And "Blue Christmas" my favorite Christmas song. But I won' be singing it this Christmas, my kid will be home.
Thinking about my son (him and his wife are coming home for Christmas), and how I deserve such an incredibly awesome kid.
As he was growing up I told him: "the secret to stay a non-smoker is to never start; I wish I never did myself, and now I can't stop, but if you ever want to try one, you know where in the house they are, please to not try any from the kids in school, have one at home".
But he never started and he is a non-smoker, he sails, hikes, uses the bicycle to go to work weather permitting, participated in the Spartan games, while working long hours.
And a while ago he told me "mom, you are approaching 60, and your body's ability to recover is not the same as in your 30's or 40's; please quit, I would love to have you by my side for a little longer". Culturally we are not saying "I love you" very often, but this was his way of telling me. He made me look at what smoking was doing to my dear ones, and I quit.
And now I am happily awaiting the holiday, the first smoke free Christmas, I was the only smoker, and I remember how many times I was interrupting our game, to go out and have a smoke. Not this year!!!
Now we have a non-smoking family and I am so proud to be one of them. Well, it is not a big family (5 here in USA, including my daughter in law), but it is my family and no one smokes anymore, and I am so very happy about it!
If you have not quit, please do. If you are struggling with cravings, please know they will go away. If you want to become someone you are proud of please quit today. It is worth the work, the patience, the frustrations, because somewhere along the way you are becoming someone else, someone better, healthier, more lovable, more loving, more respected, mostly by yourself, and that makes a whole world of difference.
Hoping you are reading...Happy Holidays to all!
Daniela 272 DOFs
