Great day and evening in our subdivisions 'block party' ... and enjoyed the entire very long day smoke free..even the evening at the bonus fire!! Left the young ones to play on, this gal is exhausted. Enjoy a great evening all!!
Wanted to wind down the evening with a walk near our park...as I normally do around 7..rounded the corner...heard a LOUD rustle in the woods...startled the you know what out of me. So I kind of jumped back...only to have a deer cross back into the woods. Glad he stayed there instead of crossing my path. Rethinking my time schedule now!! Scared...but smoke free!!!
This will be my 2nd 4th of July smoke free. Last year was my first summer event and cautiously calculated. I watched every nook and cranny, during the summer, especially living along the lake, which is bustling from memorial day to labor day. So with a year under my belt, I realize...I am not taking advantage of my surroundings...I am a ex smoker...non smoker! My beach bag (tool box) is filled with water...fruits and veggies, cause I still have friends who still smoke, enjoying the beach and festivities right along with me. Never forget...like the little engine that COULD and CAN! Happy smoke free 4th of July..and summer!
Thanks to Evelyn, Marilyn and Nancy for bring it to my attention....you guys are the BEST!!!
I've been reading the relapse blogs as well as the successful blogs. Both keep me from relapsing.
This past year has been a year of emotional ups and downs. Life is life....my husband is back and forth from one state or country...almost feel like a military wife. Yep he's been gone when I need him most (Murphys law I guess), started a new business - I thought I'd pull out every strand of hair I have out, marched through events of my mother mental health deteriorating, the decision to place her into an AFC facility...my daughters husband relapsing....(and thankfully she's filed for a divorce)....life happens. I have no control of life, but right now, I have the strength and support to keep my life in check from relapsing.
When I first quit, I was damn sure my quit was more painful, more intense, and more stressful than anyone else, even the elders. Well it wasn't, and neither are my life's ups and downs.
For those who are quitting, keep up the good fight, and those fighting for a date to quit, get the red pen out...best wishes to all the members of Ex.
Hopefully this attachment will open. If not, here is are the lines from the infamous Gilda Radner and Jane Curtain.
It's over 30+ years old, and see folKS, nothing too much has changed in the fight to quit, except for better support system!!
Enjoy the laugh, and your evening!
Jane Curtain: This past Thursday was the great American Smoke Out, a day that everyone in America was encouraged to stop smoking cigarettes for a 24 hour period. Here to comment further is Update Health correspondant, Roseanne Rosannadanna.
Roseanne Rosannadanna: Thanks, alot, Jane. A guy from Forlayden, New Jersey writes in and says, "Dear Roseanne Rosannadanna, Last Thursday I quit smoking. Now I'm depressed, my face broke out, I'm nauseas, I'm constipated, my cheeks swell, my gums are bleeding, my sinuses are clogged, I got heart burn, and I got gas. What should I do?"
Roseanne Rosannadanna: Well, you sound like a real attractive guy. You belong in New Jersey!
Had to share this interesting conversation with a non smoker the other week.
I had mentioned it's has been just a bit over a year since I quit...and was working yet a new budget report. We all need to take a break, walk away from the task, regroup and return to tackle the task at hand...right? I stated that I walked away from frustration, and organized my plastic storage ware (BTW they're just like socks from the washing mashine...missing a top or bottom...necessary evils!) It's ALWAYS...some sort of house project to distract me.
He replied back, that's why he's always cleaning house...Surprisingly this individual, who has never smoked, said he could totally relate to why some folks turn to smoking.
And in the beginning that was really one of our first tools, the tool of a healthier distraction. (St Vincent de Paul LOVED me)! It's sooo crazy, because when I did smoke, my thoughts would always be tasks I should be doing.
I'm beginning to think that's how most folks distract themselves from a project. I'm one of them, not much to sit and take five.
So at this point of my life as a non smoker, I can be thankful for cleaner window tracks, lazy susan, matching plastic ware and an organized spice cubbard!!!
My hubs..ofcourse is pleased that shopping is not the distraction!!! Mmmmmm???
For those that are struggeling...there a many, many benefits ( outside of your precious health) of quitting!
Take it one day at a time!
PS...Virginia Beach folks...Enjoy a great time...cyber hugs to you all!
After three months of tests, today being the final test...all came back with positive results! Sometime in February, when my stress level reached the cosmic sky, and was a frequent visitor of the facility my mother was in rehab for, the culmination of those two apparently were a deaday combination. No antibiotics would make it go away...so off to the specialists. So a lot of below the belly button test were done, 'nuf said!
Could have easily fell off the wagon with worries and concerns...wouldn't have helped, and proud to stay strong. For those who were in the loop...thank you enormously for your positive thoughts and prayers.
First beautiful spring day. Took advantage, michigan can rear her ugly head ...drop the temps, and let another noreaster roll in. Loved the smells during my am walk...then time to do a bit if the domesticsame and work on next year's budget. I may be a bit forgetful here and thereven, but it's totally amazing how you know every bloody word of songs from 40+ years ago...I had the cd player on ramdom play.
Everything smells fresh...and not spoiled by the smell of smoke...another day won! Breathing it all in!
For yhe past few months I have been keeping up with reading blogs and conversations...just for that extra boost for strength for each day...and every day is something new, and inspirational.
I haven't found time to keep some of you updated in my small world.
Sadly placed my mom in an AFC facility, it is an amazingly beautiful loving facility, and very fortunate that she was accepted. I felt like I was involveded in the Spanish inquisition...or applying for a private school! I don't know how long she's been on the list, but it is one of the top two in the county. It has taken a few weeks for her to adjust and accept...she definitely had a Jewish mom beat! Ovi..the guilt! No smoking..yeah!
Thought I'd would take the 16 week Fr. Harden basic Catholic Catechism course, that was recommended by my good freind, the pastor of my parish! It has been years since 4 different books, pencil, highlighter, and notebook have been on my table...,WITHOUT an ashtray full of butts.....Still no smoking!
The upcoming budget for next year is up....due date sometime in May...and of course...they revised the work sheet, after I plugged in all the numbers...so I meet with the controller tomorrow...I'm sure it will be a quick fix as I have all the supporting hard copies. Still no smoking.
And I swear, since I turned 60, I have NEVER been to the doctors and specialist since my pre-natal days. Played hard when I was young...so paying for the good old days I guess! Some of these upcoming test don't sound too pleasant, and I'll spare you the details. Still no smoking.
My beautiful, beautiful daughter is filing for a divorce...actually much to our family and friends releif...she has put up with more than any woman should in order to preserve a marriage that didn't work both ways. We will all have our free spirited woman again...she's had it rough, and truly deserves a much better life. Still no smoming!!
Not that it hadn't crossed my mind...and stronlgly...it's just amazing that I can be very pleased with myself if I do say so myself, I'm coming up to my year in a couple if weeks, and do not want to blow it up I and want to continue year with 2, 3, 4.....
For those that are struggling...it is a start of a wild journey, that you CAN succeed in, and this is coming from a smoker of 40 years.
Stay on this site..the support increases your success rate!
How much more can one person take. In 23 days, I’ll be smoke free for one year. And I can tell you in the last 3 months I have been very tempted in trying, stressful times. I have been the care taker to my 87 year old mother, because of sundowners, fractured her right elbow. This is the third incident in 4 months that has placed her in medical care. This last incident left me with no other choice than to protect her with 24/7 care. For a month I was able to indulge her in the care in the comfort of her home. Even paying under the table, and with me covering 4-5 days, funds would run out by summer. But by God’s grace, and Adult Foster Care home called with an opening. I’ve place her on several waiting lists, never thinking that an opening would arise. My husband has been out of state for two months, so my wonder son, who was against an AFC facility. He was my objective opinion, as he has a medical background, and would be very critical of any facility for seniors. To both of our surprise, beautiful, warm, inviting, loving were the description of this facility. I would be crazy not to proceed in the interview process for her to be accepted. She was approved. The hardest task I had to face was transporting her to the facility. Too painful to explain that scenario. That was 5 days ago, and Mom is adapting, and I am coping. There is no word in the dictionary to describe how I feel. Happily, my husband returned 3 days earlier than expected, I have never been more happy for my best friend come home, just to hold and ‘be’. His happy homecoming was cut short with my beautiful daughters husband being arrested …for drug use, manufacturing and distribution. We went through this same ordeal one and a half years ago. With a heavy heart, she stayed with him, thinking her love would be the strength to keep them together. This life style is very foreign to us, and kept our distance. This beautiful, bright woman has wasted 10 years of her life with someone so blind to her love, and chose his addiction. She may loose her home, but she will have a life she is so deserving of, but will take her time to embrace her gifts. In closing, to my surprise, I have not smoked. The craves have been stronger than my first months of quit…but am extremely proud that I have past these tests of life’s disappointments. Smoking would not solve the issues at hand. Those are the words repeated in my head over and over. Those words were taught to me by this site. Despite the changes, and lack of the personal feel, I owe this site enormous acknowledgment.
And to Sharon, the larger than life inspiration of staying strong in her quit. Stay strong in your quit. Kathy
My hubs and I were whirlwind tourist in San Francisco, this past weekend.
If I were still smoking...there would be no way, NO WAY, I would have been able to hike up and down over and over to enjoy China town. Happy New Year, and Happy Valentines (both celebrated on Saturday) by the way! Shouldervtomshouldervpeople in China town, no way would there have been a spot to take a break without offending someone. Golden Gate Bridge, Fishermans Warf, the climb down to the ocean wasn't as brutal...but then came Alcatraz...another rough terrine to hike. I did come prepared with good walking shoes, and Tommy Copper for my knee!! It was a no pain no gain experience!
First time traveling...without the crave...or hanging outside until I had to be at the gate!!! Must say...I was a bit concerned with this first hurdle...but how much more enjoyable and relaxing without the 'fix'. Looking forward to being a touridt...and celebrating the Chinese New Year in China town..San Francisco. This wasn't planned...but excited to be a part on the celebration! Smoke free!!!! Every one enjoy a fab weekend! Kathy