Where have I gone wrong?

Blog Post created by JustSharon on May 27, 2017

This is a question I've been asking myself for days. I know how to quit smoking, I know why I should quit smoking, I have a very supportive family here at EX, I am well aware of what addiction is and how it works. I at one time quit for 3.5 years and those were some of the happiest years of my life. Why did I throw it all away then. EXCUSES! My Jake had been quit for 17.5 years and had gotten into a huge fight with our daughter, I can't elaborate, but for the fact that it was mean and hateful. I came in from outside to see if he had calmed down and I couldn't find him. I went to the garage and the car was gone. He came back, after all those years with a pack of cigarettes. At that moment in all the turmoil, I asked, "where is mine". I smoked and never looked back until a year ago. Funny how in this last relapse a week ago it's that same old story: trouble with our daughter. More Excuses. I just don't know what to do. How does one get past the excuses? I'm tired, I'm sick and tired of this game I'm seeming to play. I don't understand it and I don't know how to get all the good back.You elders have all the answers. Are you there now to help me?