Reality Check

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Today I realized how powerful the drug nicotine had been in control of my brain. Now 82 days smoke free and worth every second of this journey to freedom and still learning.  I stayed busy all day rearranging, organizing and improving my living space.  How many times can i rearrange my furniture?  OCD!!!!  Obsessive Complusive Disorder  lmho Oh well at least it is getting better each time.  I am very tired right now.  

To all: have a good night. 

For those that did not make it through today smoke free, my prayers go up for you to not give up, reevaluate the reasons why. 
Today I kept seeing the image of my grandson when I told him I had quit. I never want to hide smoking again. I promised myself when he was born I would quit.  He is sixteen years old now.  I am keeping this promise to me and to him.   Quitting is easy, staying quit sometimes takes work.  Today was one of those times. I do mean work.  Thank God I made it through another day smokefree .  One day at a time sweet Jesus. Thank you.  I am a non smoker.   Amen Goodnight. 10:20pm EST