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i did not know

Blog Post created by JACKIE1-25-15 on May 23, 2016

Some of you may have been wondering where I have been.  Along with lurking in the background, I have been living and enjoying the life of a nonsmoker.  I didn’t know that starting this journey would change my life with things I had hoped for would come to existence.

 Before I started my journey on EX I didn’t realize that education would be the key to a successful quit.  I didn’t know that I had to reprogram my thinking from the brainwashing that comes with addiction.   The mainstay was willingness not willpower to make lifestyle changes to be a nonsmoker.  Willingness to do whatever is necessary to remain smoke-free.  Through the power of self-talk, I learned to continuously tell myself   “I am a nonsmoker, I don’t do that anymore”.  No matter what!  NOPE over and over again until it became automatic.  I had no idea I would start a mantra that would be used regularly on the site.  SINAO. Smoking is not an option.

I had no clue that I would develop sincere friendships and receive the best support and give support by being on this site. I learned that coming here blogging and reaching out would help save my quit.  I was soon seeing that Ex had become my new addiction.   Morning noon and night reading and reading and reading and reading until my eyes were tired red and gritty.    I quickly let go of the excuses to continue smoking.  My commitment and honoring my quit each day was my main goal.

Never thought I would prove Allen Carr’s theory about quitting to be correct, EXCUSES weight gain, relaxing, enjoyment, or can’t, won’t stop.  I didn’t know that my emotions were caught up in nicotine for a good feeling.  I had to learn and relearn how to deal with life crisis without smoking.  NO MATTER WHAT!   Headaches, insomnia, fatigue, dizziness, depression, loneliness, anger, mood swings, weight gain and agony.  All worth it. NEF never ever forget.

 I have come to the awareness that quitting at times can be the easier part but guarding and protecting requires focus and work just as well.  Never knew but as time passed my thinking and acting like a nonsmoker would help cement me being one. We are who we think we are NON-SMOKERS   

I now know the true peace that comes with being smoke-free.  I feel so spiritually cleansed.  At 484 days I can run 3-4 miles while breathing easy.  My clothes are fitting and smelling wonderful. My skin and hair have a marvelous glow.  I know now what it is like not to have to cover up with perfume.   I no longer have to hide in shame about being a smoker. I am free. I am a nonsmoker.  

Get focused and stay focused.  Give your quit 100%.   Part time smoking is still smoking.  Never give away your quit.   “One puff” will lead to relapse.  Be willing to let it go.  You’re not giving up a thing. 

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