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First Smokemare.  Scary

Posted by MDR_BDel Aug 13, 2019

Last night I had a dream that I went out partying with friends and said "screw it" and had a few cigarettes.  After the first one I was crying about losing my quit and then decided since it is already lost might as well have a few more.  


Then I woke up.  THANK GOD it was a dream.  Was incredibly happy when I realized it didn't really happen.  Wow how real it felt in my dream though.  Scary.  Hopefully they are few and far between.  I remember them from my last quit of 2-years and didn't happen very often but they happened. 


17 DOF.

Through heck week now and getting much better.  Crazy how much my habits have changed in only 16 days.  Meaning figuring out something else to do with my time since I don't go outside for 5 minutes every hour.  My wife has been happy since I am getting a lot of stuff done around the house.  


Feeling great and sooooooo happy I am haven't been smoking for over 2 weeks now.  I know craves will still come at me and I will be ready, but will not smoke no matter what. For all the people in the first few days it will get much better pretty quickly.  Just hang in there.  


Hell Week Over!!!

Posted by MDR_BDel Aug 5, 2019

On day 9 and got through the first week.  It wasn't too bad, but definitely had my moments of extreme frustration/anger for very little reason.  


Need to be strong when those little craves come and tell me "just one is okay".  As a serial quiter I know just one is not okay after the 50th time.  I will not have a 51st time!  Here is to NOPE.  Happy Monday everyone.  I actually enjoy being at work all day to occupy my time early in my quit.  

So I have been struggling to quit again since I lost my quit of almost two years last October.  I have been on and off smoking since and went all of January without a smoke.  I go 1 week here, 2 weeks there and currently I am on day 4 for what seems like the 50th time quiting this year and need to keep off smoking for good.  With sooooo much experience in going through the first 3-5 days of quiting it really is not that bad for the people here ready to start their quit.  Definitely have some mental debates with the nicodemon trying to convince me to go get a pack, but doesn't last long and a little aggravated at everything as well.  The hardest part is staying quit when you have that mental debate and you think you can have "just one". I do not get much in the form of physical withdrawal other than the digestive track learning how to deal with no tobacco which doesn't last more than 1-2 days.  


Posting on here for a little accountability from the group so I see this one through for good.  I am really over smoking and do not enjoy anything about it.  I come to the site and read other blogs/posts but rarely post myself.  My dad is coming in town this weekend to see my kids, and I do not smoke in front of him, so I 100% will be good through the 1st week. Funny how I am in my late 30's, but still feel ashamed to smoke in front of my parents.  Good thing though for this weekend as it will assist me early in my quit.  


I will check in every once in a while to give updates.  One last thing - with my vast experience in quiting I have found that exercising every day early in my quit has helped cope with not smoking.  


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WOW! 335 Days and Counting.

Posted by MDR_BDel Dec 4, 2016

Hello Ex's,

We are coming into the new year and I know there will be a lot of resolutions this year to stop smoking.  I happened to quit on Jan. 4th 2016 and used this site to see what others were going through and it helped quite a bit.  I never really posted but I would always check other blogs and it helped quite a bit.  The Elders were always awesome and offered great advice as well - thank you all for that.  

Here are a few key things that helped me with my quit and maybe it will help someone else as well:

1)  I read and understood my addiction before my quit.  Here is a great link:  I spent a lot of time going through the links on to learn about this addiction.  

2)  The worst part of the quit is the first 2 weeks.  Everyone on here can attest that the first 2 weeks are not fun, but after that it gets better every day.  After smoking for 15 years being uncomfortable for only 2 weeks to rid myself of those nasty cigs forever didn't seem so long when you put it in perspective.  ITS ONLY 2 Weeks to get through the worst of it!!!!!  When you put it in that perspective it doesn't seem so bad.  

3)  A month after I quit I decided to start running to get my lungs back in shape and signed up for a marathon.  That was a little aggressive and don't recommend that, but maybe finding a 5K or 10K to train for and get your lungs back in shape even if you have to walk most of it.  There are some great couch to 5K apps out there to start running.  Once I started running I knew I was done smoking forever and I haven't looked back.  

I feel SOOOOOOO much better and healthier now since I have stopped and I am upset it took me so long to finally decide NOPE.  I hope everyone stays quit throuhg the holidays and for the resolutions coming - IT IS POSSIBLE.  Get through the first 10-14 days and it gets better every day from there.  That is such a small amount of time when you put it in perspective!