I woke up this morning feeling very strange and guilty. When I came to my senses from what I felt a deep sleep, I realized that I had opened my eyes up from having a smoking dream. There I was in my dream, smoking a cancer stick. I could not even remember the entire dream. The only memories left in my mind was of me leaning on a wooden railing, standing on a wooden boardwalk and staring out across a huge body of water.
Water is a huge stress reliever for me. Whether it be in a shower, bathtub, watching the rain fall, kayaking, lakes, rivers, the ocean, no matter what, water calms me down to such an inner feeling of peace.
Now, where am I going with this whole story? Yes, the power of nicotine addiction.
I have been under a tremendous amount of stress lately. I had one smoking dream in the early part of my quit. I was in a kayak and the water was polluted all around. There was a pack of cigarettes unopened in my pocket, and that’s all I recall of that dream. Yes, it had to do with water too.
Now, this day I am at 975 days smokefree, and I awakened from a smoking dream??? Today I experienced the power of my addiction to cancer sticks, but once again. Was this addiction trying to infiltrate a strong stress reliever for me, that being water?
I hope you all have a blessed, smokefree day. I have some stress to address, and I am doing it smokefree, so walk with me, please!