~~You don't get over an addiction by stopping using. You recover by creating a new life where it is easier to not use. If you don't create a new life, then all the factors that brought you to your addiction will catch up with you again.~~ Unknown
I sadly see that a few people I care about are struggling. Some have already chosen to smoke again. And it's not that I feel disappointment in them, just an overwhelming sorrow as the lies of addiction seduced again.
I can't quit for you. No one here can. We do cheerlead and we do offer advice and we do make suggestions because we know those lies of addiction. We also listen, sympathize, empathize, hear you, hold hands, offer shoulders, and sit with you in complete silence if that's what helps.
Everyone has a different take on addiction and what's important and what helped them. We aren't here to give you the perfect formula because, frankly, there isn't one. What worked for me may not work for you and what works for you may not work for the next. But don't think that means you are alone, it just means that you have to create your new life 'where it's easier not to use'.
For some that might mean keeping busy through knitting, painting, running, gardening, singing. For others it may mean joining a club or a team or a class. It may mean making new friends, leaning on old friends, meditating, lessening your work load, slowing down to ease your stress.
These are my thoughts alone but I think you will continue to cycle with smoking until you create a life where you don't need to do that anymore. Replacing the cigarettes with things that make your soul sing. It gives you something to look forward to instead of doing something you dread. Even if it's a butterscotch with your morning coffee...or that early morning walk with a friend...or that extra 10 more minutes to read that favorite book. Give yourself joyous moments, contented times, and healthy alternatives.
Accept that when you quit, you can't smoke anymore. Period. So no amount of cravings can make you cave because you don't do that anymore. Look to your alternatives. "I don't smoke anymore but I can read a book for 15 minutes....or I can do 15 minutes of yoga....or I can call my mom and talk..."
Just a few thoughts because I hate so much that I can't do more. But you can