My heart is beating fast. I had been out all day fishing and returned home to find a notice on my door that has me quite upset and I am shaking inside. It is a serious financial matter that I really don't know what it is about. I have to wait until the morning to return the calll. I feel that this would be something that I would have smoked over. So right now I am taking deep breathes to try and calm down. I looked the company up on the internet and see a lot of complaints about the unscruopulous (sp) of this company. My first thought. Why am I being attacked. Something is trying to get me so upset to smoke. I can not stop trembling. I came here after researching. Blogging seems to be helping me calm down. I was excited and could not find the documents necessary to prove this matter was taken care of. Anyway I am still doing my deep breathing. I have to try and ta\lk some sense to myself. Well this is it. I am going to drink some water and see if that helps. I am sure most of youhave finished for tonight. No I am not going to smoke. But I am experienceing a crisis without smoking. I am trying to hold my head on. All kinds of things are going through my head that someone is trying to take my home. . Whew No matter what I will not smoke.
