This morning, my addiction to nicotine had me entertaining sick thoughts. My addiction tried to make me believe that since I didn't plan a quit date and made an impromptu decision to quit that I have somehow cheated myself out of truly getting to enjoy my last few packs of cigarettes. I do know that this is STINKING THINKING and I haven't been cheated out of a darn thing.Just goes to show how ugly and tricky addiction is.
Today is the first day I left my house since I came home last Friday evening. I was scared to drive (a trigger). I just had to get out today to take care of some errands that I had been putting off. I found 2 packs of unopened cigarettes in the glove compartment and tossed them into the garbage can on my way inside the store. I did contemplate smoking one since I had gotten cheated out of some enjoyment. I KNEW BETTER.
I was a success! As a smoker, I would reward myself with a smoke each time I got back into the car to head to my next destination. Today, I sang really loud in the car and drank a lot of cold water.