Eight months had passed since my last attempt to quit. I was really sick and tired of smoking. I literally hated it. Could not stand the smell. Hated spending my money and wasting my time. Really, really pissed off mad at me! Angry that I had allowed myself to get caught in this trap AGAIN.
My mind was made up whatever caused me to relapse before was never going to happen again so I started working my plan. I decided my birthday would be a good start date.Two days following my birthday was THE DAY. I had made up my mind, if I can make it 24 hrs. then I am on my way. 24 hrs. passed, not too much of a problem, mostly water,chewing gum, meds, focused on staying busy. 48 hrs.The urges kicked in, Bam! Drama! You know the feeling. The pull, tug of war to smoke. What am I going to do? I said to myself. Self "No Matter What you are not going to smoke". After 72 hours which seemed like forever grueling I knew the nicotine would be out of my system. What was I going to do? No matter what! I was not going to smoke. I would keep telling myself if this is what it takes to be smoke free then by any means necessary. I was willing to do whatever it takes to be smoke free. My mind was made up. I will never take another puff. No Not One. i was not playing around. It was on! No turning back.
Since those first three days there have been ups and downs in this journey. Sometimes it is not easy but we have to adapt and relearn our thinking to believe that we DO NOT HAVE TO SMOKE. With the support of this community I am able to get through the roughest times a lot easier. I am Now 278 days smoke free. Still no matter what. NOPE- NEF SINAO. Smoking is not an option and thank God, I don’t do that anymore. I AM a nonsmoker.
