It has been awhile since I have written a blog I usally don't write until something hits me. There were times that the desire to smoke came upon me. For the last week or so i have been dealing with what I call life issues, which we all have to face from time to time. Life does not stop even when we quit.
Smoking is no longer an option. When I tore a muscle in my hip 1 1/2 weeks ago and had to deal with excruciating pain. In order to feel better smoking was not an option. SWNAO My non smoking brain knew that smoking would and could not fix it. But the addiction wanted me to. Imagine how many times I would light a cigarette as if it could heal something.
Due to my mishap I was not able to check on my dad in rehab. Could not get anyone to go in for me. Tears fell but smoking was not the option.
On Monday the hottest day this summer my AC failed. SWNAO. All I could do was open the windows, pull out the electrical fans and enjoy my freeze pops.
When I found out it will cost over $5,000 to replace my AC system. SWNAO All I could do was pull out the check book. OUCH! SWNAO.
Now it is Friday morning, waking up from little sleep, with pain in my hip SINAO, AC Tech at the door, coffee brewing SINAO
It has been 6 months since I quit smoking. No I do not have urges all the time and there are days that I don't even think about smoking. Even at 6 months there are times like those mentioned that my addiction tries to give me reason, desires to smoke. I am thankful that I still have the choice to smoke or not to smoke. I realize not smoking is much better for me. I have come to far to turn around. I have made it through 180 days. Again today I pledge today not to smoke. 6% here I come! NOPE Not in my hands, not on my lips, not in my mouth, not on my tongue, not in my lungs, not in my nose, not in my clothes. NOPEThank God for FREEDOM
