Well I will go back about 2 weeks!!! I was in a car accident, wasn't my fault and I am fine.Just shook me up!! My car is in the body shop and I am driving another car!!! But I didn't smoke over it. We are having heavy rain (started thursday night and really torential on Friday yesterday at work all of a sudden I had a big crave and it was a first of having real bad down pooring rain my mind took off and before I would smoke thu it. I realized that I don't have my Subaru Forester with the four wheel pulling that goes thu torential rain and pulls and grips the road good. I have to get on a major freeway to get home and there are trucks and people going too fast!!! I had to do some real talking to my mind to back out of this stinken thinking. This is the first time I have ever felt that a cig would help. After over 7 months of not smoking!!! I was feeling anxious!! I got home fine. Talk about knock you off your feet!!!
Went to bed early and while sleeping had my first smoking nightmare!!! I was at a Wedding and I was helping in decorating and the other lady was smoking and I said give me a drag off that!!! So glad to wake up.
I am 7 months 12days. Had no bad craves during no mans land that I couldn't handle and just let slide off my back!!! Mostly smoking memories!!! Feeling out of sorts today!!!
After I walked out of NML i was told to be vigilant. You can have a crave come out of nowhere when you least expect it. Be prepared and always ask for help no matter how many months you have.
Now at 6 months, I feel I don't need cigarettes as part of my life. I have learned how to live life smoke free. I do have smoke memories off and on, I just acknowledge it and go on. I don't give it any power or dwell on it. I do ever one in a while still get a romancing of a cig some times. They said it would get better and it really does!!!
I feel now is the time for me to work on getting some weight off I put on during this journey. My main priority was to quit smoking and will still be. I can use this site program for quit smoking to take off weight, It will work. I'm not going to stress over it.
Thanks so much for everyone on this site you all have helped me, the elders with there wisdom, all the bloggs of the new, the ones walking beside me, all just keep reeducating me on my journey and keep me going forward. Cheering me on.
And the words to keep me in check: You just can't have one. You don't smoke any more. N,O,P,E, Just keep it away from your mouth. I really don't feel I would be were I am today if it wasn't for all of you. I feel grateful today for all you!!!
Hope everyone has a great Christmas!!! As for me I have almost 2 week off from work. My boss closed the whole shop because they were traveling this year!!! Going to sleep in and take it easy!!
My main goal is to stay smoke free. I will. I am going to a Party on Sunday!!! One on Christmas Eve (ugly Christmas Sweater Party) !! This one is going to be hard for me, we get together every Year and a lot of smokers. This will be some good work for me. I'm prepared.
Christmas with my family on Christmas Day.
I feel so grateful and thankful for all of you on this site, I know I wouldn't be at 158 days of freedom if it wasn't for all the elders, the new, and the ones walking beside me. So thankful for you all!!!
I found my self stressing on getting things done-STRESS=CRAVE for me, so I simplfied. With money from not smoking I hired someone to clean my house!!!
Again I wish Every one A Merry Christmas and thank you all for being there for me!!!
Sleeping has been a lot better. I have always believed in getting as much sleep and rest as you can when quitting smoking.
The more sleep you get the less stressed out you are and I think that has helped me with craves. I have tryed to stay as relaxed as I can and do relaxing things and I think also you have less craves. You really need to take care of yourself.
At 145 days I have very few cravings. The smoke memories are there more because it is my first holidays smoke free. So far so good, no bad cravings. With the smoke memories I have to tell my self, I don't smoke any more. I'm a non smoker. Kick it to the curb. Don't intertain it and don't let it intertain you. The biggest smoke memory I have on a regular basis right now is when I get in my car after work at the end of the day. I have even flipped my ash tray down. I just laugh now and play a CD. I am 30 minutes away from town when i am at home, so if I have a crave, I would be over my crave by the time I got to town. Other things I say to myself, You just can't have one, they come in packs. N.O.P.E.!!! I do the breathing exercises during the day just to relax. I do it every day craves or not. I know I have to still be prepared for the sneaky ones. I am so thankful for this site and all the ones on here who have helped me thru and all the blogs of the elders and the newbe's I know I would'nt be almost at 6 months if it wasn't for you. I learn something new every day!!
So for all you who are just starting and in NML, It does get better, keep going forward, one day at a time!!
Please keep praying for my brother-in-law Bill. The hospital they took him to by ambulance ran their tests and found out there was more damage done to the heart then they expected. Even tho it has a heart unit, they don't feel that they can do the surgery needed, so he will be going to a hospital from Huntsville, Alabama to a hospital that is more skilled for what he needs!!! Please keep praying for Bill and his wife and children and his Mom.
Thanks everyone for your prayers for my brother-in-law!!! Still asking for prayers!!! They took him to another hospital by ambulance and the new hospital has a cardiac unit for the heart. From the tests right now he will need bypass surgery. He has 3 arteries to the heart not good. This hospital wants to run their own test and more. My brother-in law Bill is doing O.K.-He talking and pretty alert. Please still pray for him and his wife and children and his MoM!!! May have his surgury on Thursday or Friday!!!!