424 Days and I could puff right now.

Blog Post created by JACKIE1-25-15 on Mar 24, 2016

Yes I said it.  This is one of those days that I could use an excuse to puff but I won't because I will never ever put another cigarette to my lips, not on my tongue, not in my lungs, not in my mouth, not in my throat. So whatever I am feeling right now will just have to wear itself out.  I would cry but I think if I started it would be a long time before I stopped and I  may become hysterical.  Just the thought of that makes me laugh.  I may be rambling right now but I have to say these things . 

.Most of the time I am on top of the world but not this day.  Nothing major has happened just a culmination of people places and things and obligations and this and that and this and that and the other.  But I will be okay because I am stronger, smarter, wiser, I won't lose what I have worked for to be back at zero.  I said Zero not One.  I am delivered and I will not turn around for just a few seconds of pleasure that will never ever be fufilled.   My quit is more important, so don't worry I won't smoke but I could if I allowed my old addiction to have control.  I just wanted to say I could puff if I wanted to but it is my choice and I still chose FREEDOM.  Smoking is never an option. SINAO.  I won't quit on my quit.  I will not give in I will never give up.  This is a forever quit....no matter what. HALT  I think it is the lonely one.  Breathe  and go do SOMETHING.