Difficulties

[JustSharon]

I was sitting on my back porch thinking about how quitting smoking was working for me. I began to think of my mother-in-law who had a 15 year quit yet still died of lung cancer. I thought of my brother-in-laws father who had a 20 year quit and died of lung cancer. I thought of Jake who gave up a 17 year quit 2 years ago and worry he will suffer the fate of his mother. He had 3 aunts also each of whom died of cancer and were smokers up to the very end of their lives. I thought of myself with moderate COPD and was told by my pulmonologist that those who die of that disease suffocate to death. I thought of what is the point of quitting now after well over 40 years now that the damage has already been done. Then I read https://excommunity.becomeanex.org/blogs/Marilyn.H.July.14.14.-blog?sr=search&searchId=71ab8ca6-38e0... and got the encouragement I needed to go on. I do breath better without smoking and it sure saves money, its just the statistics I have shown left me with doubt. Doubt should never be a part of my vocabulary knowing full well to  trust in God. So I move on with my quit, knowing fill well it is doable and something I want for myself. Thanks for listening.