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2016

Happy Resurrection Day to all. I send my greetings celebrating the Resurrection of Jesus Christ.

I am 427 days smoke free. The last several days have been overwhelmingly frustrating.   Still learning to deal with life's lessons smoke free.  No matter what not one puff ever NOPE saved me.  I have to preach to myself sometimes.  Whenever I am in conflict with someone I need to focus on the areas of my character that I need to work in order to deal with others. Still learning to live as a nonsmoker.  The situation has calmed down and I believe things will eventually get better..  Did not smoke no matter what.. YAY I am a non smoker.  Amen

Yes I said it.  This is one of those days that I could use an excuse to puff but I won't because I will never ever put another cigarette to my lips, not on my tongue, not in my lungs, not in my mouth, not in my throat. So whatever I am feeling right now will just have to wear itself out.  I would cry but I think if I started it would be a long time before I stopped and I  may become hysterical.  Just the thought of that makes me laugh.  I may be rambling right now but I have to say these things . 

.Most of the time I am on top of the world but not this day.  Nothing major has happened just a culmination of people places and things and obligations and this and that and this and that and the other.  But I will be okay because I am stronger, smarter, wiser, I won't lose what I have worked for to be back at zero.  I said Zero not One.  I am delivered and I will not turn around for just a few seconds of pleasure that will never ever be fufilled.   My quit is more important, so don't worry I won't smoke but I could if I allowed my old addiction to have control.  I just wanted to say I could puff if I wanted to but it is my choice and I still chose FREEDOM.  Smoking is never an option. SINAO.  I won't quit on my quit.  I will not give in I will never give up.  This is a forever quit....no matter what. HALT  I think it is the lonely one.  Breathe  and go do SOMETHING.

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Thank God I am free

Posted by JACKIE1-25-15 Mar 14, 2016

Today @414 DOF.   I am so happy to be free from the clutches of nicotine. Hallelujah!  Praises!  I just have to say it. I pledge today that I will not smoke  no matter what.   NOPE not one puff ever.  Not in my hands, not on my lips, not on my tongue, not in my lungs, not in my throat, I will not cough or choke.  SINAO. Smoking is not an option.   Can you imagine saying something as simple as that and committing to not smoking has helped to keep me smoke free.  Self talk was one of the tools I used that has kept me free from smoking.  What are you saying to yourself.?

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Get the 411

Posted by JACKIE1-25-15 Mar 11, 2016

I like the number so for me it is the right time to blog.  Yes, 411 days smoke free and with this day comes a feeling of pride, along with an awareness that there have been times that the “what if “questions have come to my mind.

My first what if: “What if” I never came to the EXcommunity?   Secondly, what if I did not read the suggested literature and resources that were offered?   What would have happened if I ran away because my addictive brain did not like what it was being told?  What if this site was just another social media experience?  What if I did not make a commitment to never ever put another cigarette in my hand, on my lips, on my tongue, in my lungs, in my throat, because this is my forever quit.   What if I did not make this site a regular place for me to be with my morning coffee, lunch or dinner?   What if I did not allow EX to become my new addiction?    It has been a good one. I have grown in so many other areas of my life, physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally and financially.  What if I did not allow myself to become vulnerable to blog, make new friends and gain the support of the elders?  What if I asked for advice and did not take it?  What if I did not learn all the mantras.  (HALT, NOPE, NEF, Not to quit on my quit. Life is grand without a cigarette in hand.  I don’t do that anymore. SINOA).  I didn’t know what a mantra was until I got here.

What if I did not take my quit seriously that no matter how HALT hungry, angry, lonely or tired I would not smoke?  What if I was not willing to go through “whatever means necessary” to be smoke free.  This is bigger and beyond what I could have ever imagined or dreamed being smoke free.  I have to say, Hallelujah! The highest praise.   I am living it and each day gets better being smoke free.  

What if I never opened my mind up to really relearn my “stinkin thinkin”.   What if I continued to use the excuse that I did not want to gain weight or continued to tell myself that this is too hard?  What if I allowed my addictive brain to stay in control of MY LIFE.  Thank God, I did not allow my addiction to be more powerful than myself. Sometimes this journey is not always easy but it is worth it and “doable”.    The main thing is you won’t die from quitting smoking.  You will die if you don’t.  I think my final big what if!  What if I had decided to give up?   I would not be saying YAY I got the 411.  Thank God I don’t have to ask or worry about “what if's”?

You know I like to have fun so click on the link below. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVSlDF_Xdcs

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Whew

Posted by JACKIE1-25-15 Feb 29, 2016

It has been a busy day on the EX ya'll good night.   If the Lord is willing I will see you tomorrow