I had stopped at a convenience store for a break while traveling. While I was there the idea to have a cigarette came to my mind. Looking up I could see them on the top rack they looked inviting. There was no tug of war, at this point I just wanted to smoke it did not matter. I think I was curious about how it would affect me. At the time I wasn't quite sure. Anyway, I bought a pack, my brand. So I slowly opened the pack and took out a cigarette, lit and smoked it. I thought it would blow my head off but I did not choke, I did not cough, it felt kind of good, the smoke going down my throat to my head. The feel of the drag, the satisfaction, relief.
Okay, now that was over I stomped the butt out, and said to myself, I can go right back to not smoking. I wonder why the clerk let me buy a pack of cigarettes. I am not starting over, this one mistake is not going to count. She should have stopped me. I guess my guilt snapped in and I tore the pack up and put it in the trash. Everything may not be in the exact order because this was a dream. (got cha!) Walked out of the store and then I woke up....
Thank God it was only a dream. So everthing may not be in the exact order. What was confirmed in the dream, it is easier to smoke if you don't have your guard up. You can easily make an excuse to smoke. All it takes is one puff and you are back to smokling. Don't give in to your foolish whims, stand firm in your quit. I hope everyone finished reading this before posting. Have a smoke free day. I am 101 days, or is that lol.
