I consider myself beyond the quit but more at a point of protecting what I have accomplished. Protecting my quit is remembering life before I quit and knowing now each day is a beautiful journey as a nonsmoker. Of course, 522 days is much easier than the first 22 but I don't want to NEF never ever forget what it was like being a smoker.
I don’t dwell on it but there are times I should remind myself and NEF that my morning wake-up call was often from a cigarette. Now it is a breath of fresh air. Ahh, so refreshing.
NEF that I use to think that I “had to have” one with my morning coffee. What a foolish thought.
NEF I how I rushed to finish a meal just to engage in getting my fix and fulfilling a ritual. “ I don’t do that anymore”.
NEF the time I wasted to make sure I had one before leaving for work. How about the one riding in my car blowing smoke out of the window, flickering ashes outside the car. NEF how desperate, disgusting and ignorant that looked and felt. “Chained” “Hooked”
NEF the stench I thought I was hiding. What a fool I was.
NEF hiding in corners, behind buildings, down the road, at breaks, sometimes before/after lunch. I thought I just wanted to smoke. I am now aware of the addiction I was trying to satisfy.
I will NEF the drive home, then arriving. Before, during or after a task. Before and after dinner. Again for evening relaxation, again before bedtime and any other excuse in between before the morning cigarette alarm woke me up again. So consuming. What a vicious spiral. Thank God I am free.
To protect my quit is to NEF. My freedom from nicotine addiction depends on it. If you are thinking of giving up or haven’t started you can be successful too. First, by educating yourself about nicotine addiction. NOPE, NO MATTER WHAT and NEF.
