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Smoking Thoughts

Jenny78
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Something awful happened about 3 weeks ago and I have been going through a depression off and on over it.  Thoughts of smoking keep entering my mind after 10 1/2 months of freedom.  I had 3 dogs, 2 pitt bulls and 1 pomeranian.  The oldest pitt is 11 years old and the younger one is 3 years old.  This summer the younger pitt (both females spayed) has started attacking the older dog in the back yard.  This has happened 3 times and all 3 times I have been outside to witness and try to break it up.  This last time, my brother tried to stop the fight and was bitten in the leg pretty badly.  I had to take him to the hospital for 20 stitches. I cried over this and I had to make a decision to put down one of the dogs and had decided to put down the younger one (my favorite) because she was the one with the aggression towards the older dog.  My son came over and decided to take her home with him and look for a new home.  I agreed as none of us wanted to put her down as she is great with people.  He found her a good home with no other pets and no children and they love her which is great for her.  I still miss her every day. I am so saddened by this and feel horrible that my brother was bitten when he got in the middle of two dogs trying to kill each other. 

Which dog bit him you ask?  It actually was the older dog as she was fighting for her life and did not know who she was biting.  I kept her because she was the victim is this fight and did not deserve to be attacked.  Now some in my family felt that I should have put her down and keep the other dog.  Believe me, I had to do a lot of soul searching and my brother and I both witnessed these fights and agree that I kept the right dog.  Through all of this I have had thoughts of smoking and say to myself that "smoking is not an option"  "I don't do that anymore"  and "smoking won't change anything".  We all have problems in our lives and they will come and go but never, ever think that smoking just one will change  anything, because it won't.  Remember not one puff ever.  Just sharing.

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