Sometimes, life can give you those occasional ups and downs. Thats where smoking came in- like a best friend. Cigarettes were always there- always ready to take a load off. I'll admit there were some times I was driving home from work-checking out my co-workers having their smoke and me just feeling this overwhelming sense of: just one won't hurt!!
Having said that- relapse, I learned, was actually a part of the quit plan. It's OK to feel that way. It is TOUGH to react a different way that was comfortable before. Here I am- breathing fresh, clean air after 2 years. Yesterday I mowed the lawn- right before a nice rain shower and I felt like breathing in that pure outdoors air and thoght- wow this air is great. No more coughing up a lung about 20 minutes afterwards.
I learned my older (and only) brother is coming back home from the Middle East. YEAH! My parents are healthy and just bought a huge (gas drinking) Chevy truck. And Im just happy breathing fresh air. -Jas
