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A Huge Test

Posted by Lisa1030 Apr 21, 2017

It has been a while since I last posted....

 

January 29th, 2016 at 7:20 p.m., my daughter passed away from inflammatory breast cancer.

 

Everyone that came to the house that evening was smoking.... through out the next few days, people were smoking, and often said here you need to sit, come smoke with us.... Well I have the mind set that I am not a smoker.. I did not relapse...I didn't even take one puff....

 

July 4th....will be 3 years...

 

I am not a smoker....(anymore).

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Posted by Lisa1030 Jan 23, 2017

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I have been a nonsmoker since Juy 4th, 2014. I know how hard it is to stop, and how the struggle to stay stopped can be.  No, it was not and is not easy, but for me  its worth it!

 


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A year... of not smoking

Posted by Lisa1030 Jul 16, 2015

July 4th marked a whole year that I have not smoked.  Was it easy NO. Was it haETIMES. Am I happy I finally quit YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Sure there are times I find myself thinking time for  then I remember I don't smoke. Summertime and I find smoke from campfires, BBQ, wild fires, and horrors a house fire too, all just well I can NOT be around those... Campfires I seems to keep rotating around to the side the wind is blowing the smoke away from.

 

If I a over 35 year long smoker can do this you can as well. Grab a buddy and stop together, good support to have. Start a we are non smokers group with like minded friends that are trying to quit as well.  Reward yourself after a set lenght of time.

Keep busy... I found keeping my hands busy worked great, as well as the If I have to have a cigerette, then I have to walk to the nearest store (that is over a mile one way) then I can buy a pack. Then I can take ne cigereete out of the pack , then throw the rest away, then walk that uphill mile back home. If I still want to smoke it after all that...I am going to have to find a lighter...a palce to smoke it at as my home is non smoking, wrk is non smoking, my car is non smoking....ah less work not to smoke.

So no matter where you are on this journey, someone has been there is there or is right behind you....You are not alone....

Lisa

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Lung testing

Posted by Lisa1030 Sep 19, 2014

77 days of not smoking....I get to go have pulmonary lung function testing today.

I am really wanting to see if stopping has helped my lungs in a way that I can have  measurement...to verify I am doing better.

Not that"I" need a few numbers to know how much improvement I feel, but my Physician wants to have some numbers ...Just wish the Doctor would pay for the testing LOL

Lisa

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Letter to Smoke

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 18, 2014
  Dearest Smoke,
   
  This quit feels different. I know it's still eaarly in my quitting, but I can sense a new beginning. I feel stronger. I feel hopeful. I have hid in shame to be with you in the past. You were never honest with me. You were discreet about having power over me. But, now I see. I see that you were never worth it.
   
  My day will now revolve around me and my family, not you. "You take my breath away", little by little you were killing me. You are a liar and a thief. You come on the scene as a harmless friend, but under it all you are a snake in the grass, a thief in the night. Shame on you, and shame on me.
   
  But wait..., I feel good. Good about our separation, good about being able to walk, run, and work in the yard without getting out of breath. Through this I have learned. Learned that I was stupid to believe in you, and you still are a liar. I don't even want to know how much money I've wasted, just to puff and blow. Let me just remind you that I have backup.
   
  When it's all said and done I'll still be going and your just an ash. Farewell to your sorry butt!
   
Lisa1030

Cravings

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 18, 2014
  Sometimes the best thing we can do when craving a cigarette is to simply redirect our attention to something different and interesting. Nine times out of ten, the urge is gone within moments.
   
  Our thoughts color our lives, so if you find that yours are taking you places you'd rather not go, take charge and shift your focus.
   
   
  When you first quit smoking, it may feel like your day is one long, continual urge for a cigarette. If you pay close attention though, you'll notice that most cravings to smoke last only three to five minutes. They tend to come off the blocks strong, and decrease gradually until they're gone.
   
  There are two types of cravings people experience in the early days of smoking cessation.
   
  Physical cravings are your body's reaction to nicotine withdrawal. You may feel a tightness in your throat or belly, accompanied by feelings of tension or mild anxiety.
   
  Psychological cravings are triggered by the events in your daily life. We all have hundreds of unconscious cues we give ourselves to smoke. When you quit, those cues will trigger the urge. Activities like driving, eating, drinking coffee or alcohol, or simply relaxing can trigger thoughts of smoking for many of us. Mental urges can and usually do produce the same feelings in our bodies as physical cravings.
   
  Keep things simple. Curb cravings as they come, one by one. The most effective way to do that is to interrupt your thought pattern on the spot. Shift gears and do something different for a few minutes. Change your activity, either mentally or physically, and the craving will lose its power and be gone before you know it.

Cravings to smoke are not commands.

How you choose to react to a craving can either increase or decrease its power over you. Try a little reverse psychology - instead of tensing up for a fight when the urge to smoke hits, relax and mentally lean into it. Let the craving wash over you, and accept it as a sign of healing, which is just what it is. The urge will run its course and pass. Practice makes perfect with this technique. You'll get the hang of it and will find it empowering.

Have some faith, and trust in the process of recovery from nicotine addiction. Thousands of people no different than yourself quit smoking successfully every day of the year. They don't possess any special qualities that you don't have. Everything you need to quit smoking once and for all is within you right now.

Believe in yourself and be patient. Take the time you need to heal and learn how to live your life smoke-free. You'll get there just as surely as the next person.

Lisa1030

Surprise!

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 15, 2014

Someone just said congratulations to me... Me umm ah  dumb look alll over face....shaking my head had to ask "What For?"

 

Plainly I forgot... It's been 6 weeks that I quit smoking....

Surprisse happy and clearly slipped my mind time has flown far to fast

 

Lisa

Lisa1030

QUIT SMOKING MINDSET (MINE)

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 15, 2014
   
   
  Your mindset is one of the most important factors in your attempt at quitting. You can't stop if you aren't ready, it's as simple as that.
   
   
   You need to be READY. You need to WANT to be ready. You need to want this more than anything else in your life! Sometimes it takes weeks to prepare yourself for the right moment in your life when you're truly ready to give it all up. When that moment arrives, you'll definitely know and want to act on it.
   
  It should be when you have no big event in front of you. Perhaps you just finished going to a wedding, or a big camping trip, or the long holiday weekend. If there is nothing in front of you to make you think you need to continue to smoke for, then stop immediately. You want to quit, right? 
   
  Quitting smoking must be your #1 priority above everything else. You have to be totally serious about it. You can't go to the bars the same night you've quit. You can't go to a concert the same night, either. You can't do most things for a little while, but that's OK. You must focus 100% of your energy on never touching a cigarette ever again. Don't worry about anything else. If you do, you're doomed and you'll most likely relapse. You don't want that to happen, do you?
   
  Being tobacco-free needs to be your #1 end goal.
   
  For the first few weeks, every night I would immediately crave a cigarette to alleviate the stress of the day.
   
   I knew I didn't need one, but my natural instinct was to have one. You have to get it in your head that you DON'T want one and that it will do nothing for you.
   
   Only then will you be able to talk yourself out of it, and simply go home after work, instead of thinking finally -- then proceed to light up in the car.
   
  There will come a time in your life when you're sick and tired of it and ready to turn your life around. It happened to me. You'll be tired of the sore throats and the coughing, being sick all the time, the slavery, the anxiety, the cost, etc. The list is enormous. 
   
   I just want to say you might not enjoy lighting up forever. I enjoyed it-- I didn't want to stop. It was fun and it really didn't get in the way of my everyday life. But later on in life was an entirely different story. It controlled my every thought.
   
  Also, it's important to quit for yourself. Don't stop because of a loved one, or because of a TV commerical, or because of your parents, or any of that nonsense. You have to want this for YOURSELF, and that begins in your mind. That's the bottom line.
   
  Now it's totally OK to quit for your kids, or any loved ones, and many people do, but you have to realize that if you aren't doing it for you first and foremost, then you'll be very vulnerable to cravings and triggers. You'll be likely to make excuses because you aren't being true to yourself. 
   
  Let's not kid ourselves OK. I've been there, I know what it's like, and it isn't fun. In fact, it was a nightmare. I hated my life. I hated the fact I had to leave the party because I ran out of cigarettes. I hated the fact I turned to them when I was stressed out or nervous. I hated that they controlled every part of my life, from the moment I woke up and until I went to bed. 
   
  The most important rule of thumb in your attempt is: YOU MUST BE READY! That's half the battle right there.
   
  This is the biggest lifestyle change you'll ever face. So get into the correct frame of mind, and never look back. You have to change for good!
   
  Within days, you'll love yourself for it. You'll wish you had started sooner. Once the withdrawal has vanished, you'll never want to go back. You'll feel too good! You'll realize just how bad you felt all those years. No one regrets it. That I can guarantee! 
Lisa1030

New Identity Non-Smoker

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 11, 2014
  Being a non-smoker is not an identity, it is what I am. It is important to grieve my old identity of smoker and develop a new identity that is not congruent with smoking.
   
   
  It would be easier for me to verbalize what it’s been like and what it means to me if I were always thinking about having quit smoking. But that’s just the thing: I’m not always thinking about having quit, and that’s why I was able to in the first place.
   
   
   I understand now how smoking was not only destroying my present life, but my future life. I understood the insanity of directing the bulk of my meagre income towards an addiction that was only perpetuating a cycle of financial strain. I understood that if I didn’t do something about it, I would die.
   
   I saw myself  years from now, hooked up to oxygen and yet still being unable to breathe. I saw myself bald and retching from chemo and radiation for a cancer with a pathetic survival rate anyway. And, still in that moment, I knew that now was the time, and I knew that the obsession I had with smoking had to be lifted.
   
  As such, it was surprisingly easy to quit. I just don’t think about smoking anymore. It wasn’t about willpower, for all willpower does is compell you to keep thinking about what it is you’re trying to resist, therefore perpetuating—even worsening—the obsession.
   
   For me, with the obsession effectively gone, it was as if a switch was flipped: from smoker to non-smoker, and that was that. I am unlearning my habits quickly. What do you know, it’s  easy to get up in the morning and have my usual couple hours’ of coffee and computer time without chain smoking.
   
  And the money. People always say things like, Think of all the money you’ll save! I don’t think of having saved money, because that implies I’ve got an empty pickle jar filled with cash somewhere. Rather, it’s money better spent on things like food, books, bills paid on time, and at least one congratulatory (yet necessary) purchase: the new computer.
   
   
  But I’m not perfect, and neither is my “quitness."
   
  Sometimes I’ll suddenly expect a cigarette, as if nothing had changed. At first those moments would bother me greatly, and I’d feel a sense of loss on top of the craving. Now I’ve learned to ignore them, go do anything and the feeling passes in time.
   
  Today my brother and I drove past new place that was opening...Big Painted Sign  "Hookha"... I always wanted to try smoking from one of those...I was able to say to my brother " well I will never get to do that as I am a non smoker."
   
  That is what and who I am now a NON SMOKER
Lisa1030

40 Days and Counting

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 9, 2014
   
  So today is DAY 40!!!  WoW that went fast, too fast. 
   
  I can’t even believe that I've had no nicotine. Its been great, saving money, feeling healthier, regaining 
  my sense of smell, running around and up stairs... but it's still very, very hard.
   
  I still get cravings, I find a distraction to forget I wanted to have a smoke. I remind myself of my self promises I mde to myself.  I think is a cigarette or just a one puff worth that trip to the Bahmas that I would not get to take if I did smoke?
   
  I started writing more on this blog biggest distraction is sharing my innner thoughts with all of you;  my other supportive cheerleaders! 
   
  I think is just  puff worth having to start stopping all over again?  Not that a relaspe makes me a weak no will power no control person, but no I do not want to have to start al ovedr again.
   
  I am doing this.  I am a non smoker.  I am an EX Smoker.
   
   
   
   
   
  It’s not just the act of smoking or the physical addiction that makes quitting suck. The thing I miss most about being a smoker is being cool. I admit it—every popular kid I knew smoked.
   
  After I quit smoking, I started to take care of my fingernails. My nails were no longer yellow and my fingers stopped smelling like wet sneakers that had been briefly lit on fire. I was complimented on my nice manicure. I said, “Thanks for noticing, this is my reward  I quit smoking!” 
   
  I always say I am a non-smoker now, as early in my quit when those cravings were so strong..I would say to myself " I am a non-smoker, smoking is not an option" over and over again...that works for me.
   
   So let’s continue to support each other, ex-smokers! I want to be so cool for NOT smoking. 
Lisa1030

Freedom----Control

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 6, 2014
  Hi everyone. Ah, to be an ex smoker. It means freedom from bondage. I was a slave to cigarettes. It means fresher breath, more money,  no more hacking, a cleaner smelling home and car. The greatest advantage will be a longer life, and I don’t have to stop what I am doing to have a cigarette. I don’t have to stand out in the cold on my break to smoke. I can sit and watch a movie without thinking “I can’t wait til this movie is over so I can go out and have a cigarette.” I have control of my life now not the cigarettes. 
   
   I can say (smugly or otherwise) when asked for a light, “Sorry, I don’t smoke.” I can be proud of myself.
   
   If anyone out there is having problems with their quit just remember that you can do it---- you have the strength within you to defeat it. It is a terrible addiction and you can overcome it and it has such wonderful rewards.

The urge to smoke will come and go. There are people, places, things, and situations that may trigger the urge to smoke.

How are you going to handle it?

   Everyone who smokes has smoking triggers. Knowing your triggers helps you stay in control. At first, you might want to avoid triggers all together. After staying quit for awhile, you may be able to find other ways to handle your triggers. 
   
   You won't be able to avoid all smoking triggers, so it's important to make a plan for how to handle cravings. Remember, cravings typically last 5 to 10 minutes. It might be uncomfortable, but try to wait it out. Make a list of things you can do to distract yourself.
   
   Cravings will come and go. Remember, trying something to beat the urge to smoke is always better than not trying anything. Do what works best for you when a craving hits. Just don't smoke. Not even one puff!
   
Lisa1030

One Month

Posted by Lisa1030 Aug 4, 2014

Today by the calander says one month of not smoking....

I finally wrapped my mind into the set of I can do this I will stop smoking.

NOW I am a non smoker....I am doing this, I have peple who are there when I need them and even pop up to say how much they are proud of me for staying stopped.

It was not easy to stop and it is getting better as I stay stopped. Yes, cravings and urge to smoke still happen, I have to just remind myself of my promises to me and the things I said I would do before I could have another cigerette.  I am to lazy to walk a mile each way to the nearest store that sells them... so I find other things to do...I have started learning how to watercolor paint, make soap, (benefit of making soap is I can pick what  want it to smell like and  can smell it), and all the classes I take well I found  free ones that are offered  Any supplies I would ike to buy cost less than 10 packs .

Now with everyone in the group I know we are all great teammates and will be happy to share our tips, thoughts, doubts, slips,, and know we are still supported.

Quitting Smoking Happens

 

  
   

ONE CRAVING

   


AT A TIME.

  
  
   

ONE MONDAY

   


AT A TIME.

  
  
   

ONE DECISION

   


AT A TIME.

   

 

   

Lisa