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Posted by justsayno3 Jan 23, 2017

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Myspace Countups, Nature Countups at WishAFriend.com I have been smoking for 35 years. I love life. See the disconnect? I am married 22 years to a smoker. I have four kids and one grandaughter. I need a total makeover, health, wealth and spiritual healing.

April 22, 2013 is my quit day. I was riding the horse, then I wasn't. It is now time to get back on the horse. Giddyup!!!


Brief Description

Looking for my muse. Where did my mojo go?


Website

No website in profile.


Location

texas


Interests

texas longhorns, fishing, sports, reading, movies


Skills

outdoor adventures, grilling


     It has been a year. I am back. Smoking a pack a day. Gonna try to quit again. Tomorrow June 11, 2014 is my quit date. Missed you EX. It is like seeing an old friend again. 

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Anniversary plus

Posted by justsayno3 Jun 13, 2013

My 24th wedding anniversary is coming up June 23rd. On June 24th, I am starting a  new quit. Thank you all for the comments and caring. Got some hugs, got some kicks in the butt, some head-slaps, etc. I am not scared. I know I can do this. I just have to keep the fire burning inside. It is getting there. I can tell. The urge to blog and desire to address this is a positive sign. 

One of my support friends here told me in my last blog to go back and read the blogs I posted back when I first came to this site. I did and what I found was that inspiration that I was missing. I saw the resolve that had been MIA. I am going to the beach this week with my family. We will relax and enjoy some time together  without work or school. We all work hard and it is a nice reward. 

As much as I am looking forward to getting away, I am still smoking and have not told my daughters. So my quit may start tomorrow since the beach house will be pretty transparent.  In any event, My hard date is the day after our Anniversary. One day at a time. So maybe I will be back here next week and have a four or five day quit going...to be continued. It is an adventure.

Lee

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Lost in the wilderness

Posted by justsayno3 Jun 11, 2013

I am coming back here to find the recipe that worked before. I have to find the will and  "want to." again. I am ashamed that I smoked after I was doing well and I just broke down completely. I am right back where I was before-an addict. I have avoided coming here because I was ashamed but I really do not have anywhere else to turn. No one understands addiction better than addicts. My family supports me but I have not told them I fell off the wagon. Too ashamed. But I can say it here. I hope I can find my way. I am lost. I have not set a quit date or come to grips with quitting again. But this is the first step. I will be here next week. Going to the beach this weekend. No promises. But I promise I will be back here next week. I need this site and the people here to hug me or kick my ass, either one is good. See you next week. Thanks.

Lee

It is great to be back. I am starting over strong. No problem getting through the morning and just doing what I know to do and following the formula that worked for 4 months. Not a new recipe, just fresh ingredients. I am thinking the first 21 days again will be critical. One day at a time. A blog a day keeps the cravings away. Glad to be back.

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Don't quit....quitting.

Posted by justsayno3 Apr 16, 2013

I have come back to the place where I started. I found this site and found some success. I am hoping to do a better job this time and make my previous 125 or so days of not smoking mean something. Doesn't the saying go that it does not matter how many times you get knocked down, what matters is how many times you get back up? I am pulling my sorry butt off the canvas and standing up again. The fight starts over Monday.

Battered and bloodied, my character revealed, the true test of character is what you do when no one is looking. It is humbling to be working successfully at something that makes you proud and feel good about yourself only to fail. Shamefully, it is like stealing from a blind man's cup. There is no gain or honor. Just some loose change rattling around in your pocket.

Three months and some without smoking and then I just made a choice to smoke. I have not yet figured out why. That bothers me. But of all the emotions I feel, anger, dispair, a sense of worthlessness, the emotion that is the strongest is shame. I am truly ashamed of myself.  But I am not going to quit, quitting. Cowboy up. The rodeo is starting over Monday.

Lee

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No 6 percenter here.

Posted by justsayno3 Apr 8, 2013

Given my gung-ho start  like my hair is on fire for quitting smoking, I smoked. I do not say I slipped cause I was on solid footing. I just made a choice and smoked. I will be back again and quit and I hope I have not disappointed anyone more than myself. I just have not re-set my clock.  I am not really prepared to discuss this yet, it is a point of consternation with me right now, I just had to set the record straight because I cannot lie about it.

Lee

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No crutches.

Posted by justsayno3 Mar 8, 2013

Chatting and reading posts by some of our newly quit or thinking about quitting or getting ready to quit peeps brings back so many memories of just how tenuous our first few hours/days are when we decide to quit. It is really a big step for so many of us that hung onto smoking as something we literally felt we could not get rid of. I for one, had a heart attack and the doctor said the single best thing I could do to improve my health was to quit smoking.

He also wanted me to lose weight, exercise, lower my blood sugar level, and take some medications to lower blood pressure and cholesterol. This whole litany of things to do to make myself healthier but the No. 1 thing was to quit smoking.

I quit for a while, maybe a week or two, and then I would have a cig here and there. I cut back but did not stop. I did take the medicines and lost weight and exercised and got my blood sugar down and all that, but as time went on, and I felt skinnier and healthier, I smoked more until I was smoking as much as before and then I quit exercising. I went right back to doing the things that got me in trouble before.  I got heavier, less active, smoked more and more and just basically did not do what I should have been doing for myself. Then I found the EX website.

Quitting smoking became a real possibility when I found this site. I got excited that I could actually give this a real shot and have a chance to succeed. To really quit for good. I decided to try it. I did it for a day. Then I made it through a second day and a third. I was on here every evening when I got home. I changed my routine in the mornings. I did not go out to my car for breaks during the day.  Being on here at night replaced the time when I would go sit outside and smoke in the evening. It made me really analyze myself and my habit. That realization comes back to me when I visit with newbies here. I do not mean that in a bad way at all. It grounds me and makes me remember how vulnerable we are when we quit smoking. We are trying out life without the crutch.

I have quit for 102 days now.  I am good. I am  about  25 lbs. overweight but I am starting to do more active things and I will get the diet in check, soon. I played basketball for a couple of hours yesterday. I used to be able to do that several times a week, easy. So just like that first step without crutches, easy does it and just keep moving forward. Do not fear falling, just keep your head up and your eye on the prize. One step at a time and one day at a time.

People do quit smoking here and stay quit. Not everyone makes it. But if you are really looking to quit, this site gives you a better chance than anything I have ever found. Be true to yourself. Be accountable to yourself and others. Let your guard down and realize life is made to be lived without the training wheels. Ride fast once in a while. It is a blast.

Lee

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Washington DC Exers?

Posted by justsayno3 Mar 6, 2013

My daughter and I are going to be in DC this Sunday through Wednesday. Holler if you are in the area and maybe we can see a few sights. Probably just send me a message. If you know the area well that would be an added bonus. We have a lot of things to see but would love any new perspective/ suggestions. 

Lee

Wow. Time goes fast it seems. 100 days without cigarettes tomorrow. I am gonna make it. It is really cool how my relationships have grown and how the friendships blossom. Thanks for all the support. I still get smoking thoughts and cravings sometimes but each day that passes is another day farther away from the old me. That guy is not who I am now. Funny how changing one habit in your daily life can effect so many other aspects.Those 250,000 cigarettes I bought, smoked and snuffed out are a part of who I was but not any more. I am going to Washington DC with my 14 year old daughter over spring break and I do not even think about "Is it a smoking room"? What is the flight time so I can go outside and smoke? etc. You get the picture. I am far from being "an expert" or "an elder" but I will support you veterans and newbies alike. As Mike says, Keep on keepin on.

Cheers,

Lee

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Welcome back?

Posted by justsayno3 Feb 19, 2013

Just wanted to put this up so anyone finding their way back to the site could post and see what is up. I have not been able to get on here for a couple of days and I am sure others are equally baffled. But it worked the second try this morning. I am going to school to mold the young minds of America, Stay strong, stay close and do not think for a second that smoking will make things better. NOPE. 

Lee

Ah, nostalgia. I remember when... For you youngsters out there, Joe DiMaggio was a New York Yankee baseball player, a Hall of Famer and at one time was married to Marilyn Monroe. The phrase, "Where have you gone Joe DiMaggio?" is from Simon and Garfunkel's hit song "Mrs. Robinson." It was a great time in America. I was too young to see DiMaggio play, but I did meet him and had dinner with him.He was probably 72 at the time.  After dinner I had a cigarette and he looked at me and said, "I used to smoke."  That made me feel so good. I was doing something that Joe DiMaggio did. Awesome.

Then he said, " I gave those things up because they will kill you and I kind of like living."  He said he had seen a lot of his friends and former baseball players die from smoking. I did not feel so Awesome any more. But that did not deter me from smoking. Oh no. I knew a lot more than Joe D. about what I was doing. I don't need Mr. Coffee to tell me what was up. I knew that smoking was no good, but it really did not affect me, it was all those other people that had to be worried. I was still young and full of life. I had only been smoking about 10 years at the time. In 1999, Joe DiMaggio passed away at the age of 84. It is said that he was still smoking. So when he told me he "quit" it did not stick. He need the EX website and maybe he could have held on to his quit. He had surgery for lung cancer in the fall of 1998 and died in the spring of '99. I had been smoking then for 21 years.

He was quite a baseball player. One of the best ever, but when it came to sticking to his quit, he was not a hall-of-famer. He did not become a 6 percenter. If I can live another 30 years, I would take that. Hopefully my quitting smoking will help. If I can live another 35 years, that would equal the years that I smoked. If I can make it 35 years from now as a non-smoker, that would take me to age 90 in 2048. Where have you gone Joe DiMaggio indeed?

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10 weeks today!!!

Posted by justsayno3 Feb 4, 2013

Today is 70 days smoke free. 10 Weeks. I am very thankful for this website and the people here that make this community special. It is not something I would have done on my own and I truly am blessed to have found you all. Thank you.

Lee

Who ever had a parent or a coach tell you that if you hang around with people of questionable character then you would become one also. You would become known by the company you kept. Well I am good with that because I am hanging around a bunch of quitters and I am going to become a quitter too.

Sad, I know but that is the choice I have made. Screw it. It is my life and I am just going to throw it (the cigs) away and hang out with a bunch of dedicated quitters. I have been hanging out with the non-smokers for two months now and they are my friends. So if I don't get outside with the smoke break crew, EXcuse.....me. I do not have time for that.

I have chosen to get busy living instead of getting busy dying. I got things I gotta do and smoking is just not part of the plan. So burn one for me while you are out there in the snow and wind and below zero temperatures. I quit. I quit doing that and I quit hanging with smokers and I quit killing myself and I quit stinking and I quit burning money and I quit thinking I am giving up something because I quit thinking that way. I quit wishing that I did not smoke and started doing. Do yourself a favor and start hanging out with quitters and you will become a quitter too.

Lee

I was in the middle of writing the most amazing and earth-shattering blog when our computer system crashed this morning and it was lost. So sad. It was amazing. You just have to take my word for it and of course I cannot recreate it. Call it "disposed prose."

Anyway- 60 days smoke free today thanks to the EX. The people I have come to know on here have become friends. We were all brought here for a common goal and since then, we have shared our lives. We know when others are happy and sad and sick and on vacation and we just care. This is a place where miracles happen. It is a miracle that I do not smoke because I was not going to quit. Talk about it. Flirt with it. But not do it.

In "The Wizard of Oz" Dorthy tells her friends goodbye and reminds them that they have always had the courage and the heart and the brains, they just did not know where to look for them. The EX has shown me where to look for them. Thank you. EXers.

NOPE

Lee