“Give Recovery a chance, give yourself a chance, give LIFE a chance!” a quote from @@Thomas Stuff Happens.
Since my relapse, I can’t seem to muster up the courage to give myself that chance. It’s all that consumes me throughout the day.
I have now added myself to the ranks of serial quitters. Since my early 30’s (I’m 61) I can’t begin to too count my feeble attempts at quitting. My best quit lasted 3.5 years and oh how I regret the day I gave up on that. I was so happy then, so free. That was only a few years ago. And now. 132 days up in smoke. It’s only been about a week since I quit on that quit. I wanted to jump right back and thought I had put my mind to it each day to put them down and start anew. Didn’t do it, chickened out. I like smoking and I hate everything about it. How is this so? ADDICTION, that is how.
I have just taken a break from this writing, went back to the boards and found this from a @@Thomas blog:Now that has turned some lights on in this tired mind of mine. Thank you Thomas. I can certainly try that, sounds so simple enough. I’ll keep you all posted. Thanks for listening.@