A lot of things happening in my life, all positive, happy (like my son's wedding on the 18th), no smoking either!!!
Then why am I so emotional? I have been crying since yesterday almost non-stop, even in my dreams... the few hours I slept...
And smoking was not involved in any way form or shape.
Am I scared to face new situations without the cigarette?
Am I stuffing my feelings when saying I receive every crave with joy? Am I honest with myself? I thought I was, then why do I need to cry?
Need to step out of the house and drive 40min to work and I am scared I won't see the road because I can't stop my tears from falling...
Do I need to see a counselor, or this too shall pass?
I am confused, 88 DOF and feeling lower than the second/third week...
I want to be alone, and have no responsibilities but my own(and maybe that is another thing pushing down on me, i have mom, in some respects more demanding than a baby, and will have to spend the next 3 weeks or so at her beck and call because she'll be meeting my son's in laws family, and she speaks no English, and we'll be flying long hours), maybe I am just scared of what is to come.
Thank you for listening, I'll get better, sometimes...
Daniela
