Yes I said it. This is one of those days that I could use an excuse to puff but I won't because I will never ever put another cigarette to my lips, not on my tongue, not in my lungs, not in my mouth, not in my throat. So whatever I am feeling right now will just have to wear itself out. I would cry but I think if I started it would be a long time before I stopped and I may become hysterical. Just the thought of that makes me laugh. I may be rambling right now but I have to say these things .
.Most of the time I am on top of the world but not this day. Nothing major has happened just a culmination of people places and things and obligations and this and that and this and that and the other. But I will be okay because I am stronger, smarter, wiser, I won't lose what I have worked for to be back at zero. I said Zero not One. I am delivered and I will not turn around for just a few seconds of pleasure that will never ever be fufilled. My quit is more important, so don't worry I won't smoke but I could if I allowed my old addiction to have control. I just wanted to say I could puff if I wanted to but it is my choice and I still chose FREEDOM. Smoking is never an option. SINAO. I won't quit on my quit. I will not give in I will never give up. This is a forever quit....no matter what. HALT I think it is the lonely one. Breathe and go do SOMETHING.