not so many nooks and crannies, or rooms to fill. Much like myself....I am more of an Open Concept since I quit smoking in regards that although I don't have all the nooks and crannies like I did before. Becoming and EX has made me see I can open up myself to new strategies and ways of thinking in many areas of my life. Smoking really held me back much more than I thought. Being and EX has opened new doors for me that I just never thought possible.

 

I stuffed everything into nooks and crannies before. My Excuses, My fears, My worries, My disappointments, My regrets...etc....you get the point. Ex showed me that I needed to take down some walls inside MY house and allow room for light ....being all of you! It has worked for me gloriously!

 

Well my grand baby is here and needing attention, but I will blog more on building my house as my journey of recovery continues. Yes continues.....I remain vigilant. I have seen quits of many years fail due to not watching and protecting. I have NO INTENTION of going through HELL WEEL or NML EVER again! It was work but it was worth it and if your there...stay here and push through to get the breakthrough.

 

Have a safe and happy Memorial Day! I know this is one I will not forget! AND A huge shout out to ALL my Ex friends.....You are also MY HEREOS, I love you all and am ever so grateful for the gifts each of you bring to my heart, Elders and Newbies....xoxoxo~Missy