Yesterday I had a panic attack after many years. I lost control, I lost myself. I can't still get over my abusive ex girlfriend. I vomitted, I had nausea, headaches, my heart was beating very fast and I said that right now it's a good time to buy a pack and calm myself. My smokefree journey lasted 29 days. So close to a month and damn it I destroyed it all. I feel sorry to you guys and to myself that I disappointed you and myself. Should I reset the quit day now? I thought the first week was the biggest obstacle but some things I can not have total control make me do stupid things and decisions. I am so weak. And terrible.
