Need to vent

[Deena-A-Yenni]

I am posting this evening because I have things on my mind that might be burdening me to a point of depression.  I was sexually/mentally/physically abused for a 15 year period.  I'm told that I should move on and I have for the most part but my abusers Birthday is this Saturday and for all of the events I have crowded myself with I seem to be eating more, sleeping more just to get thru the day.  I don't want to give him the control he once had over me but I thought if I vented to my family of EXers perhaps the burden of bad memories could be lifted.  No worries on the smoking but the memories of smoking and desiring a cigarette and drugs for that matter have revealed itself once again.  I'm sure this is something that all of us non-smokers have to go thru and don't think it abnormal but wanted to get my feelings off my chest and perhaps move on to more pleasantries.

Onward and Upward.  Thanks for being here.