As I look back the first time I smoked was because I was lonely. My fiancee had just entered the Army and was going to Vietnam. Good excuse huh? He came back he was already a smoker so now we both smoked. He smoked a lot more than I. Smoked everywhere except church. lol Whew. That was over 45 years ago and I am at this point AGAIN trying to quit. Things have changed, now days you don't smoke when you get pregnant. Back in the day you were allowed to smoke no more than 10 cigarettes a day. .
Well moving forward I tried to quit. Tried hypnosis twice. The first time did not last long especially when I just wanted to smoke or found my husbands cigs hid in the bathroom. I had tried on my own with no success. Read books, How to Quit and Lose Weight. Helped but still smoked. The final straw, my husband passed of heart disease. I have been afraid ever since. My doctor rx the wellbutrin, was successful for almost two years. Then I started dating someone who smoked, that was a mistake. In between I have been to smoking cessation classes and joined this site over two years ago. Tried on my own but when i hit the highest stress level I revert back to smoking. So my main trigger is getting so upset that i am blowing steam and can not control this trigger. I resolve not to allow myself to get in to situations that will cause me that much anger that someone would have control over my emotions-actions. I have to keep telling myself this and NO> . So this time #IAMGONNAMAKEIT.
