Has turned into a whirlwind. Several times I said to myself I would have smoked by now or this is just something that is testing whether I will smoke or not. I try to remind myself that material things do not last and we have to prioritize how we feel about possessions.
Today was the very first time I ever parked my brand new car on the street. Right in front of my house because I planned to return to unload it shortly but obstruction in the drive and I got sidetrackd by hunger. Low and behold I hear this noise like a jack hammer. I went outside. My neighbor is cutting rocks with his lawn mower. (literally) I run into the house to get my keys to move my car can't find them. By the time I had returned Guess What. Window shattered. Now I am frustrated. Deductible $XXX.00 I know he doesn't have any money so what is the point of me approaching him. He is drunk anyway. Breathe Jackie Breathe, this is just something trying to get you to smoke. But you are not going to. Scream Holler, no don't scream don't holler. Passed the test. I had planned to take a trip Mothers Day. I am going broken window and all. I am stronger than what I think I am. Broken window, drunk neighbor, burnt potatoes. But it is all good. Breathe Jackie Breathe. Have great Mother's Day to all of the Mother's....Life goes on even as a nonsmoker. We can do this.
